A/N- This songfic popped into my head at 11 pm at night, fishing and singing Paramore with two of my Flock buddies. C= Randomness is fun, no? Even if, to tell the truth, I wasn't really singing much…I'm not as obsessed with the band as they are.
This takes place right after Max and Fang fight, in book three, Saving The World And Other Extreme Sports, on page 180, for those who care.
I'm going to officially dedicate this little oneshot to my Paramore lovin' friends (you know who you are,) Blaze especially! Ignorance is her one of her favorite songs, and this is for you! Hope ya like it! C=
D'I'S'C'L'A'I'M'E'R'!'- I do not own Maximum Ride, or Ignorance, by Paramore.
Max's Tirade On Ignorance
I sat on the snow-covered roof, keeping watch, and absorbing heat from the brick chimney. The world was silent: Fang was away, and everybody else was sleeping.
I took advantage of my alone time to simmer and wallow in my anger at Fang. And, though I hated to admit it, a little bit of fear too.
Okay, more than a little. I'd never seen him so mad, and he was a total stranger to me. I had no idea what he might do.
Sitting alone, in the quiet, I thought of a song I heard once, on the radio in a New York cafe, seemingly forever ago. It seemed to fit what had happened pretty well, and I tried to remember the lyrics.
If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, I guess I'll make my own way.
It's a circle, a mean cycle,
I can't excite you anymore.
Fang wasn't exactly excited with me.
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well, sentence me to another life.
He was judging me harsher than ever before. Fang never questioned my choices; he knew they were what was best for the Flock.
Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain.
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same.
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same.
I don't want to feel his pain. This whole thing was his doing. He blamed it on me, on my kindness to Ari, but we really weren't the same. He thought things through more than me, but I knew I was right this time. My snap decisions had served us well thus far, and I couldn't just leave Ari. Fang was being cruel.
Yeah, the friends who stuck together
we wrote our names in blood.
But I guess you can't accept the change is good
It's good
It's good
We had known each other for our whole lives. The Flock was always the Flock, from the beginning, we were a family. Fang just didn't get that having Ari along would be a good thing. And it was only until…until he expired.
Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat my just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend
lgnorance is your new best friend
It was true, in a way. Fang had never treated me like this before, and I wasn't his best friend. Not anymore, not after that.
And this is the best thing that could have happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it
It was the best thing to do. We couldn't just abandon Ari. And Fang treated this like there was sides; him versus Ari. It wasn't a war. And I was only human, figuratively speaking. I can't please everybody, but I could work toward the greater good, couldn't I?
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself
I could make my own choices. He didn't have to judge me for it.
I sang the song in my head, trying to remember the title. It was really fitting. Somehow, the words made me stronger, less afraid. I could take on anything Fang threw at me. I was Maximum Ride. I was right in this, and I would stand by my decision. Fang wasn't going to sway me, no matter how much it hurt.
