Disclaimer: Nothing belongs to me, I feel sad…

Warnings: Poem, angst

Pairings: 2, 1+R (I know…ewww. I didn't wanna, but it wasn't my fault!!)

Making You Happy

I see the way you look at her,

I've noticed the way your eyes light up

Whenever you see her.

I wish you looked at me that way,

I wish I could make you happy

But it's not me you want

If she can make you happy,

I'll be content.

As long as you are happy,

It's all okay with me.

No, she's not my favourite person,

But if you love her,

I'll put up with her.

You looked stunning on your wedding day,

I guess she looked okay,

I was your best man.

It was terribly ironic,

Me, standing with you

At the front of a church…

But I handed you the ring,

And you slipped it onto her finger.

I held back tears,

While you leaned down and kissed her.

All night long, I smiled

Smiled so wide it hurt,

But I didn't want to ruin

Your wedding day.

I shook your hand,

Patted you on the back,

I even gave you a hug,

No more than a brief touch.

I congratulated you,

Told you I was glad for you.

I hugged her as well,

Told her I was happy for her, too

Happy for the both of you.

I prayed that you could see through me,

See that I was lying…

No, not lying,

I never lie,

Especially never to you.

No, I was pretending.

Could you see it?

My lifeless eyes,

My hollow voice,

My strained smile…

No, of course you couldn't.

I didn't want you to see,

But I hoped you could…

Maybe you could sense it somehow…

Maybe you could feel my pain,

Hear the emptiness of my words…

But no, I want only to please you,

And if she can make you happy,

Then I guess my work is done.

I hope you will be happy,

And I wish you all the best,

Even though I loved you

And you could not love me back.

I know it wasn't your fault,

It wasn't her fault either,

But thank you…

For showing a street rat

That he can still love.

I still love you,

Though I don't think I could ever tell you.

Perhaps it's for the best this way.

I know that she's the one you want.

And if she makes you happy,

Then I can't ask for more,

I just wish…

That it could have been me

Who makes you smile like that,

Me, who makes your eyes light up,

Me, who could make you happy…