A/n: A one shot set around season seven while Lilly and Eddie are dating

The Truth Hurts

Chapter 1: Dying to tell you.

Scotty looked across the desk at his partner of seven years Lilly Rush. He had something he longed to tell her, something that wasn't going to make her happy because it evolved breaking her heart.

As if her heart hadn't been broken enough in her life he thought, let's see, well first there was her father. He walked out on her when she was a little girl leaving her and Chris all alone with and alcoholic mother; although he had recently come back into her life Scotty could tell the pain of being abandoned was still there.

Her mother, who choose alcohol and men over her own daughters time and time again. As an adult Lilly was still picking up the pieces of her mother's life. Allowing her into her home when her mother promised she give up drinking for the umpteenth time in her life. Lilly had to come home and find her mother dead and she blamed herself for not being there for the woman that who was never there for her.

Chris who chooses to be much the same as her mother using men, alcohol and he even supposed drugs to get over the pain of her childhood, screwing Lilly over again and again. Even he had hurt her when he was stepping out with Chris, something her regretted so badly.

Then there was Ray, the guy who he always suspected was Lilly's first love. The guy that seemed to promise her a better life, away from her mother, the guy that impulsively proposed to her while they were in Nashville and the guy who now, would only ride back into her life to either get laid or when he was in trouble.

Patrick, the one who she fell madly and completely in love with, the guy she willing gave her whole heart to. The man who she decided he was the one, the one guy she had told everything to, completely opened up to and wanted to marry. The man who choose her sister over her even though he had promised her forever.

Kite who never understood her dedication to her career and wanted her to choose him over her job, the one thing she had always been able to count on, he like everyone else, left.

Joseph, of course who couldn't handle her relationship with Ray, even though she begged him to stay, saying that she didn't want to be alone he had given up on her. Telling her maybe she really did want to be alone.

And now Eddie, who she'd, met in a bar and discovered his weird obsession with Appletinis. The one who seemed constantly 'undercover' as he said but Scotty knew what he was really up to.

He'd suspected for some time that Eddie was cheating on her but the others had told him that they didn't think he was.

"We'll I am off, meeting Eddie for drinks" Lilly said standing up and picking up her coat. Scotty's heart sank and he glanced up at her.

"Say hi from me" Scotty said sarcastically and no one could miss the anger in his voice

"Would it kill you to be nice to him Scotty, he is trying to be nice to you but you always treat him like crap"

Scotty was about to say something when Kat stamped down on his foot. "I am sorry Lil" he said "I'll try"

"That's all I ask, Eddie's comming to first Thursdays tomorrow so can you at least make an effort, for me"

Scotty nodded and she bid the others goodnight and headed for the door.

"Scotty you've really got to cool it around her. Eddie is a decent guy" Kat said

"The bastard is cheatin' on her I just know it" Scotty said and the others groaned

"This again, damm it Scotty you don't have any proof. Lil is happy for once in her life" Vera said and he stood up "I am gonna go to, you commin Will?" Will nodded

"You're buyin the first round Nicky?" Jefferies asked and Vera sighed and nodded "In that case definitely" Will said and they headed for the door.

Scotty sighed and flipped open the case file "You gonna come, it's not that often Nicky's buyin" Kat said but Scotty just shook his head. "Well fine, stay here and mope" Kat said and she followed the guys out of the precinct. Scotty remained alone in the precinct for the next four hours, not wanting to go home and be alone.

Since Alex had left a few months ago (Not that , that relationship was the best he'd ever had, mainly based on sex really) Scotty had started thinking about what he wanted out of life. He realised he wanted the life he and Elisa had always planned on before she'd gotten sick. The wife, the house, the dogs and the 2.5 kids and He kept thinking of Lilly, It was at this point he realised that he had feelings, feelings for the one woman that he shouldn't ever have feelings for, feelings so strong that he'd couldn't get through the day without thinking about her. He started to picture himself growing old with her, having kids with her and spending the rest of his life with her because he wanted her to be his wife.

Just when he had worked up the courage to tell her, tell her that he loved her more than he had ever loved anyone in his life, even more than he had love Elisa. Just when he thought he could be as happy as he was before Elisa had gotten sick, she had started dating Eddie.

Scotty tried to feel happy for her but; there was something about Eddie that made him question his intentions. He had never told the others but one night he had followed Eddie, when Lilly had told them that he was back 'undercover' and he found out that Eddie was seeing not just one other woman, but three. Scotty wished he could tell her but he knew that no one would believe him and if Lilly ever found out that he'd practically stalked the guy, he was scared it would ruin their friendship and he'd never be able to tell her how he felt. Of course he wasn't sure whether or not he wanted to tell her because he wanted her to know that Eddie was a bastard or was it because he was so in love with her that he wanted her to be with him over anyone else.

Scotty sighed heavily and stood up; grabbing his jacket from the rack he walked out of the precinct, wondering if he had enough scotch in his apartment to drink himself into oblivion.

First Thursdays was something Scotty normally looked forward to, to be able to spend time with Lilly outside of work, where they dropped the professional veneer and he was able to see the other side of her, well as much as she let him in. But not this month, He watched his partner and Eddie dancing and he sighed tossing back another scotch.

"Give me another Hank" he said to the Bartender

"Still got a thing for your partner" Hank said

"I don't have a thing for Lil" Scotty lied

"Uh- huh, sure"

"Just shut up and poor me a drink will you" Scotty snapped and Joe chuckled pouring him another Scotch.

"Hey" Lilly said walking up behind him and ordering herself and Eddie a drink

"Hi" Scotty said not meeting her eyes.

"Hey Valens" Eddie said and Scotty ignored him, Lilly rolled her eyes and sighed "I am gonna get us a table Lil" Eddie said and he walked away.

"What happened to being polite to Him" Lilly said

"Ma always said if you can't say anything nice..."He said

"You're such a child" Lilly said "I don't know what your problem with him is, he loves me and I am actually happy so can't you just..." Lilly shook her head "You know what, just forget it" Lilly picked up the drinks and headed over to the table Eddie had secured.

"Good job Valens" Kat commented "If your plan was to piss her off even more than mission accomplished"

"It's not my fault she's datin' a complete jackass." Scotty said

"Look, I know how you feel about her, don't deny it" Kat said cutting him off before he could protest "But she's happy and besides you don't have any proof that he is cheating on her so can't you just be happy for her?"

"Look I know that she's never gonna feel the same way I feel about her, and I want her to be happy even if it ain't with me but Eddie isn't a decent guy and I just don't want her to get hurt again" Scotty said

Kat sighed and placed a hand on his shoulder "Scotty let's just say that for arguments sake that Eddie is cheating on her, do you think she's gonna say 'gee thanks for shattering me happiness Scotty' no she's gonna be just as mad with you" Scotty sighed, he knew deep down that Kat was right.

"I think I am gonna go, I can't sit here and watch her with him. It hurts too much" Scotty threw some cash on the bar and left.

Lilly watched him leave and sighed, she missed her best friend and ever since she'd started dating Eddie, Scotty closed himself of.

"You okay Babe?" Eddie asked. Lilly's eyes left the retreating form of her partner and smiled.

"Yeah" I am just tired I guess.

A/N: let me know if you guys like it or not, please read and review