Len's P.O.V
I moaned from the tapping sunlight against my face. I blinked and glanced over at my alarm clock. 10:30 AM. I closed my eyes, covered my face with a blanket and tried to get some more sleep before getting up. The sunlight was way too bright however; I could not fall back asleep. I yawned and rubbed my eyes, rolling to the other side of the bed.
It was already halfway through summer vacations. Since school had ended, I, Kagamine Len, had done nothing but gaming and being on social medias. I was a typical geek and gamer. I was not very interested by anything popular that most people would like. The only thing that I actually enjoyed doing was video gaming, video making, painting, and every once in a while, I liked to sing.
I was not very outgoing. I had a few friends from school, but I was not very close to any of them. Most of my friends were online friends. Pathetic, uh. I didn't mind that much, though.
I got out of bed and immediately turned on my laptop, as usual. It was a pretty cool laptop; very fast and easy to hack. I logged in, opened google chrome and Skype, then put a soft background music. I logged in my email. One message from Tumblr, two from YouTube and one from Facebook. The usual, again. I ignored them and looked for who was up on Skype. There was only that guy I met a few years ago on YouTube, Piko, and that weird friend of his, Oliver. Everyone seemed to be away. I didn't feel like talking to either of them, so I went on YouTube and looked if there were any good new videos. Nothing really caught my attention, so I went on Facebook. Still found nothing interesting. Tumblr? Nothing either. I sighed and rested my chin in my palm.
"Len, I made cookies. Want some?"
I jumped as my sister's gentle voice resonated in my head. "Rin!" I yelled, my heart still beating quite fast. "How many times do I have to tell you? Knock before you come in." I sighed, stealing her whole plate of chocolate chips cookies. I turned back to my computer and mumbled, "Thanks…"
My sister looked concerned, but kept her thoughts to herself. "Anytime," Rin kindly grinned before leaving the room and shutting the door behind her.
Enjoying the biscuit, I looked for something to do. Nothing good was happening on social medias, so I might as well just - oh! That video game forum I used to visit all the time, I wonder if there's anything interesting going on there? I haven't been on that website for years. I used to have some friends on there, maybe they are still active? I can always try to send them a message, it's not like I have anything else to do…
I went on the forum and logged in with an old username and password I had almost forgotten. So many things on the website had changed since then, but I eventually found the profile of one of my old friends. Nothing about it had changed from what I remembered. I looked at his profile:
Username: iAisuKs
Location: In an ice cream truck.
Age: Between 15 and 20.
Country: England.
Male/Female: Male.
Personal title: Ice cream god
Yes, that was definitively him. I smiled as I remembered him a little more clearly. He was a really nice and funny guy. He had been my first online bestie, which could be a little bit weird for those who don't believe in online friendship. I didn't even know how he looked like and I was like, what? Eleven years old back then? Something like that.
Should I still send him a private message? I had to admit, I was curious to know how he was doing after all those years. I took my keyboard and started typing.
To: iAisuKs
From: OrangiLk
Subject: Hey
Message: Yo! It's been a while, eh? I hope you remember me lol. I was just wondering how you've been doing, since it's been so long since we last talked.
Good enough? I thought so. I clicked "send" and stared at my screen for a few seconds. Well, that was done. I just had to wait until he responds. That was, if he ever sees it.
I was playing The Legend of Zelda: Twilight princess when my phone beeped. I paused the game and looked at my emails. "You have received a new PM from the forum"
To: OrangiLk
From: iAisuKs
Subject: Re:Hey
Message: Woah! It has been a while. Of course I remember you! I've been doing great, how about you? Shouldn't we use something easier to communicate though, something like skype? This forum isn't the nicest place to have a conversation. Anyway, ttyl!
I blushed and reread his message. Should I answer right now? I bit my lip and shrugged. Why not?
To: iAisuKs
From: OrangiLk
Subject: Re:Hey
Message: I'm doing great, thank you. And sure, why not? Here's my skype username: LenKagam21. You should find me pretty easily.
I clicked "send" once again and made sure my Skype was open. I left my computer as it was and went back to my game, keeping an eye on my Skype.
I waited hours, still nothing. I was then playing Assassin's Creed III, a bag of chips and pop beside me. My head ached because of my too tight pony tail and lack of healthy nutriments. I did not really care, since I was enjoying the game too much.
"Could you at least change your clothes?"
I jumped once again. "Rin!"
"Sorry," She gently giggled, her blue eyes glancing over the scene. "Len, you're a mess. You're really not eating properly and you haven't taken a shower for like… four days now. Let me at least help you clean your room." She said, clearly concerned about my wellbeing.
I paused the game. "Rin, I know mom's gone on a trip, but that doesn't mean you have to boss me around. Could you just please, leave me alone?" I rolled my eyes, sighing.
"Len…" she pitifully looked at me.
I didn't need her pity. I ignored her and turned off the PS3. She sighed and closed the door behind her, leaving me alone once again. I went back to my computer and checked my messages. Still nothing… Maybe he went to bed. He lives in England after all, he's 5 hours ahead of me. I rubbed my eyes and passed my hands through my hair. Uh… a shower wouldn't be that bad after all.
I grabbed a few clean clothes that had been laying on the ground and headed to the bathroom. I locked the door and turned on the water. I looked at my own reflection in the mirror. I looked horrible. When did I start looking so skinny?
Not that long ago, my father died of skin cancer. He left my pitiful mother, jobless, alone with me and my twin sister, Rin. Since then, my life has been upside down. I would always lock myself in my room and play games. My mother had gone crazy and Rin tried her best to keep the family together. My grades started to sink, my appetite was gone, and of course, I just had to realise, in the same year, that I might be homosexual.
I stripped and jumped into the shower. ''The fact that I'm gay isn't helping anything either…'' I mumbled to myself, grabbing the bottle of shampoo and pouring some in my hand. When I came out of the closet, which was right before my father died, I wasn't expecting anyone to be so surprised. I mean, what kind of straight guy borrows his sister's clothes and paints his nails? Well, my mother got quite the surprise when I told her. She went from crazy to mad. She was so… ashamed of me, disgusted, repulsive of me. I decided not to tell my father because of her. I feared he would have the same kind of reaction. Rin was the only one who was absolutely fine with it; she even said she thought it was cool. Still, a part of me wishes I was straight. Things would be so much easier.
All cleaned up, I got out of the shower and turned the water off. I then wrapped myself in warm towels, looking at myself in the mirror once again. Blond hair, blue eyes, girly face, slender body, short… That was me. I never was that kind of popular guy, the tall and handsome one. I was shy and lonely. I had never gotten in any relationship. The closest that I had ever been was a date with a guy I once had a crush on, but he had to move, so it kind of ended there. He didn't seem very into it either, I think he did it just to make me happy. I don't even think he was into guys. Anyway, I realized I wasn't fit for relationships. Who would love someone like me, anyway?
I changed my clothes, headed back to my room and went to bed. Right after closing the light, I received a notification from my phone, but decided not to take a look at it. I wrapped myself of warm blankets and closed my eyes, falling into the world of dreamland…
