After the Edge/Lita affair is discovered Matt and Jay have a very heated conversation. Christian didn't know anything but it doesn't change anything, Matt still hurts and still wants to hurt someone…

Slash (E&C) nothing too hardcore and… Probably swearing… A lot :/ (Angry betrayed people tend to do that)

One other thing: TNA never happened and Lita and Edge get separated. AH! I can change whatever I want! ;) I hope you enjoy it, I did my best, still debuting so please don't hesitate to tell me what you think.

Matt got out of his rental, he hated Florida but since his world crushed around him, the sun was too bright, there was too much color in these streets, he was a complete wreck, a bomb about to explode right in the face of a Canadian, not the one he really wanted to get but this one, in his mind was just as guilty as the other.

As he made his way towards the house, he remembered the last visit he gave to his "friend": they had a barbeque with Jeff, Amy and Adam, their usual little gang in the backyard… And today, there was nothing left, no friendship, no love, of course Jeff was there to try and support him trough it, but it clearly wasn't enough to make the pain go away.

He started banging his fists on the door and yelled for Jay to let him in.

"I know you're there you son of a bitch! You better open; I'll break the fucking door open I swear!"

All of a sudden, the blonde Matt was looking for appeared in front of him and he looked terrible. Jason looked like he hadn't slept for days, probably spent them drunk and hadn't changed in way too long. He gestured for the North Carolinian to come in, not daring to take a look in his eyes. The fuming American made his way in the dark that filled the house, all the curtains were closed and the living room reeked with alcohol and weed.

"So what now, you had a little party to celebrate the new couple, to make fun of me, what was the theme for this one? Best friend of the year? God, Jay, you're so pathetic, a coward, a fucking liar just like your good friend Adam, aren't you! Always hiding, behind that stupid ass and now behind Amy's too, I bet if she feels like doing charity work on dogs she can get you both in the same time being the bitch that she is!

Jay's eyes were filling with tears at that point. He never wanted those events to happen, but as it turned out he didn't have a say in any of it, hell, he didn't even suspect anything was wrong in the first place. His fault was not cowardice, it was that blind trust he put in Adam since the very first time they met! Even after all these times where he had made mistakes, the girls he had night after night, stealing as a kid because he didn't have enough money, the drinking nights and the fights he got Jay and himself into, Adam was the most important person in his life and he erased all the faults in him because he wanted him to be perfect, and now the gang had to suffer because they had been too stubborn to change and stuck to their bad habits.

"I-I-I'm so sorry Matt, but… But…" He couldn't find his words, still dizzy from all the vodka he had since he first had the news. He shook his head and sat on the couch his hands hiding his pained face, spiked hair sticking out in every possible direction. "I never… saw…"

Matt started yelling again

"How can you even think I'm gonna believe that! You have known the guy for more than twenty fucking years, Jason! You knew what he was like; he envies people and takes what he wants from them, from all of us, even you! You love him so much you can't see he doesn't give a damn about you. He is going to know the word consequences after this though, I promise you that! No one fucks with me."He spat.

Jay finally found the courage to look up at the younger man and what he saw was pure anger beyond anything he had ever seen and before he could even react Matt punched him fast and hard, getting out all that pain and fury he had for the long haired Canadian he hadn't been able to put his hands on.

"You feel sorry but for whom? You love a heartless man, you think you didn't do anything wrong, you, my friend" he said with a voice dripping with sarcasm "will never be the innocent guy, always the guilty one. You should have done something, YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE ANYTHING IN YOUR DAMN POWER TO AVOID THIS"

Jay tried to protect himself, shielding his head with his arms until Matt ran out of breath and got tired of beating him. The Canadian crawled towards the wall, his eyes never leaving the bleeding knuckles of his friend. He could feel his nose starting to swell and the pain was all over his body in no time, in the rib cage the raven had stomped on, in his stomach where he had been punched at least 7 times before he'd lost count and his back that had been slammed against the wall and had left a dent. His shirt was officially destroyed, drowned in blood stains.

"Talk to me Jason, Stop being silent you prick! Stop looking the other way! He stole her from me and you… You let him do it! Don't you even have an opinion, regrets; can't you feel anything at all?"

Groaning, Jason slowly got up; wincing in pain and softly spoke

"I'm not innocent…" he said "You're right, I do love a man who doesn't love me back, or rather he doesn't want me the way I want him to. I liked Amy, she was family to me and she betrayed all of us and so did Adam, but I won't pick any side in this. You are angry against me for looking the other way but you'd never have listened to me. We all chose to be blind. WE ignored the signs."

Matt glanced at him, unable to find more words to hurt the blond or more strength to beat the shit out of the guy. He took a step back and his lower back connected with the now empty bar. He cleared his throat: "I feel so numb, I can't control myself, I just want it to stop, wake up and being really loved, you know" the American said with a husky voice. Jay walked to him and held him tight against his chest, putting his hand on the younger man's neck to keep him from moving away or hit him again, letting him cry part of his sadness away. They kept bracing themselves on each other, trying not to fall into despair and they had to face the facts: good or bad change was always a bitch to deal with.

"If you could have her back, would you do it? Because pride and love and two very different things Mattie… My pride kept me from telling the truth, my love kept me away from happiness… It's gonna take you some time to get away from all this but if know better than me you'll let go soon enough… Now you get back home before I kick your ass, there are some things I need to get done." He chuckled and pushed him towards the door.

It was time for Jay to make a very important phone call; one wich would change his career and his personal life for the better. He opened the curtains and threw away the empty bottles all around the house and took a shower to try and clear his mind, smiling instead of crying, excited about the change instead of being scared by it, gathering all his courage to face the inevitable next step: telling Adam about his decision.

After a few minutes, Adam got to Jay's house not bothering with knocking, knowing the door was always open for him he found his best friend icing the bruises he'd gotten from the older Hardy boy.

"Jesus Jay-Jay! What the hell happened to you dude?" he said taking the ice away and hugging Jason a bit too firmly for his ribs and not sweetly enough for his heart.

"Matt needed to take his frustrations on somebody and apparently he's only interested in blond Canadians these days so… I let him do this… It doesn't hurt much" he answered eyes glued on the carpet, regretting his choice to tell him about the argument and somehow comforting him in the choice he had made earlier that night.

"The fucking son of a bitch, you didn't do anything to deserve this, good God have you seen your face man? What is it, high school all over again? I stole his girlfriend so his brother punches me and the internet thing and now this? Why did you let him… " Adam started pulling his hair and pacing back and forth and stopped abruptly when he heard Jay:

"I'll tell you why he did this, he kicked my ass because we were all fools, Jeff who's scared to lose his big brother if he doesn't do or say the right thing, Amy who was afraid to say she made the wrong choices when it came to love, Matt who never suffers to be wrong or weak and gets angry about almost everything and uses his fists instead of his brain... Me and you the blind Canadians…" he wiped his tears with the back of his hand leaving a stupefied Adam in front of the fireplace, not sure of what he just heard.

"What do you mean: blind?" he blurted out. Jason sniffed and grinned through his tears and looked right in front of him, determined to avoid the sexy green eyes that belonged to the man he had desired for ages.

"You ARE so blind dude; you could give lessons to Stevie Wonder." He laughed. "All those girls you got in bed with you and you never got satisfied with any of them… And now, you broke all that we had with Matt and Jeff for a fling with one of your friends, and we're all in pain because of it. I did something tonight Adam, I called Vince… I told him I wouldn't negotiate for another contract after this one expires and… I'm leaving the company for a while… I need my space away from t-the lies, the pain, the violence, I'll be drafted to smackdown in June and, and…" He couldn't speak anymore; he turned to his best friend who had braced himself against the wall tears of his own rolling down his cheeks.

"You didn't have to do this, it's not your battle, I could have taken Matt, told him not to touch you, why…? Why do you have to leave? We are like brothers Jay-Jay! We know each other like the back of our hands, we live 5 minutes away from each other, what are you gonna do, avoid me anytime we cross path with each other?" he whispered. "I'm sorry about what the others put you through… Please don't go… I can't do it without you!"

"I could never do that even if you had killed my cats, stolen all my money and drugged my mom dude! You're such a dork now we both look like we're shooting a scene for Days of our lives!" Jay screamed in exasperation before he gently dragged the long haired blond to the couch. "I have other reasons to take my distance from you, and when I'll be done with this chat, you may never want to see me again so… No interruptions of any kind, alright?" Edge nodded "We are 31 now, adults, we have to start building things in our lives, and we can't fool around with nothing stable to keep us from falling… And as you screwed around, got drunk like the planet's going to run out of beer in the next 24 hours I've always been there and tried my best to keep your ass as safe as I could, because… I love you Adam and I… can't stand all this anymore…I need something more, something new and I won't be able to start fresh around you "

"I know you love me, and I love you too but…" the rated r superstar murmured before being cut by his best friend. "No, you don't get it… Adam, I don't just love you… I want you, I-I-I'm in love with you, and that's the reason why Matt got even angrier against me, that's why I spent the last three days crying about the unfairness of this situation, I wanted you since we were eleven, 20 years of envy took their toll on me… And for the last 72 hours I tried to drown it in any alcohol I had in that bar! And you, you were too busy fucking Amy's brains out to even call! " Jay screamed pointing angrily towards the dark and empty piece of furniture leaving an astonished Adam deal with the idea that his best friend was into men, more precisely him and now, he was jealous of Amy? That was a lot to process in five minutes.

Yet, it all made sense, Jason had never had any serious relationships in all those years, it looked like no one was interesting enough, Adam had tried to get him laid on countless occasions but his best friend always seemed to have an excuse to keep an eye on him instead, making sure he got to his room when he had one too many drinks, even allowing him to take the girls he wanted to shag in their common rooms and waiting somewhere until they were done. He knew he never had been into men and somehow, the idea of his best friend loving him and lusting after didn't bother him, actually his heart felt like it was about to explode.

"Y-you want me, Jay-Jay?" he put his hand on his shoulder. That time it was Jason's time to be surprised as he half-expected his friend to run out of his house cursing and screaming that he never wanted to see him ever again.

"Yes. I do. And I can't have you…" Jay lowered his gaze, his intense grayish blue eyes stuck on his Converse shoes."Not the way I want to anyway."

"And what if you could, what would you do? Would you still leave? " Adam cried.

"We wouldn't have this conversation if it was possible, man, did you just…" Jay never had the chance to finish his sentence. Adam bent towards his friend and captured his lips with the most passionate kiss he had ever given to anybody in his whole existence. The younger man responded eagerly, nipping the long haired blonde's lower lip until Adam gave him access to his mouth. The taste of each other's tongues drove their senses wild. Their hands traveled on their shoulders, their arms, their backs looking like they had a mind of their own. After a few minutes, they finally broke the kiss, panting for air.

"I need to do the right thing Jay, I have to see Amy, I made too many mistakes you had to pay for… Wait for me baby because I never wanted someone like I want you at this very moment."

Jay smiled brightly and kissed him again sweetly "Quit rambling, go to her and be gentle. I'll call Jeff to give him the heads up." Adam laughed "You want to call Rainbow? Afraid this one could kick your ass too?" Trying to domesticate his spiky hair Jason sighed "No but unlike some very blonde person I know, I happen to use my brain, Jeff will tell Matt Amy has been dumped, they'll have a conversation, one on one, either to try and find closure or to get back together and put it all behind them."

Edge scoffed "I do have a brain, blondie, thank you very much!" they both laughed for a second or two. Then Adam took his jacket and got back home where Amy was waiting for him for what would probably be the revelation of her life.

Here is part 1; please review it, sex scene is for part 2, Adam needs initiation, mentions of Amy and Matt. Next chapter as soon as I find out what to do with Jeff and… Randy maybe… ^^ he keeps bugging me (mean wrestlers are sometimes worse than mean girls… Know what I mean?)