Hello there ! It's my first fiction in English, I'm French so I'm sorry for the many mistakes you will find, even after several re-reading. This fic will be in two chapters but I want your opinion before I post the second part, the part with smut of course ! It's only my second fiction, so please don't be too harsh :)
Needless to say, the characters are the property of their writers.
Regina was fidgeting in her kitchen, pouring herself a glass of wine, she was nervous, extremely nervous. Regina Mills was not a person to be nervous, yet since she begins to date Emma, she has discovered a new pant of her personality. Five months, for five months they have been together, it is a long time for the brunette. Nobody could have foreseen this turn of events, a relationship between the 'Savior' and the 'Evil Queen', though it's hard to deny the long glances and stares the two women can't help to give to each other. But a lot happened on Hook's ship, being together all the time and sharing the same bunk, then Henry's rescuing, they had talked even if it finished most of the time in argument and something softened in the way Emma looked at her. Regina knew what it was but refused to acknowledge it, they had shared bit of their past, they had come to the ground on understanding each other and more, something in their heart was screaming the truth but both woman tried to deny it and never let the other know. Until this famous night two weeks after their return, when she found Emma on her doorstep, determined but yet vulnerable . She knew right away about what this visit was, when she met Emma's eyes she saw the love written inside, so she made the first move and she just kissed her, she kissed Emma Swan, because she felt the same way as her : love.
Now, she was waiting for Emma to arrive. She has prepared dinner, lasagna, her lover's favorite meal, and put on a beautiful dress, it would be like any other night they spend together. That's what she kept telling herself. However she wore the dress she knew would drive Emma crazy because tonight she wanted to move on a new step with Emma : they have been taken things slowly, not wanting to rush, learn to know each other before and for Henry too. They told him one month ago about them , he has been very happy although he has suspect something for weeks, he was too smart for his and their own good. Nevertheless she can't help to be nervous as hell, they have often made-out this last weeks but every time Emma tried to go further and slipped her hand under her shirt, she would gently stop her. But she can't stop the glow of hurt in Emma's eyes each time, Regina doesn't want her to feel rejected, she really wanted to go further and make love with her. But she has to tell Emma her secret before and it terrified her, the blonde has been so patient and didn't push her, she feared once her secret out, the Sheriff will break with her. So now she was there, in her kitchen, nursing her second glass of wine and fidgeting like never before.
The sound of the doorbell pulled her out of her daydream, Regina set down her wine, straightened her black dress and went answer the door. The Sheriff was standing outside in her red leather jacket and a warm smile plastered on her lips.
"Hello beautiful" Emma whispered before leaning in for a needed kiss, they have already met this morning but the blonde was addicted to the plump red lips of her lover, she would never get enough. And kissing Regina was on the top of her favorite things' to do list.
"Good evening dear, how was your day ?" The brunette said once they separated from the kiss, Emma hung up her jacket and Regina led her to the kitchen.
"Slow, I filled some paperwork, rescued a cat and listen to the worst idiot quarrel between neighbors, a long boring day and yours ?"
"Oh, the usual, a lot of paperwork and some pointless meetings, wine ?" Emma nodded and Regina poured a glass of wine for the Sheriff and refilled hers." Were you aware the nuns wanted to put a statue of Blue Fairy in front of the convent ? They book an appointment with me this afternoon, I thought it was a bad joke, but not, they were deadly serious."
" Oh yeah, Mom mentioned that, it's a gift for her birthday, they want to do something spectacular."
"Spectacular doesn't mean silly dear, I will not have a statue of this woman in my town. I made your favorite for tonight." Regina said the last part sweetly and took the lasagna out of the oven, which obtained a hum of approval from her lover, while Emma brought their glass of wine towards the dining room. They sat and the brunette served them, Emma couldn't wait and put a big portion of lasagna in her mouth. Oh yeah, Regina Mills make the best lasagna of the world.
"Hum Regina, your cooking is really delicious. And if it's not a statue of Blue, who else so ? I don't think a statue of my parents is in order, so maybe a statue of you in front of Town Hall ? Emma asked jokingly.
"I'm practically sure the town won't allow this and if I wanted a statue of myself, I would have already done it. But hypothetically if we have to erect a statue, it would be yours dear, the town would be overjoyed to have a statue of their Savior." Regina replied with a smirk whereas Emma frowned.
"I don't want a statue of myself in the town, please if they do the request, send them away, I'm sure they're capable of." Emma pouted and the brunette can't help a chuckle to escape, her face reminds her Henry and she found it adorable in both faces.
"Don't worry, there will be no statue, even if it's a shame, I'm sure you would have fit perfectly in my garden. " Regina answered playfully.
They continued to banter all throughout the diner, chatting about Henry, the town or other superficial things. The plate of lasagna was almost finished, thanks to Emma's huge appetite , and the bottle of wine was now half empty. Laughs and playful teasing were shared, something which was unusual until recently in the white mansion but yet, a lot of changes have occurred since the Mayor dates Emma. However as the diner flowed, the blonde can sense a shift in Regina's demeanor, she didn't noticed it at first, too eager to see her lover after a painfully long day but the older woman is tense, even nervous. When they clear the dishes, Regina let a plate slide out of her hand and into the sink and seems a bit disturbed. And one thing Regina Mills isn't it's disturbed, Madame Mayor is always perfectly gathered and doesn't show easily her nerves. One thing the Sheriff knew perfectly. And it's become more evident during the dessert, her lover seemed to be in her thoughts, she has to call her twice before Regina answered her.
Regina on her side, was in deep reflection, she had tried many times through the diner to bring the conversation and confess to Emma her secret. But the conversation was flowing so lightly, she didn't want to interrupt their smoothly evening, although she knew she had to, if not they will move on the living room, drinking a glass of apple cider and make-out, and she will stop again Emma to go further. And she will have to put up with the look of dejection on her lover's face and she can't stand the thought of it once again. But she was afraid, the brunette feared the reaction of the Sheriff, because Regina hates to feel vulnerable, even if she trusted Emma, a part of her had still difficulty in believing that someone cares for her. In any case, Emma has most likely noticed her behavior, she can read her like an open book and she was calling her apparently.
"Yes ?"
"What's wrong Regina ? You have been fidgeting during all the dessert, I have to call you twice before you pull out of your trance." The Mayor can hear the worry on the blonde's voice.
"Nothing dear, I'm fine …"
"No, you're not, you know I can detect when someone lies, I see that something is bothering you. You can tell me everything, you know that right ?"
"I know. It's just … I …" Regina really didn't know how to put this, she wanted to bring it softly, but she has waiting too much and now she felt cornered, and by her own fault. Emma leaned forward and took her right hand in hers but the brunette needed space, with the blonde so close she would never manage to say it so she stood up. Emma started truly to worry, Regina was fidgeting, arms crossed on her chest, playing nervously with her fingers, the blonde never saw her like this.
"Regina, you're scaring me … Is something bad happened ?" Emma asked, she didn't understand what's going on in her lover's head.
"No, no it's not that … I need to tell you something …" Regina pushed herself to connect her eyes with the green-blue of the blonde, finding them fixed on her.
"What is it, baby ? Is it about us ?"
"No, no … Well, in some way yes, but it's about me. I …" Regina began but she didn't manage to spill all the words. Emma said nothing, she was waiting after her, letting her the time to fully tell what she wanted to say. She gathered her strength.
" Emma, I'm … I am a virgin, Emma." Regina blurted out. She was hugging herself, blushing and looking everywhere but at Emma, waiting the laughter to come or something else to fill the blank which was embracing the room. She had never felt as vulnerable as now. She can't help but think that she will lose Emma, for a secret she was ashamed of, her lover must think she's a freak, that something is wrong with her. And the only noise which came was the one of a pushed chair.
Suddenly, two arms circled her, pulling her in a warm embrace. Regina went stiff at first, not expecting at all this turn of events among all she had imagined, before slowly melting in the body heat of Emma who was stroking gently her back, she hadn't said a word for the moment.
Emma was shocked, she had never thought this can come out of her lover's mouth, she had considered the worst seeing how it disturbed Regina as really something worst. But it explained a lot too, why she has been stopped every time she tried to push a bit their make-out session or why Regina is sometimes awkward in their loving embrace. She has thought a lot about what was the problem, thinking maybe she wasn't enough beautiful, or gentle, or worth of trust. Moreover, it was a sensitive subject for the brunette, she was slightly shaking in her arms, unsecured, Emma could tell she was ashamed the way she avoided her gaze and the muffled sniffles she heard but also fearing her next words.
"Regina, honey … Look at me, please…" Emma whispered, but the brunette's eyes stayed fixed on the vessel next them, so she tenderly took her face in her hands and forced their looks to meet, there was catching tears in her brown eyes.
"It's ok Regina, I won't reject you because you're a virgin … I love you, it's fine, I'm glad you told me, you can trust me, ok ? But … how ? I don't really understand … You …" Emma didn't know how to put this, she has never been good with words, awkward and she didn't want Regina to misunderstand her words and to withdraw.
" I …" Her voice was husky due to the lump in her throat. "I wanted to be in love and we were waiting with Daniel until our wedding, but as you know it never happened … I thought about giving myself to other in order to find release but I never did it … It was the last remain of purity in me, I couldn't give it to anyone …"
"But you were married to the King, and old men marry a young women only for one thing … And Graham ?"
"Leopold marry me only because he wanted a mother for Snow, he was still in love with his deceased Queen, I was just an accessory for him to show off, he has none interest in bedding me. "Emma can hear the venom in Regina's voice, she despites the man. "As for Graham, we didn't do anything, make-out few times but I didn't let him touch me, I … I just needed affection even in a twisted way, so I used him to heat up my bed at night, and it's all. I had given up on make love with someone one day …" Regina admitted quietly. She wasn't proud of having used Graham like this, but after two decades, she had craving a human contact and it was the only way she's familiar with.
"Until me ?" Came the hopeful question.
"Yes, until you." Emma tightened her hold on her lover, Regina has her head on the blonde's shoulder, nuzzling affectionately her neck.
"And you ever tried to … you know touch yourself … ?" Emma asked hesitantly after few minutes.
"Emma ! Who do you think I am ?! No never, and before you ask, because I know you will, no I don't watch porn which I know people of this world are fond of, I think that's disgusting." Regina huffed and Emma can't help but blush on the outraged look of the Mayor, how the brunette had known about her other question ? She's too easy to read.
"Ok, I didn't mean to upset you, I just want to know … how much you know about… sex"
"Practically nothing, dear …" Regina whispered ashamed, hiding again in the blonde's neck .
"Ok … You know, I won't push you into anything, we will wait until you're ready, I really don't want to pressure you, Regina." Emma whispered in an honest and heartwarming tone in her lover's ear, Regina smiled and relaxed further in the embrace. That's why she's in love with the blonde, despite the childish and annoying behavior which often got on her nerves, Emma had the biggest heart and the only person who could understand her completely. The Sheriff kissed slightly Regina on the forehead before the brunette dragged her lover's face to join their lips in a gesture of gratitude, love and want.
The kiss was supposed to be chaste, but slowly became more heated; Regina's pressing her lips harder on the blonde's, desperate to convey what she felt to Emma but also something else. She grabbed her lover's neck while passing her tongue on her lips, asking permission for her mouth which Emma granted. Tongues battled tenderly, without rushing, stroking each other in a dance well-known by the two. But soon enough, Regina's kiss became more passionate, nipping at Emma's lower lip, surprised but eager to comply, the blonde responded with as much fervor. Emma let the brunette dominated, but don't waste the opportunity to suck lightly Regina's tongue which earns her a moan from the other woman. Their breath were raged when they part, blush on their faces, still millimeters apart, Emma was trying to control her breath and pushing away the growing feeling in her lower abdomen. Regina pressed their foreheads together, hands fisted in the green shirt of her lover.
"Emma … Make love to me, please."
Emma didn't reply immediately, she was taken aback by the request. One second her lover had professing her virginity, the next she asked to make love. Her gaze was locked with Regina's, confused and looking for a sign of insecurity or nervousness. However, she found none of that, Regina's gaze was steady, locked with hers, knowing the blonde needed to organize her thoughts and process the information.
"Are you sure ?"
Regina joined their mouths but stop millimeters apart, her breath hot on the Sheriff's lips.
"Yes, I do."
And with that last sentence, Emma closed the gap between them, conjuring all her feelings in the kiss. Regina replied with fervor, she was decided to have sex with Emma. But she needed to tell the blonde what it would mean for her before they go to that step and to be certain herself she wanted this, that she was ready to let to Emma that power. She had still some issues with thrusting people around her, though she trusted Emma, the blonde has never done anything to override her trust.
The kiss was much slower that the first, their need for each other softly building in the pit of their stomach, no one dominated the kiss, their lips were sliding together, as equals as lovers.
But soon, the blonde broke the kiss, her breath hot against Regina's cheek.
"You're sure you really want this, and this is not about the heat of the moment or something like that ?"
"Emma …"
"And … and I'm sorry if I appeared needy this last weeks, I don't want you to think I just want something physical from you, I can totally be patient, you know ? I love you."
"Emma, stop talking, can I say something before you interrupt me again ?"
"Yes, sorry baby …"
"It's not the heat of the moment and …"
"I don't want you to do it for me just because I want to."
Regina sighed, would the Sheriff let her finish at least one of her sentence ? But a smile tugged at her lips at the kindness shown to her, at the blonde's overflow of worry and words. She cradled her face, looking fiercely in green orbs.
"Emma, listen carefully to me : I want you to be my first. And I don't want to waste anymore time. I want you, to take me to bed, now please."
The Sheriff let out a silent sigh and her eyes filled up with love and warmth, the Queen has spoken and it was the most beautiful evidence of trust she could have give her. So Emma said the words her heart was yelling to say to Regina :
"Yes, my love."
