Hi! It's me again with another thing that I was impulsed to do for the heck of it. I just felt like writing about Eyes' thoughts after a betrayal by Kanone. This fits more with the anime since I hadn't read the manga when I wrote this. If you have a problem with it, don't mind me.
Disclaimer: I don't own Spiral - Suiri no Kizuna. If I did, well, Eyes and Kanone would have ended up together.
Even after all you did, I couldn't bring myself to hate you.
Betrayal, abandonment, it didn't mean anything.
I was the one who did it first.
Because I wouldn't believe in unchangeable fate.
Because I believed in Kiyotaka's words.
You left me behind and so did your tears.
It was hurtful to know you lied, if that is what I'm supposed to feel.
It was hurtful when you left, I couldn't feel a thing.
Betrayal, abandonment, loneliness, they all fit together.
These things hurt, right?
But how could I know, if you weren't here to tell me.
I never had to think of you because you were always there.
No matter how foolish you were, you never left.
You said the words "promise" and "forever",
you left and broke that promise,
because you could not change fate.
Everything I do now,
you're always on my mind.
Every piece I play,
though absent, are always for you.
Standing in a pool of mortals with their adoration,
never could they exceed mine for you.
Even as I watched you leave, faced away from me,
like a stone in water that never wavered,
I clenched that shell you gave to me, held the memories of two children.
A boy who could never cry for anyone, much less himself,
the boy who held so much within by flowing outwardly.
We, two were as lost in the wind as dead leaves,
together holding life that the world could not understand.
Because I believed in faith,
because you believe in fate,
we faltered on our paths
and lost the other on the way.
So this was the path of loneliness.
I admit, no one can take your place,
but I'm not alone.
Not like you.
Knowing that thought, a tightness clenches within me.
It's not the pain of my rib, the pain of destiny,
the pain I know can change.
I don't know this pain, so unfamiliar.
The pain in my chest never stops when I think of you.
The pain never stops because you are always there.
The pain never stops because you are not.
Every time, I think of you, I am reminded of your loneliness
and then it hurts again.
Betrayal, abandonment, they mean nothing to me.
it is only your loneliness that perturbs me.
Why do I feel such pain when you are not here?
I have never shed a tear even with you gone.
You're not here to cry them.
I never shed one tear, as I watched you leave.
The burning gap inside me,
warmer than my curse will ever be.
I don't mind your presence, because you're a friend.
Always will be.
I'm scared without you, a little less each day.
Because you're a friend, because you were an ally I cannot hate you.
Betrayal, abandonment, I did these first
but I never cast aside your loneliness,
when I knew you were faithless.
Because I don't believe in destiny,
I don't believe we're destined to be enemies.
