Hey there! It has been two years since I havn't write any fanfictions. Why? Time, motivation, inspiration… But now I'm ready to roll! Thus being my first fanfiction in two years it's my first more-than-one-chapter-fic in English (Do I have a French accent?). Don't hesitate leaving comments with how good or bad you think this is, I'll take them all as advices! Bonne lecture!
-I HATE YOU-
It was a normal day at Fairy Tail's Guild. Elfman was talking nonsense about being a man while Gray was trying to tell him Erza wasn't a man, and so on... Everything was absolutely normal, well, normal for Fairy Tail, except the calm of today. It was chatty and noisy but it was not as usual, and this was for a simple reason. The burning flam wasn't there. Yeah, Natsu was with Happy in a neighbouring city. He had left this morning because he heard somebody knew about dragons over there.
Lucy entered afew minutes ago.
- Natsu isn't there today? She asked without knowing he was gone.
-Nope. Responded Gray. He's further in the east to look for information about Igneel.
-That's why it's annoyingly calm today! Added Cana who has already a barrel of alcohol running threw her stomach even though it was still the morning.
She liked when there was action in the guild because else way, she drank all day. Lucy laughed and stayed with everybody, having a chat, eating lunch...
The only one who sees that there was a second reason to such calmness was Erza. Gray turned his eyes to her.
-What?
-Nothing. She looked away.
He realized she was staring at him for a little while now. He liked Erza much, but as a sister. And, he knew that she could see how he felt right now, worried. How many times did Natsu run around the cities for his Dragon searching thing and came back with nothing but just wasted time. Sometimes he wanted to tell the pink haired male to stop but this was Natsu's aim, he couldn't do that because they're friends.
"Whatever" he thought as he was trying to figure out what he should do... He pulled out tobacco and rolling paper, made he's cigarette and smoked on it. Not that he smoked a lot but, he did like the taste and the sensation that came with it. Thus, it helped him stop thinking about Natsu. Aaah... He frowned he's eyebrows as he just had him on his mind again. That was for sure, when this little brat came back he will gonna show him how angry he is by Natsu keeping him so worried.
He felt Erza's eyes on him again and looked at her. He opened his mouth to say something but, stopped as he sees her nice and comforting smile. Yeah, she knew what he had on his mind because she was the same. None of them wanted to see Natsu disappointed, again. Even though the Dragon Slayer didn't show much of his heart's wounds because he was always smiling and taking things easy, Gray knew that Igneel was an obsession for him, and that every time he got way too excited.
The dark haired male looked around him, everybody was like every day, it seemed. He stopped his eye on Gajeel. This guy... Was what he didn't want Natsu to become. The pink haired idiot went to him and proposed to him to come with him, he also wanted to ask Wendy but she is away with Charuru. Gajeel just snapped Natsu of, he remembers clearly the red-eyed man tell the younger one not to bed so childish. "Geez... He could have been nicer anyway..." said Gray to himself.
The sun had already faded behind the mountains, but Magnolia was still a busy place since it was only dinnertime. A big crush drives everybody's intention to the door.
- I'M BACK!
-Fucking loud... Mumbled Gray
-Welcome! Said Lucy to Happy and Natsu, giggling and smiling at them.
-Don't break the door! Finally greeted the Ice wizard.
-Tss! I didn't break it! Idiot! Responded the fire ball.
-What?! You're the stupid one here!
Both of them were starting one of their usual fights and were stopped by Erza. But, it seemed Gray was a little more serious than usual in his way of insulting Natsu. In the end, Natsu was greeted by everyone with laughs, verbal fights, stupid jokes and so on... He felt "home".
Natsu was sitting at a table eating with Happy and some others. With his mouth full he explained how the trip went. The journey was terrible, as usual.
-Yeah we all know that you can't stand trains. Said Lucy, impatient to hear the following. And then?
-Well, I went to the address the guy gave me,but once I arrived there was absolutely nothing. Natsu swallowed another piece of his meet.
-Nothing? Repeated Gray, asking for preciseness.
-Nothing. No shop, no house, nobody, no anything. It was just a place that used to be a restaurant, apparently, and that they've demolished years ago.
Natsu was way to insensitive to Gray. He said this like a normal person would ask for a piece of cake. But Natsu wasn't a normal person, and when he asked a piece of cake he was fully alive and exited. This wasn't Natsu but just a good cover.
- ...So it was just another rumor, hm? Rhetorically asked Erza.
Natsu wanted to say something but instead he looked at Gray walking away.
-Where you going?
Natsu still had a bone in his mouth making his sentence a little hard to understand.
-Home. Coldly returned Gray.
Natsu stood up and caught his friend's shoulder.
-What's wrong?
-Nothing! Get out of the way.
Gray was already pretty exasperated.
-Oï! Gray!
Natsu frowned trying to hold on tighter on the other male's shoulder but this one pushed him.
-Out of the way I said, you stupid bastard.
-Gray! Shouted Erza, surprised of her friend's reaction, trying to make him come back to his sense.
-Tss!
He walked out.
-This ass... Oï!
Natsu didn't have a good day so he turned angry quite quick as well. He followed him outside.
-What's your problem now, asshole?!
-It's you! How can you be this way? And...! You just piss me of! He lied.
He bit his tong, he didn't want Natsu to see him so freaked out for nothing but, he just couldn't stand seeing him this way.
He didn't want to say this, not now, not this way, because this wasn't a fight like they normally had but a real argument. Natsu didn't need to know more and step forward punching Gray in the face.
-Bastard! Yelled Natsu.
-You...!
Gray gazed at Natsu and thrown back the hit but, it was brutally stopped by an old man's hand.
-Stop it already both of you!
-Jiji? Surprised said Natsu, looking at Makarof who looked serious as hell.
-Tch!
Gray didn't say anything more and just left.
Natsu was wondering what happened. He also was wrong thought because it needs two to pull up a fight, but what the hell was with Gray? He knew he was an ass but not that bad... And it changed so suddenly... He was looking at his white painted ceiling, as lying in his bed trying to find sleep after a busy day but couldn't do anything. Gray was one of his best friends since they're all young. No, he actually was his best friend. They grow up together, fight together, fight against each other and know the other one like the back of their hand but... This night he didn't understand what part of Gray that was. Maybe he is wrong and maybe he does piss Gray off...
No wait, he pulled his mind straight "Gray is a friend and has something bad on his mind". He got up and pulled some clothes on, quietly walked out of the house, making sure he doesn't wake up the blue cat and walked to Gray's house. The dark haired male acted like shit with him, Nastsu ain't gonna feel bad for waking him up in the middle of the night.
Once arrived, he knocked on the door, as hard and loudly he could. The door opens on a half-naked Gray with a killing gaze.
-The hell ya want?
-Talk with you
-Have you seen the clock?!
-Yeah I don't give a shit 'bout it.
Natsu was freaky when he was this serious.
-Fuck! Come in.
He spouted and went to the kitchen get some coffee and then came back to the living room where the younger one was sitting.
-So?
-So what? Explain to me what happened to you earlier.
-I already told you. You piss me off. And you're doing it ag-
-Don't give me that shit! Natsu cut Gray off.
-Tss! Shut up!
-Gray!
Natsu was losing his nerves but tried hard to stay calm.
He remained silent for now. Staring at the floor, trying to make his mind up. He felt that was enough. He couldn't stand having Natsu in front of him now, he wanted to hold him in his arm and kill him at the same time. Why the hell did he feel so dizzy... He felt the warmth of the dragon slayer's hand on his'.
-Please, Gray, tell me...
The male's eyes met and this was about where Gray really cracked. He push Natsu down on the floor. Natsu didn't see that coming as he felt his head hitting the wood and Gray manly body on top of his.
-You're... So fool... So full of sweet dreams... You can't stop, can you?
Natsu couldn't figure out if Gray was actually being nice or nasty, but god what was this seductiv look of his! He didn't understand shit from now on.
-Gr... Gray?...
He wanted to push him back but, stayed there thinking that this was the only way that Gray did say something else then insults... Well... Sort of... He was close, too close for this to be an attack but too awkward to be a friendly move.
-You're always searching for Igneel even though you do not find anything...! You always get played with by people who invent things!
-What if what they say is true?
-It's not! They just want to say stupid things! You're so... So stupid! You'll never learn!
Natsu pushed Gray back
-Shut up! You're the one saying stupid things! Fucking pessimistic!
Even with a hard push Gray stayed hold of his grip on his friend, he even pulled his-self closer.
-I'm not pessimistic but I don't wanna see you disappointed again! Gray shouted this out and a silent followed.
He shouted exactly how he felt and now felt so embarrassed. God, Natsu was right he was damn stupid... The pink haired male looked Gray with big widened eyes before closing them.
-So that's all of it...
He sited up looking at his friend who was now silent and escaping the other one's eyes. Gray felt like disappearing, he never wanted to show him to Natsu so weak, so not confidant and so concerned about the one we grew old with. We got up letting Natsu to the same but still looking away.
The younger eyed the ice man and sighed. Then he stretched his arms to him and held the dark haired idiot. Gray, surprised, blushed a little in confusion. It felt good. He was relieved that Natsu didn't punch him for the entire story, a story for nothing. Natsu was happy Gray didn't punch him for holding him this way but he needed it. Both needed it. And before he noticed, Gray had wrapped his own arms around Natsu's muscled body. Both stayed this way like 30 seconds... Well, it felt so, the truth is that it was way more. Natsu looked Gray and smiled.
-You really are an idiot...
-Tss...
Gray tried to hide his light blush.
-You know, if one day you disappear... I'll do the same, I'll look for you everywhere in the world even if where I look may not be the good place.
Gray felt burning a little inside. He felt greedy and deliciously frustrated. What the hell was going on with him? Why is he mixed up this way? He was tired and had a day full of emotions. And... How could Natsu say those kinds of things so easily? He was such a... Such an incredible friend and an idiot.
-I'll leave now, see ya tomorrow.
-Hm... Gray let go of him and walked him to the door. See ya'
He looked Natsu go out the door and leave, heading his own house.
Gray laid back in bed. He closed his eyes. He strangely felt light and relieved of many things but now new questions were flying around in his head, like butterflies teasing his mind. Like he had something knew to discover with his self, with Natsu. He recalled what happened tonight
.Did he really wanted to push Natsu this way on the floor? And when they hugged... Did he felt like kissing him or what?
"Geez... I hate you for sticking in my mind this way... This is gonna be a long night..." He whispered and fell asleep too tired to fight more against his own mind.
Okaaaay! So this is the first chapter…. Geez this is huge! Sorry I didn't plan on doing something this long but words just ran under my fingers…!Also, nothing here that needs an M rating… I know, I know… But in the second chapter it'll be… Spicyyy! Hope you enjoyed it and follow the next chapters!
