"Bella, I know I'm not her father! Tell me who is!" My husband thundered. Poor little Addy was trembling in my arms. This question always led to anger and pain. James was never like this when we first met. He was sweet and passionate. Now all he was was an abusive drunk.

"I said tell me, dammit!" He yelled. Addy had large green eyes and my mother's light blonde hair. Only a few more minutes and he'd be out for the night.

"I don't know!" I lied. I knew exactly who her father was, but there's no way in hell I'm telling James.

"That's right, you were a poor little helpless slut when I met you!" He said mockingly.

"I am not, never was, or ever will be, a slut James!" I screeched. I should have known better, though.

That little outburst earned me a punch to the jaw that sent me flying backwards. Addy flailed out of my arms.

"MOMMY!" She screamed, running towards me. James caught her wrist and flung her into the wall.

"Don't touch her!" I hissed through clenched teeth. James chuckled and threw her into the wall again. He grabbed the bottle of whiskey that he had been nursing and downed the remainder.

I ran forward to embrace my daughter. James stumbled and fell to the floor in a heap. This is my chance to get out. I've been planning this for a long time. The cookie jar in the top cabinet contained a new id, cash and the deed to my father's house. I soothed Addy and looked at her busted lip from hitting the floor.

My father, Charlie, died two years ago in a fatal car accident; I had been married to James for two years before that. Addy wasn't born when I got together with James. That's why everybody thought Addy was his child. I'm only twenty-two and I've already gone through things no one should ever go through.

I rushed her into her room to get the bag that we'd packed for her and me. My dog, Senna, was barking protectively from her cage. She was a large brindle boxer with a hell of an attitude. I can't possibly count the times she has bitten James and I had to distract him from shooting her, with sex.

Senna, left a huge bite mark on James' ass that will probably hurt in the morning, as soon as I let her out. I took my cell phone out and called Emmett. James forced me to break ties with him. But, he didn't know that I always talked to him while he was passed out. I missed him and my friends so much.

"Hello?" A groggy voice answered. Cue happy dance, Emmett was home!

"Em, Addy and I need help. We need to get out of here. We just need a ride or a car to borrow to get back to Forks." I rushed, taking the money out of the cookie jar.

"Let me put on some pants and I'll drive you to a rental car place." He said, relieved that I was finally leaving.

"Oh and Em, thank you." I said gratefully. Addy and I went out to sit on the front steps of our home with Senna lying at my feet. Emmett was the only one who really knew what happened about four years ago. Well, now I'm pretty sure that Rosalie knows now too.

I let my thoughts drift back to that night…

June 1st 2005

"You have to wear the blue one!" Alice shrieked at me. She was urging me to wear this horrid oversized shirt that some might call a dress.

"No way in hell am I wearing that, Ally!" I yelled.

"It's our graduation party. You have to end high school with a bang. If you know what I'm saying." She smirked. She and my older sister, Rosalie, were always dogging me because I'm still a virgin.

Alice Brandon, Emmett McCarty, my sister's boyfriend, and Angela Weber were my best friends in the whole world. Emmett was held back a year so Rosalie had to go to college without him. Em and I will be joining her at San Francisco State in the fall.

"Fine." I huffed, knowing it was a futile effort to argue with Alice. She squealed and jumped up and down. I really don't even know why I'm going. The party was at Edward and Jasper Cullen's house; the most popular kids in school. Even though Alice and Jasper were going out, they really didn't hang out that often at school.

Jasper, Edward and Emmett were the best players on the varsity football team. They always had their same little 'clique' so to speak.

Alice scrunched my wavy, mahogany hair and gave me light smoky eyes. She was wearing a turquoise strapless dress that stopped several inches above her knees. Her short, spiky, black hair was straightened.

"Let's go, Bells. Em will be here any minute." She said pulling me by the hand down the steps.

Emmett pulled up out front and laid on the horn. I started to step up into his truck but my dress kept riding up. Alice seemed to be having the same problem as well.

"Hey, Em? Can you give us a boost?" I asked sweetly. He huffed and came around to the passenger side. When he saw us, his jaw hit the floor. He picked me up easily and stuck me in the backseat of his truck as he did the same for Alice.

We were silent for most of the ride. Alice and I sat in melancholy. We were headed off in different directions. She was going to Columbia and I was going to San Francisco State Emmet and Rosalie. This was our last summer all together.

"You know? I'm just gonna get plastered and party my ass off." I said defiantly. Alice bounced in her seat and Emmett whooped at my statement.

"Me too!" Alice squealed.

You could hear the music pulsing from a mile away.

I lived up to my promise that night. I got plastered. I was dancing with Al when two strong hands pulled me to their owner. I looked up into the deepest set of emerald green eyes I've ever seen.

"I've been looking all over for you, Bella." Edward said. We started dancing and grinding. I got confident and did a booty drop, just the way Alice taught me. I could feel that he was excited by the way my ass rubbed against him.

He growled and turned me around. Our lips met in a hot, passionate kiss. He pushed me against the wall and snaked his hand under the dress I'd been wearing.

And the rest was, well, you know…history.

A week later I found out I was pregnant. Two weeks after that, I met James. We went out on a few dates, and before long we moved in together. Up until Addy was born, James thought it was his child. I only ever told Emmett about that night with Edward Cullen. I've never told anyone else because I'd just be admitting to what I am, a slut. Besides, who loses their virginity on a drunken one-night stand with the most gorgeous guy you know?

I was pulled out of my thoughts by a horn honking. Emmett had only ever seen Addy once, right after I had her. She's turning four this year.

Em jumped out of the car and hugged me tightly. It's been so long since I've actually seen him. He pulled back to examine me. I noticed Addy cowering behind growling Senna.

"Hey, Addy, come here and say hi to your uncle Em!" I said brightly. She trembled and shook her head. Her bright green eyes were twisted with fear and it broke my heart. Emmett growled and took a step towards the house where James was currently passed out. I threw my arm across his massive chest to stop him.

"Baby, it's okay. I won't hurt you." Emmett said soothingly. She took a timid step forward and Emmett came the rest. He picked her up and swirled her around. Her joyous laugh rang through the air.

"Em, can you take us back to your place for the night? I'm really tired and I want to see Rosie." I asked. He nodded and corralled Senna into the backseat of his jeep. " I want to take a look at your jaw and her lip anyway." He said firmly.

The drive was short and silent. When we walked into their townhouse, Rosalie stood and started threatening.

"Emmett McCarty! What the fuck are you—" She cut off as she saw who was with him.

"Bella?" She asked. I nodded and we ran towards each other, both crying and hugged.

"Rose, I want you to meet my daughter. Addison Rose Swan." I said. Addy waved and clutched my leg.

"Hey." Rose said.

"Addy, this is your Auntie Rose. Em's wife." I cooed.

"Oh my god! Bella, what happened to you?" She said, ghosting her hand over my jaw line. I shook my head, refusing.

"I'll get the guest room ready." Rose said scampering off up the steps.

One hour and a whole lot of tears later, I was finally able to go to sleep. Let the nightmares begin.