I can't believe this was happening again. I lost another friend to my 'vegetarian' diet. Why was it so hard for vampires to stick to this lifestyle? I need someone to talk to, I would have gone to my best friend..No, No, no. I will not start thinking of them again. They left me, and no longer loved me. There was a time when I was human that thinking of them left my heart in a million pieces. But I have also had decades to think about them, and recover as much as I could.
I decided I better go out and hunt seeing how that may make me feel better. There was much to choose from here. After being turned I traveled everywhere but as always ended up were it all began.
It had just turned fall, so leaves were still falling everywhere. It made me miss being a kid with Rene and playing in piles of leaves, jumping from one to the other. I missed my family. I missed both my families. I had always wanted this life, but I didn't want to experience it all alone. That was the worse pain there was. Having to exist forever not having a family to love or to be loved from.
As I was thinking all this over I ran into a mountain lion and took it down in one stride. It was still so strange to see what I had become. I remember like it was yesterday 'him' telling me that he needed to hunt, and me secretly wanting to go watch.
Ugh, I really had to stop thinking about them, but I knew it would never pass, no matter how long I was walking on this earth. I slowly started walking home. I tried to avoid town because I wasn't really trying to be careful with how I took down my dinner. As I was walking just out of sight of human eyes I could still hear laughter and kids playing, for a split second I smiled and then I let it waiver. I hadn't smiled in so long, and I wasn't going to start now.
While I was still walking I thought I heard a name I hadn't heard in awhile. I decided to take a quick glance behind me, but once I did I knew it was the wrong choice.
There stood the most gorgeous people I had ever seen. Faces that once loved me.
How could this be happening, why would they come back here? They place where they all left me to die. WHY?
Before I knew it 6 pair of eyes was looking at me. I realized just then that I gasped out loud, and clasped my hand over my mouth. And slowly the 7th person, the only man I had ever loved , locked eyes with me. I saw him mouth "Bella". Before I knew it they were closer, and then I realized that I was walking towards them. I faltered once I saw them crouch to spring. Once I saw that I started backing up, and then he stood up from where he was sitting.
How could this be happening? I asked myself again. Why would they be here?
Now all 7 were advancing me, and I just sprinted. I ran and ran. I could hear him advancing, he always was so fast, I was almost faster, but I could hear him gaining. Then I stopped. And now my old family was all looking at me like I was a ghost. Well I guess I was, seeing as how I would be 120 if I were still human.
I felt like I needed to scream. God knows they all deserved a yelling. I wanted to scream and cry and kick. I was started to get better. I hadn't forgotten but I had moved on.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?" I screamed.
"Did you come to torture me some more?"
Now everyone looked confused. "Look OK I will leave, you guys were in Forks first, just forget me and leave me like you did before."
He was the first one to speak, how I have missed his voice.
"Bella, what happened to you? Why are you here?"
"I, uh, live here?" I questioned.
He smiled the slightest "I meant, why are you alive?" he countered.
Then I felt a rage I hadn't felt since they day he left me.
"You don't have to right to ask me about my life anymore. You lost that right when you and your family"- I pointed to them with my chin-"abandoned me, left me, just to die."
Just then Alice made a step forward and I notice her grimace at my appearance. I then looked down and remembered that I was not careful with the mountain lion. I wrapped my arms around my stomach.
"I'm sorry I wasn't trying to be careful when I fed earlier.'"
"Don't apologize Bella, please don't."
"Why are you here?" I asked him.
He stepped forward the tiniest bit, I assumed not to scare me off "We live here now, Bella."
"Then I guess I will leave, I know you don't want to be around me."
As I started to turn and leave I could smell them closer behind me and felt a hand on my shoulder. Before I knew what happened I collapsed on the ground and sobbed. I so wish I could cry sometimes, it felt so weird to cry in this body, although I have experienced more than several occasions by now.
"Please don't leave," I heard their voices in unison "please stay so we can talk, Isabella." Edward finished.
"Edward…" that was the first time I have said his name out loud in more than half a century, it caught me by surprise. I sighed and then got up. "Edward," I said again, it was weird getting used to that "I know you don't want me anymore, so I am going to save you the trouble and just leave town."
I saw Alice elbow him in the ribs, and mentally laughed at that. I used to love seeing them two together, they were the closest of the whole family. And I missed it all so much.
Edwards face fell and it left me confused. Jasper was the one that spoke up this time.
"Bella, you're confused." And it wasn't a question.
"Well, yes, I am."
"Why don't you come home with us so we can talk? I think Edward has some explaining to do." He said again as he glared at Edward. Why was everyone so mad at Edward? It wasn't their fault he didn't love me anymore. I looked into Edward's eyes and saw something I hadn't seen in over a century. Love.
"Isabella, you are my love. Please come back to the house with me. I love you, and always had." My eyes got wide. "When I left you, I lied. I knew I had to lie to you so you would let me go. Bella, I never stopped loving you, please follow us so we can talk"
