You. You don't have to sit there. You don't have to sit there all by yourself. You don't have to really, especially there right outside that stupid room. No wait. I almost forgot. The stupid one is you.
Kougaiji.
What do you expect from long hours of staring at a piece of pillar-statue? Is it how you get determined? Feel inspired? Mm? Do you really need someone—I mean, something—to impel that little body of yours? Right, silly me.
My poor dear prince, surrounded by illusions. How you seek these pieces of alleviation, the ones behind the extension of the brink before the red and white mixture of insanity. The brink where you now stand . . . or sit.
You don't have to be there, beside those doors. Especially beside those damn heavy doors. I bet you couldn't bear the look on your stone-cold mother's face anymore, could you? Of course not, why—no, how—could you? It's cold. And your leather jacket didn't help one bit, did it? Mm?
You don't have to sit there. All alone in the dark. All alone. In the dark. So alone, so dark, there's not even a single shadow to keep your compressed form company. And the sharp coldness penetrates your jeans doesn't it?
I placed a flavored white piece of stick between my lips, and burned the butt with what little flame my lighter flicks. This is my piece of alleviation. Why bother with fire? Why bother with red and white illusions? Why the need to burn yourself? That little body of yours. . . .
I walked along the corridor. I need to pass you by. The string-like smoke from my cigarette butt leaving a translucent receding trail. The soft-feather smoke that is . . . real. Coming up from my sweet cigarette stick that is, real.
I handed to you my stuffed bunny, my precious bunny doll as I passed by your folded knees.
"I'll let you borrow it for the meanwhile," I said, "Please do use it to your heart's content." Leaving you behind . . . so casual.
I did good today. Very good I believe. I just shared my piece of alleviation, my most cherished one you see. Because I, I don't have anybody—no, anything—else.
