Ok,let me just say that this is my first story so do be kind haha
I do not own anything sadly,characters are not mine but the story is
I dont really know where i am going with this so just tell me if you like it and and want me too continue =) *stares at you intently*
Chapter 1
Regina satires down at the sink,a headache beginning to form and her stomach beginning to twist as she satires down at the little white stick hidden in the sink.
The small black plus sign laughing at her, she couldn't believe what was happening. What was going on. She was going to have a baby. A living being was already forming itself inside of her.
Regina could never have kids. It's not that she didn't want them it just that she truly couldn't have them. She had tried before but ended up with only heart break and pain.
Turning away from the sink Regina hits the bathroom wall in front of her. A hot tear rolled down her unblemished cheek. She knew who this baby belonged to. Just thinking about the father made her sick and also made her extremely angry with herself. It had been a one night thing,a one night thing that had killed her ever sense it had happened. A one night thing that was stuck in side her head.
Another tear formed and followed the last one. Regina sniffled and took a deep breath,hoping she could calm herself. She looked back down in the sink. The white stick still sitting where she left it, the black cross still smiling up at her. Regina picked it up and tossed it in the trash, looking into the mirror she wiped away her tears , straightened her shoulders and headed out the door.
She felt a ping of guilt and self hatred as she strutted down her stairs, heels clicking against the floor. The thought of that night flickered into her mind giving her chills. She shook her head and grabbed her purse off of the small table before heading out. To where? She didn't even know. She just thought maybe some fresh air could help and she also needed to make a doctors appointment. Preferably not with whale but she would take what she got.
Regina opened the door letting the cool breeze wash over her hot face. What about mother? Regina thought quickly. She would of course have to tell her. She needed to know,it was only thing she could help her with without having to be a bitch or tell her what to do. Regina felt a little scared as she thought about telling her mother. What is she got mad and told me I had to get rid of the baby? Do I even want the baby? Regina was more confused then she had ever been.
As she turned the corner she was so deep in thought that she ran straight into Belle who nearly knocked her flat on her butt. She looked at Belle with a sinister look and Belle looked back with one of terror. Then she saw him. The man that helped her conceive this child,the one who flooded her thoughts every god damn night and day.
" Belle are you ok? What happened?" He looked at Regina and then back at Belle.
"I ran into Regina on accident." Belle gave a weak smile to her boyfriend and then to Regina.
"No..I ran into you. I wasn't paying any attention,I was caught in thought. I'm sorry." Regina couldn't believe what she had said. She didn't mean to but when she saw him,when she saw his golden eyes and worried expression she couldn't help but tell the truth.
"Regina? Are you feeling okay?" Gold joked and smiled at her.
Actually that was a wonderful question because at this point Regina was feeling quiet ill. Like she would throw up. Regina just nodded and then swerved around the couple not wanting to have to see him smile at her lovingly again. Why did she feel so much for him. It's not like they ever had history other then him being her teacher but...nothing had happened.
The only time she had felt this was was when she was with Graham and of course Daniel but never would she ever think about feeling that way for Gold. The thought would have once mad her laugh until it hurt. But now...now all she wanted was to hold him close to her and tell him everything.
Then it hit her...she had to tell him. This is the child like she said before helped her conceive, he helped with this. He was their when it happened. What if he doesn't believe me? The why if 's began again and he couldn't help but feel even sicker. He was in love with Belle not Regina. He wanted Belle to have his children not her.
Regina's purse slide down her arm and she clasped it with her fingers as it skimmed the ground. Tears began to pile up and at any moment she knew she could break. She wanted someone to tell her it was going to be okay. To tell her she was going to get through this. Regina wants her son, she wanted Graham and Daniel, and never had she wanted Archie more. Tears had already made their way down her face.
Soft,small sobs escaped her mouth as she continued to walk. She didn't care if anyone saw her,she wanted someone to see her pain. Anyone, she wanted anyone to help her make it better.
She felt a soft small hand grasp her shoulder. Regina stopped and turned to see the face of her enemy.
"Regina...are ok?" Mary Margret asked kindly. She didn't care if they hated each other,she was worried and wanted to help.
Regina didn't know what to say. Could she tell snow and trust her. Or would she go and tell the whole town about the small secret that was forming inside of her? Regina was caught in her emotions and was too confused to even try and figure out a good answer or a mean thing to say. She just stood there,tears covering her face. Regina wanted to be honest but then she also didn't want Mary Margaret getting the wrong idea and thinking they were suddenly best friends. Then she said something she knew she would later in regret.
"No..." Regina whispered.
Mary Margaret looked at her up and down. Slowly she leaned down and grabbed Regina's purse from her,bringing it up to her shoulder and locking elbows with the former evil queen. Regina was in too much shook to even wiggle away from her. She just let Mary Margaret lead the way.
They didn't talk,not a word escaped either women's mouth as they walked to Mary Margaret's house. Unlocking the door she softly pushed Regina in and followed in suit. She seat the black gold studded purse on the table and pulled out a chair for Regina. Smiling she went into the kitchen and began making tea.
The tears had stopped and now Regina's face felt stiff and still extremely wet. She had to continue sniffling due to the snot that had accompanied the tears. The sickness was starting to fade but the heartbreak was beginning to grow worse.
Regina hated this. Being vulnerable,being weak and extremely fragile. It was not something a queen should be. She was once powerful and happy. Then she shared a night with gold and suddenly her world fell apart. Now she was broken and pregnant.
Mary Margaret sat a small teacup in front of Regina as she took a seat at the table. Regina snapped out of her thoughts and inhaled the sweet scent of peach and sugar. She lifted the cup to her lips and took a small sip, sighing when the warmth flooded down her throat and caressed her stomach.
"Feeling any better?" Her voice was soft and caring.
Regina nodded and took another mouthful of the sweet liquid. She felt almost numb as she consumed the rest of the warm drink.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" Mary Margaret question lightly.
Regina shrugged and leaned back in the wooden chair. She sighed and looked back up at snow, sighing again.
"Why are you doing this?" That was one thing Regina wanted to know.
"Doing what?" Confusion took over the beautiful girls features and Regina groaned.
"Being nice to me of course." Regina was getting some what annoyed with the princess.
"Why not? You needed help Regina and I wasn't just gonna leave you on the side of the road crying and upset." Mary Margaret fired back and looked into the older women's eyes.
"You could have left me there..." Regina looked down. Wishing that she did but also happy that she didn't.
"We'll I didn't...so do you wanna talk to me or not?" Her voice had lowered as she watched the queen look Down in defeat.
"You wouldn't understand..." Regina shook her head.
"Try me." Mary Margaret was getting inpatient but still wanted to help.
"I'm...I'm uhhh...im pregnant." Regina finally gave in and looked at the younger girl who was caught in complete shook.
"Oh...my god Regina. Con-congratulations." She smiled and watched as relief washed over Regina. "Who's the father?"
Regina paused and looked away from Mary Margaret for a minute. She didn't know what to say. To tell the truth or lie and say she didn't know. But wouldn't that just make her sound slutty and their weren't all that many people in Storybrooke so if she lied she was actually completely screwed but if she told the truth she was double screwed. Suddenly her mouth took over and she blurted out his name.
"Mr. Gold." Regina spoke confidently as if she were ok with this.
"But...he's with Belle?" Mary Margaret began to get confused and also a little angry at how she slept with her friends boyfriend.
"It was when they were separated. He would never do anything to hurt her." Regina felt her heart ache.
"Have you seen whale?"
"No.."
"Are you going too?"
"Yes.."
"Are you gonna tell Gold?"
Regina paused and then nodded shortly. The door opened and in walks charming and of course Emma and Henry. Everyone stopped and looked at each other ,no one knowing what to say or how to react. Regina stood and grabbed her purse.
"Thanks for the tea. I will be seeing you around." Regina forced out a fake smile and turned towards the door. Leaving everyone else to talk.
"What was my mom doing here?" Henry looked at his grandmother and then his Emma.
" we were just talking,that's all." She smile and answered back.
"What about?" Charming looked at her intently as if checking for any cuts or bruises.
"Just stuff. Nothing important." Mary Margaret lowers the glass cup into the sink and sighed. Confusion still clouding her mind.
Regina had practically sprinted down the stairs and out the door. She knew she had to get to the hospital but she was so confused and broken that she didn't really know what to do.
Regina knew she was truly pregnant but the thoughts still clouded her mind. She wanted to tell Gold,had to tell Gold but she didn't know when. Didn't know how. And she of course had to tell her mother. Maybe thats who she would tell first... Well other then Mary Margaret that found out unexpectedly. She would first tell her mother,then go to the hospital...then tell Gold. Regina smiled at her plan and headed home. Replaying what she would say to her mother in her mind, hoping it went the way she thought it would.
Regina thought over and over in her head what to say,what to do and of course what to do after. Regina had paced in front of her front door for hours waiting for her mother to decide to open the door and have a conversation with her.
Her wish came to soon and in walked Cora her mother. Wearing her black dress pants,black blouse and jacket. Heels like Regina's clicking against the marble floor. Cora was surprised to see we daughter looking so pale and scared.
"Honey...what's wrong?" Cora smile an walked towards Regina,pausing when Regina took a couple steps back and gasped. "Are you okay? Did someone hurt you?"
"No mom." Regina's voice was shaky." I-I need to talk to you." Regina walks towards her sitting room. Cora followed not liking the sound of what was going on.
Regina sat down,she shivers and couldn't seem to calm her self. She hated her self even more now. Cora sat next to her,worried about her daughter but not liking the lack of power that was radiating off of her. It made Cora sick and angry. This isn't the girl she raised,She never taught her to be weak or to crumble under pressure.
"Mom,I made a mistake and I did something I shouldn't have done and I need your help." Regina knew her mom was at least a little worried but she also didn't like what she was saying.
"I can only try my best." Cora faked a smile.
"Mom...I'm pregnant." Regina blurted. Cora's face twisted into something unimaginable, Cora felt like she could breath fire. Whoever did this to her daughter to the one person the was suppose to give her HER happy ending was now pregnant and no longer able to help get back at everyone who had destroyed her daughter. The man that gave her the looking glass to shiver her Into and send her to wonderland.
"Who is the father Regina?" Cora stood,the anger plan in her voice.
"I highly doubt that matters mother." Regina stood with her mother,shaking her head.
"Regina..." Cora wasn't messing around,didn't think it was funny.
"...Rumplestiltskin..." Regina gulped down a breath of air.
Cora turned leaving Regina on the brink of tears and extremely scared, "where are you going?" Regina ran after her mother,following her out the door and too Regina's car.
"To see the man that caused this." Cora slipped into the drivers seat. Regina opened the passenger door and jumped in. Hoping she could take back what had just happened.
She knew this wasn't going to go how she wanted, she wasn't prepared for what was really going to happen.
Ok,soooo yea sorry it was kinda short but i didnt want to give out too much but I already think I did,so maybe I already screwed up?
well tall me what you think i guess,I know I kinda made Regina a little like weak but I didnt really know what to do because i wanted her to atleast we alittle in love with Gold because they are having a baby haha
ok well bye =)
