Confusion Of the Heart of the Kitsune Miko

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Chapter 1. Ponderings and Thieves

LAST TIME IN A KITSUNE'S LOVE LIFE!

"Maybe it's time if we just don't…talk…to each other for a while." Kurama walked out and Kagome whirled around and tried to call out his name. Tears clouded her vision as she clenched her fist.

A few tears fell from her shadowed face onto her clenched fist and the blankets that covered her wounded body. Demons and humans they're all the same. They are all cruel and with the desire to hurt and destroy, why? She gazed up brokenly at the door Kurama left through again. She scowled and her face went cold and her eyes hardened and looked much like Kikyo's had only instead of brown a dark hazel blue. Goodbye then.

"Kagome ran off." Genkai said shortly and Yukina looked even more worried. "Only this time I don't think she'll return."

Suddenly it dawned on Kurama what Kagome wished. She wished for all the innocent people murdered by Naraku were brought back as though nothing ever happened. No one would really remember them being dead except those close to them.

Dear Suichi,

By the time you finish reading this letter I'll be gone. Along with everything that even indicated I ever existed. I want to be forgotten, so don't feel guilty for telling me the truth. I know you'll feel guilty but I know the truth now. Don't worry about me. I'll never come back. I'm leaving for good. Oh, I almost forgot I intended to return this to you.

Goodbye forever,

Kagome Higurashi

He sat down on his bed and stared at the chain and picked it up as though it would shatter. Slowly it fell from his grasp and he put his head in his head and you could see the silvery glint of tears as they slid through his fingers. Only one thought went through his mind. She's never coming back.

"Goodbye." Kagome whispered into the window and got off the bus with her face shadowed by her hair. A small tear could be seen slowly trickling down her shadowed face as she walked towards the field where an open portal to Demon World was.

AND NOW ON WITH Confusion Of the Heart of the Kitsune Miko

"Kurama don't worry she'll come back eventually. Kagome always comes back no matter how upset she is." Sango said. "That's the way she's always forgiving people no matter what. Just look at her and Inuyasha she always came back no matter what he did."

"Perhaps but did he tell her he didn't want to see her again?" Kurama asked darkly. It had been six months since Kagome left and no one's heard from her, seen or sensed her. Koenma tried looking for her but couldn't find her, Hiei tried using his Jagan eye and couldn't sense her. He sensed her briefly but it disappeared just as quickly as it was found. Inuyasha thought she may have gone to the past but realized she couldn't have because the well was destroyed with her final encounter with Naraku.

"Yes I have." Inuyasha said walking up next to them. "But she came back anyways. Even after I made it clear that I loved Kikyo more. She still wanted to stay by my side. If she hadn't you wouldn't have met her. Personally I think that would've been better." He muttered then glanced at Kurama. "She'll come back as soon as she feels better and doesn't feel we all want to kill her when she has her back turned.

"What?" Kurama gasped looking surprised.

"Wouldn't put it past her to believe we all hate her because we were all killed at some point and she could do nothing except watch." Inuyasha shrugged. "She still feels pain for the things Naraku has done to her and for the loss of those we love and believing she sent Shippo and Kirara to safety when she instead sent them to their deaths. That is not the best feeling in the world."

"No it isn't." Kurama muttered.

"It also doesn't help that she's seen the worst side of humans and demons." Miroku said joining them with Kuwabara and Yusuke who was holding a squirming Puu.

"It's kinda hard to believe that she was willing to give up her life to bring the innocent people that Naraku has killed back to life." Yusuke said. "But yet she didn't want to die and sent herself on a suicidal mission anyways."

"I'm surprised you seem confused by that Yusuke." Botan said as they both walked up to the others. "I thought you'd understand what she felt the most since you've done the same suicidal missions for others and didn't give a thought about how others would feel about it."

"If you still don't understand it dimwit, think about why you do it all the time." Genkai said.

"I do it because nothing else would matter if my friends all got killed. I would do anything to protect them." Yusuke said wonderingly. "Yeah, I guess I do understand. But I still feel bad about accusing her of purposely not telling us what Naraku threatened her with. She honestly didn't know but I continued to run my big mouth."

"I knew." Kurama said softly. "I was aware that she heard everything we were saying and I thought with the right push she would get her head straight. It kind of worked because she didn't go after Naraku."

"What?" They all looked at him. He had never told them about the letter and now almost six months later they were just finding out about it.

"Well, what did it say?" Kuwabara asked.

"It was for me. So I'll only inform you of the basic points." Kurama said. "She said she only went to her shrine because that's where she told Kirara to take Shippo if the need became desperate and she realized he was dead and was mourning the loss of him, Kirara and Sango." They all glanced at Sango who kept a steady gaze on Kurama. They had informed her of her death shortly after Kagome left and she accepted it rather well.

"She didn't want to die but felt she might have to. She was willing to fight Naraku to the death along with everyone else. She didn't expect him to show up at the shrine he just did hoping to take advantage of her in her weakened and fragile state I assume. He probably didn't realize she was a lot like Yusuke when it came to grieving. The more grief she felt the more powerful she became. She wouldn't die until she was sure he was dead first. She was going to go after him eventually to take the Shikon Jewel and make her wish for all of those he killed to be returned to be among the living." Kurama sighed. "It seems I was wrong once again about her and both underestimated and overestimated her. She put up a good act but on the inside she was more fragile then we've realized. I pushed her to her breaking point but her fight with Naraku has made her see the ultimate lengths both humans and demons are willing to go to obtain power. It didn't help when none of us truly trusted her to begin with." Kurama muttered the last sentence.

"Things happen people screw up. Wooptido." Yusuke said. "She'll get over it."

"But she may not." Miroku said. "There's always that possibility that she may not get over it. And if she does what changes shall we expect?"

"What do ya mean?" Inuyasha demanded.

"I mean that no one comes back from the things she's been through being exactly the same as she was in the beginning. When I first met her she hated it when anything died, demon or not. She never enjoyed seeing people slaughtered or hurt. She fell in love with you and you were torn between her and Kikyo, Inuyasha. When you told her you chose Kikyo she was more hurt then she showed. Then she grew to love Yoko Kurama, but was once again broken hearted both when he died in the battle with Naraku and again when he was telling her the truth as it is. She's lost her best friend twice along with her adopted son and she felt responsible for the death of your loved ones and your mother Kurama. She was never one to accept the deaths of innocent people. Especially ones that cannot defend themselves." Miroku said. "She will not come out of these things with out changes. After we died she built a wall between her and her emotions but Kurama wore it down long enough to possibly partially save her sanity. You didn't drive her away Kurama you saved her from herself. She would have killed herself slowly with her own emotions otherwise or she could've even been driven mad by her suppressed grief, pain, anger and sadness." They all remained silent.

"Kagome's too innocent for all this to happen to her. She's always been there for us but yet we can't be there for her when she needs us the most." Sango said stiffly and punched the ground. "Its not fair!"

"Life isn't fair kiddo." Genkai stated. "Kagome was too kindhearted for the world we are used to. It killed her to see so much death. No one could help her at that point when she lost her brother by her own hand. Not even you Sango." Kurama's eyes filled with sadness and Hiei looked at her sharply.

"What do you mean?" Hiei asked. No one noticed that she had killed her brother except Inuyasha, Sango, Kurama, Kuronue and Genkai.

"She did what she had to. It was either her brother or all of us. She chose to save us. It's that simple and a part of her didn't understand that and doesn't want to either. She's too gentle to the world of fighting. When she became a demon she probably wasn't more enthused to the idea of fighting. She didn't fight for fun she fought to protect those she cared about. We were her strength and weakness. Knowing her she probably went somewhere to try to heal and get stronger."

"Makai!" They all thought. "She wouldn't, would she?" Asked Botan.

"I don't know, possibly. She hasn't been detected in Living World as far as we know, but that could be because she left the country. We won't know until she returns." Inuyasha muttered, thoughtfully looking at the wall. "Wouldn't put it past her though. That would be Kagome for you." He sighed and the others continued thinking and Kurama's eyes still held a deep sense of guilt.

"Then all we can do is wait, and pray that she will return to us." Sango said softly. "She will return to us. All we can do now for her at the moment is wait."

"She loves you Kurama." Miroku said and stared steadily at Kurama. "If she returns for anyone it will be for you. You're love is too strong for each other no matter how much the two of you hate to admit it. You're each other's weaknesses, look at yourself Kurama and think about how Kagome feels for you. Do you think she'll be in a much better state then you?"

"It's true. So don't deny it." Inuyasha said. "And when she does return you'd better not hurt her again. Or I will kill you."

"You'll have to get in line." Sango muttered. Kurama sighed.

"Kikyo said she's have first dibs on me so you'd have to wait until my next life or until you guys die." Kurama muttered and the others just looked at him and Hiei gave an 'Hn.'

"What?" Inuyasha looked sharply at Kurama. "Kikyo is dead. How can it be she threatened to kill you?"

"She is still apart of Kagome. She, despite before when she was doing it unconsciously, always helped protect Kagome's soul. She told me that if I hurt Kagome again she would personally kill me if you guys didn't kill me first." Kurama sighed and the others did too.

"Wouldn't put it past her to do so." Inuyasha said, "That's Kikyo for ya." Just then Yusuke's communication mirror went off.

"What do you want toddler?" Yusuke drawled as he answered the compact mirror.

"I TOLD YOU NOT TO CALL ME THAT! Anyways we have an emergency." Koenma said.

"What's the problem?" Yusuke asked instantly serious.

"We have more thieves." Koenma stated.

"What?" Yusuke asked. "You need to be more specific then that. I kill demons not do the jobs of cops."

"They're stealing minor things. Valuable things but now they're moving onto dangerous things."

"Like what?" Kurama asked.

"They already stole the Book of Shadows. It's a very powerful and potentially dangerous book of spells." Koenma stated seriously. "I think you all should come here immediately."

"Fine whatever." Yusuke said and he put the communication mirror away. "Botan can ya make a portal for us?"

"Sure thing." Botan then opened the portal and the detectives stepped in leaving the others behind.

"So what do you have to tell us of these thieves?" Yusuke said. Koenma put a picture on the screen.

"There are three of them in the group as far as we can tell. There may be more." Koenma said. "They wear masks and similar outfits when they rob people so we can't exactly tell what gender they are. And when we think we know what gender they are it always appears we're wrong, so they're using an illusion spell for that. Most definitely one of them is a powerful young wiccan."

"I didn't realize that there were witches who still had that amount of respect left for nature." Kurama murmured.

"Huh?" Kuwabara said.

"How about you explain it to us clueless people." Yusuke said crossing his arms looking irritated.

"Wiccans are witches who use their powers respectably. They don't use human medicines to heal people they use herbs and are quite effective in healing both humans and demons. They can be quite dangerous when threatened and use their powers in battle if need be. I guess you could say they're a waayy weaker version of miko's." Koenma said. "One of their other abilities is the power of illusion and spiritual attacks. They don't kill humans, and the humans that have been attacked were merely knocked out not killed. All the signs point to at least one of them being a wiccan. The others have high demon energy. One is what we think is a fox we're not sure. The last one is unknown. The one we think is a fox moves too efficiently for us to study it closely." Koenma said.

"So you want us to fight these little thieves?" Yusuke asked.

"Yes." Koenma stated when suddenly the alarms went off. "Oh, NO! They're here. Go fight them."

"Right then!" They all turned to run to the entrance.

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Kuramasgal: I'm proud to know that so many of you enjoyed my last story a Kitsune's Love Life! Sniffles proudly YAY! I'm happy I finally got a chance to update!

Kurama: Yeah its nice…but I haven't seen Kagome in over six months! When will I see her again?

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Me: backs up into a corner trembling But I updated u'll see each other soon I swear it! Please don't hurt me with out me I can't continue! glares at unseen readers and both games that means no throwing sharp pointy objects, or poisoning or spelling/ clawing me to death….looks at reviewers meekly please? Don't throw boxes of food at me either. Those hurt. Don't ask, long story shivers at the memory

Inuyasha: Feh. your lucky we need you. Me hits Inuyasha on the head

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Kuramasgal: ahem anyways…special thanks to Jinenji and Chibes (I think it was you…right? If not thanks anyways and thank you who ever else gave it to me and I give u full permission to yell at me!) for the lyrics and websites!

Jenenji…I did horrible on finals too I got a D…thank god nobody got an A or else he wouldn't have given us a ten point curve so I got a c. I also did bad in history.

Kitsune-Miko-Tenshi…trembles …see I updated? Plz don't hurt me.

Anyways…..I was just warning you that I was considering on putting lemons in this story. If you guys don't want me to then inform me and I won't. So for now I'll just leave it at pg 13 for…well probably language and violence. So send me plenty of reviews and I'll try to update in two days!