My patience was wearing thin. I can't stand being alone at home. I feel his presence everywhere but I know he won't come. It's been months and I've received no phone calls. At night, I find myself going into the woods to that same place he left.
I'm gonna go now and take that walk. Charlie's working a late shift and I'm alone at home, so I hear nothing but the footsteps in my house.
As soon as I walk outside, I feel those little droplets of water. It's a good thing I wore my hoodie. I don't even need a flashlight to come out here anymore. I'm pretty sure I memorized the places where I walk ...
I felt a cold gust of wind flash right by me. I looked around and muttered, " Who's there?"
To my surprise, a smiling Laurent was inches away from my face. I could see the lust of blood in his eyes.
"W…What do you want, Laurent?" I questioned. Nervousness could be echoed in my voice. He laughed then said, "You."
I screamed as loud as I could and even tried to run. That was such a stupid move considering he's a vampire. He a grabbed a hold of my wrist and bit me where James did. The burning began to seep through my body. Something stopped Laurent that caused him to let go. He held a sorrowful look then ran away…
Why didn't he kill me? It would've been better for me to just be gone. I was never wanted long enough to have a reason to live.
What would happen to Charlie? I was the only thing left for him…his life support. He'd be depressed to know I was gone. Why would Laurent do this? He seemed so neutral… I guess I was wrong… about many things.
I fell to my knees because I couldn't take the pain anymore. I don't really think it could be called pain because it didn't hurt that much. The burning was just so overwhelming. It went everywhere. The venom started to spread from my wrist to the rest of my arm and after that, it went everywhere else in my body. This wasn't how I wanted my change to occur. I wanted Edward or one of the Cullens to change me. Not Laurent. He was the last person I wanted to be changed by.
I tried to get my mind to stop thinking about the burning but nothing helped. I still felt the venom going through my entire body. The change was going too slow. I wish it would quicken so I could get this awful change over and done with.
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Throughout the process of being changed, I stayed in the woods. I wasn't really paying attention to my surroundings. After three days, I decided to go and check up on Charlie. It hurt me to know I'd have to leave him. I was the only thing he had left... It would be best to leave him a letter and tell him I would visit him.
Charlie,
Please don't worry. There has been a change in me and I will never be the same. I need some time to myself to figure things out. I promise to come see you…soon.
Don't worry too much and please just tell everyone I went to visit Renee. I'll miss you.
Love you Dad,
Bells
I gave him a very vague answer to why I wouldn't be back. But what else could I do. I was a newborn. I couldn't test my strength to be around humans just yet. I wasn't even thirsty. My throat didn't burn till I thought about blood. I went hunting and it was easy. It was like I had been doing it all my life.
After I finished hunting, I didn't know where to go. I mean, I could've gone anywhere but there was only one place where I wanted to be… in his arms. I couldn't be in denial I missed Edward so much. He was and still is my one true love. It doesn't matter if we're not together; I know that he's still my one and only love. Thinking about him made me feel so mournful. I wanted to hate Edward so bad but I couldn't. All the love that I had for him overpowers any hate I would want to build towards him. He left me and that's why I became this monster. I didn't even know myself anymore. Never again would I be that Bella from months before. Edward changed me and all he had to do was leave. I would always love Edward but I swear if I ever saw him again, I wouldn't show him that I still had that love for him. Why the hell would he care? He left me, which obviously meant he didn't care if I was heartbroken and torn forever. How could you do that to someone you supposedly love? If I could cry, I'd be in hysterics.
I started running… I don't know where I was running to, but I proceeded to run. I had to run away from Forks, the place where I fell in love and met Edward…
