Standing on a bridge...you wouldn't expect me of all people to be here at this time of night, would you? I put on a happy mask around people, but I was just so sick of it! No one seemed to care anymore anyways...there wasn't a point to anything. Everything I did was for one boy, and he's too stupid and blind and popular to believe me, or return my feelings. This would show them all...this would get them thinking, wouldn't it.
I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound
It was freezing...I rushed out without my jacket, clad in just a pair of shorts and a t-shirt. I couldn't feel anything though...I was numb because of my thoughts of bliss and peace...thoughts that were ruined when I thought of my home life. I waited there, watching the streets to see if anyone was going to stop me. No one showed up...I wasn't angry, just slightly sad. There wasn't much I could do now...I just had to argue with myself about him...wether he would miss me or not. We were friends before...before he got popular. Would he remember me? When my name showed up on the news, would he grieve for me?
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I smiled softly as I thought of him, and the good times we had in our freshman year...we were inseferable then. Our parents got worried because we hung out that much and still didn't start dating...all he said was that he wanted to preserve the time we had as friends, that we had a whole lifetime ahead of us, and if we fell in love later on down the line, we would have plenty of time with eachother. I agreed with him...even though my heart was breaking when he rejected me. He never even asked me to go out with him later on down the line...what he did was abandon me for the popular crowd. I havn't talked to him in a while...he's been to busy.
im looking for a place
searching for a face
is there anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythigns a mess
and no one likes to be alone
Thoughts were ruined by sirens, sirens were covered by thunder. I realized it was starting to storm, and looked up. Police were yelling at me to stay put, but I couldn't hear them. I didn't move, but I ignored everything. I could only think about him...about the times we layed there looking up at the stars, even when they werent visible. The police were trying to stop me, trying to convince me that I had to much going for me to do this, but they didn't matter. I didn't want to hear it from them, I wanted to hear it from him!
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
Maybe i'm just crazy...I had no idea what I was doing truthfully, only why I was doing it. Should I jump? Should I wait for lightning to strike me? Or do I stand there until someone is brave enough to cross the police barricade? I didn't care really...I couldn't feel anything right now, just the rain hitting my body with freezing stings. I'm out of my mind...all this over one guy? One guy that wont want to love me wether i'm dead or alive. But I cant change his mind, can I? Is this selfish, or are they selfish? How can I tell? How do I learn that what i'm doing is wrong?
oh why is everything so confusing It's a damn cold night
maybe I'm just out of my mind
yea yea yea
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
"STOP! SORA, NO!" That voice...it was so familiar. I didn't know wether to look or keep looking at the sky. I voted for the latter, and stared at the clouds, and the lightning flashing overhead. I heard police officers yelling for someone to stay away, but I heard footsteps behind me, and someone pulled my hand. It was him...it was Riku. The one boy I thought would never come for me...me, the dorky, clutzy, boyish girl. He came for me. I turned around, and threw myself into his arms, and he squeezed me tightly. "Don't you ever, ever do that again, do you understand me Sora! I will die with you if you try to do that.!" He threatened, burrying his head into my long, spikey brunette hair. I started to cry on his shoulder, and he let me. He rubbed my back, and whispered that I would be okay. But he still didn't say those words...the one's I had been waiting for.
Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
He held me in his arms, refusing to let me go as the rain fell harder. The police approached, but they were ignored as I pressed my body against Riku's. I realized how cold it was, and that I was shivering, and looked up at Riku, who smirked, and led me to his car. The police cleared out, seeing that Riku had everything covered. I hid a smile from him as I sat in the front seat with him, waiting for him to heat the car up. This was enough for me...he showed me how much he cared. "How did you know I was out there? I told my aunt I was going to your house." I said. Riku rolled his eyes.
"You honestly think that would have worked? Sora, you idiot! She called to see if you were there, and I told her I had no clue where you were. Then I remembered you loved to go to the bridge when we were kids...so I went there. When I saw you standing on the bridge, I panicked. Sora, you worry me sick sometimes! What were you thinking?" Riku asked. It looked like he was going to start crying with me. I looked down.
"Its stupid...you'll laugh at me." I muttered. He cuckled and shook his head, motioning for me to continue explaining. I took in a deep breath, and nodded. "I...I was scared you didn't care. I thought....I thought that was an easy way out...Riku, I love you, and I always have. I just wish you could love me to." I said, wrapping my arms around my legs, and burrying my head in my knee's. Riku chuckled again, and looked over at me. he still hadn't started the car yet.
"That's not stupid, Sora...and you don't seem to have the full story yet...I do." He said, leaning closer to me. I felt dizzy all of a sudden, and looked up at him with a questioning expression. "I love you, Sora." He whispered, capturing my lips with his own, and wrapping his arms around my waist. My arms snaked around his neck, and I knotted my fingers in his long silver hair. I felt dizzier, and pulled away from Riku, breathing heavily. "I'm with you, Sora...I will always be with you." He said, kissing me again. I kissed back, to happy to even speak, or move, or even notice the numbing cold blowing in through the car windows. My thoughts of bliss and peace returned, never to be burdened by thoughts of suicide again. He was my everything...I'm with him now, and that's never going to change.
Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...
