A/N: First of all, this is a sequel of sorts to Cold Without You, so I would recommend reading that first, since this one is kinda jumbled and wouldn't make snese without it. Secondly, I don't own vocaloid! Surprise surprise!
Remember when you were warm? When you weren't a slab of stone haphazardly stuck in the ground. Remember when Miku used to smile? When she and Luka would giggle over the most trivial things. Remember when Ia could breathe properly? When she would laugh the most, and challenge us to tongue twister contests.
Remember when I was fat? I've changed a lot since you left, I've lost weight. I'm skinny now; perfectly thin and skinny.
But Miku says I need to eat. She says she can practically see my bones.
I don't believe her. She's just trying to get me to come back to the hospital.
I was discharged a few days ago, on account of "good behavior and health improvement"
They didn't want me to leave, but I had to see you.
"Are you really leaving?" Miku asked quietly, her tone all too similar to Yukari's.
"Yeah," is all I said, continuing to shove random things into my backpack.
"Will you come back to see us?" her voice shook, cracking.
"I don't know," I answered honestly. I didn't know, and I didn't particularly want to.
"Take care of yourself."
It's the other way around these days. She comes to see me, to try to get me to eat again, to get me warm again.
She doesn't know what she's doing, right Yukari?
I deserve to freeze, to waste away into bones. I deserve to be left alone to die in the most painful way.
Don't I Yukari?
Would you still love me if I killed myself? Would you still love me, if I came to join you?
Remember when you were alive? When you were with me, and we were in love.
Sometimes I wish I didn't. Sometimes, I wish my mom and dad has never met. Sometimes I even wish your mom and dad never met.
I love you Yukari, I love you too much to wish away your existence. I love you more then the air, and I love you more than food, and blood, and pain.
I love you more than life.
But is that really such a shock coming from me?
I love you, Yukari, please forgive me.
Sorry that it's all jumbled, but I really wanted to write for this AU again, and I don't know why. I hope it's okay!
