Awakening

Drugs, illusion blend.
Monster with old lover's face
Drains life from my friends.

Seductive liar
Begs life from bewildered mind,
Calls to youthful fire.

Buried longing burns,
Hesitates to end her life.
But my heart discerns

Truth in anguished cries.
My heart reaches past deceit
To where the truth lies.

Sad…last of its kind…
But in my friends it can't its
Final purchase find.

Destroy life? Not to save
My own—but for love of them
I will dare the grave.

Jim and Spock and I
Shall not be torn asunder.
My illusion must die.

"Lord, forgive me."…please…
For I know just what I do
Take one life, save two.