A/N: Just a short introspective one-shot on Shigure, one of my favorite characters in Furuba next to Akito. Believe it or not, I actually really identify with him alot and can see where he's coming from. And so this one-shot/drabble is dedicated to him, his deep hatred for Kureno, and his dark, twisted, "feelings" for Akito. To the manipulative dog who will keep plotting and plotting until he one day has his God. Your day will come soon Shigure, mark my words your day will come soon.
Disclaimer: Fruits Basket does not belong to me but to Natsuki Takaya.
"Hate that Scars the Heart"
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I hate him…..
I hate everything about him,
I hate the way he's always by her side,
I hate the fact that he's her "favorite" while I only get the leftover scraps like a dog,
I hate the fact that he knows her body as intimately as I do….. But most of all…..
I hate that he is free. I hate that he can choose to leave whenever he wants, for he has no curse binding him. He is free to be with the one he loves, yet he chooses to stay with "her." And that is why I hate him the most. I may even hate him more than I hate "her." Funny huh?? How both love and hate can drive people to the lowest levels. People always think you only need hate to become a truly despicable person, however that notion is false, hate itself is not powerful enough to make a person truly evil, however when it is mixed with love that person will become the lowest of the low. Quite hilarious isn't it??
This hate runs so deep, and has twisted me so much, that I am willing to soul my sell my soul to the devil, if I even had one in the first place. I will use and manipulate everyone around me, just to see the satisfaction of her breaking down and submitting to me. God knows how many times she's broken "me." Oh wait I forgot, she is God, and God has a right to pass judgment on whoever he chooses, but she won't be. Not for long, not after I'm through with her.
I will have my revenge on them.
The entire Zodiac are but my puppets, my puppets that will hurt her. And Tohru-kun, poor, sweet, innocent Tohru-kun. She is the central pawn that will give me a checkmate and help me capture the queen. For that is just who I am, an unfeeling, manipulative ripple that will break everything in the end. And that rooster will rue the day he ever crossed me. And if Tohru-kun gets hurt in the process because of my plan….Well….
I never said I was the hero.
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A/N: Whoa, that was pretty deep and dark if I do say so myself, sorry if it's a little too depressing I was thinking about a certain situation that I'm currently going through which actually gave me the inspiration to write as Shigure my feelings. (Don't get the wrong idea, first of all I am a girl and I truly do believe these are Shigure's true feelings, otherwise I would be writing for a different fandom or character). However it's because of this situation that I'm identifying with Shigure more and more these days, he really is very misunderstood. Anyways, I hope I got him in-character, tell me your thoughts in your review anything at all is fine. Even if you think it's crap and I totally interpreted him wrong just tell me. I'm always looking to improve as a writer, even when I am just getting my feelings out. Anyways, till next time!!!!
FireMiko~
