Hey !

This is a OneShot . My first one, actually !

The music is WISH YOU WERE HERE, by Incubus. Listen to it while you're reading. It's better that way !

Hope you like it… It's in Suze's POV, a few years after the end of Twilight.

I sat alone on the beach and stared at the moon. I brought my knees to my chest to protect myself from the coldness. Maybe from the loneliness too.

The moon has always been there… At least, THAT would never change.

Paul kissed me hungrily.

"Stop it", I said. Even I didn't want him to.

What the hell was wrong with me?

"Oh Susie…", he said, going back to my lips.

"I mean it, stop it, Paul!".

"I'll only stop when I feel you really want me to.". He got me on that one. Because I didn't want him to. I wanted to keep feeling wanted…

And obviously Jesse couldn't do that to me. He was always oh-so-busy with med school and final exams…

Paul leaned against me and we fell on his bed. I didn't even try to get him off me. Later, at dawn, I got up, picked my clothes and left silently.

Why was I having memories again?

Wasn't the suffering in my past enough?

Did I have to go through all that again… Years later?

It was late at night, Jesse looked at me, shocked.

"You better leave."

"Please, Jesse", I said between sobs.

"Get out", he said. I died.

"I gotta talk to you… Gotta explain…", I said trying to touch his shoulder.

He pushed me away. "Out."

I cried harder, but got to the front door of his apartment.

"I love you", I said quietly under my breathe, opening the door.

He didn't have any words.

I got out and banged the door.

I tried to block out those memories… Tried not remembering that day… The day everything fell apart.

It had been a long time ago… Almost 4 years.

I was over it, now. I was happy. But it couldn't stop the memories from haunting me.

I dig my toes into the sand

The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds across a blue blanket

I lean across the wind, pretend I'm weightless

And in this moment I am happy

Happy…

I wish you were here

I wish you were here

I wish you were here

I DID want someone to be there at that moment. Like that song. But WHO did I want?

I wish you were… here

Then I could see his figure against the moonlight. It was approaching me. I couldn't see his face, but I just felt like it was him. Maybe I just wanted it to be him.

As the man got close his figure got bigger.

I expected to hear him say something… Like 'long time no see', or 'hello, Querida'… But he didn't say anything.

I wish he did. I wish he forgave me. I wish he loved me…

I wish there wasn't the huge distance between us. In New York, where I've been for the last years, or back here in Carmel.

I wish he called me when I left.

I wish we were still the same.

I wish you were here…

He turned to me and I could see his face first the first time. I sighed.

The man said with a harsh voice:

"Is everything okay, ma'am?"

I started crying.

The End

A/N: Ididn't makethe end clear enough, so review and I'll explain better if you need ! It's not Jesse . ( sigh ) .

I wasn't planying this end, but it just kinda occured me at the moment. I'm sorry if it blows the whole story up .

I know it's depressing…

now go, REVIEW !

Nina ;