I'm not quite sure what going on in my head right now. I'm totally with the Kairi and Roxas pairing, and I cant stop writing about them. But as for the themes running through this fic, they're something I haven't really tried before. But it's better sooner rather than later. So here's a new fic that I'm working on whilst doing the others. I now have an unlimited amount of time to write these so I thought why not? Anyway, this fic gets a bit dark in places, so I'm just warning you. But they're nothing really really bad.
Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts or Final Fantasy. They belong to Disney and Square Enix.
XxXxXxXxXxXChapter 1: Let me tell you my story
When people talk about true love, do they really know what they're talking about? I mean, when we think of true love we think about the person we marry and spend the rest of our lives with, but is that really true love? Maybe we just get married for the fear of being alone when we grow old and our lives come to an end. Maybe we only get married because we feel like we have to. The image of the perfect family that has been thrust on society causes us to believe that the only way we can be truly happy is to 'fall in love' we someone, get married, have tonnes of children then die at a old age. But what about true love? Most people now marry for the sake of having that special day where all attention is upon them, they're the only one that matters, to have a day devoted to them. But what about true love? We get married and think that's it, we're with the same person for the rest of our lives and I'll never be able to date again, go out partying…maybe that why one in three marriages end in divorce. We hate the idea of being tied down to one person. But what about true love?
What about finding that one true person that really understands us and honestly wants to spend the rest of his life with you? What about finding the man that wants to wake up to you every morning and watch you sleep? What about finding the person who will stick by you through thick and thin? What about finding your soul mate?
I'm not the best person to ask about beliefs, but if there's one thing I believe in then it's finding the soul mate…my soul mate. I believe that there is a person out there that is meant to be with me. He's my soul mate. He's the one that's perfect for me. He was the one that was perfect for me. He was my soul mate.
One the topic of beliefs, I didn't use to believe in fate and destiny. But then I met him. At the time I didn't know that it was him I was destined to be with. I didn't think he was my soul mate. He was just a friend. But then things changed. And I started to believe in destiny and fate.
This is my story about when I met my soul mate. Cheesy and clique I know, but I'm being 100 serious here. I have to be, because he isn't here now. I lost him. I lost my soul mate. The problem is I didn't realise he was my soul mate until it was too late. He was already gone.
And about true love, it does exist, and I know that better than anyone else. Here's my story…its about love, destiny and finding The One.
XxXxXI lost my parents when I was only 11. I moved in with my aunty and uncle but we never really got on. I missed my parents so much and due to that, I closed up. I became a shell. I didn't let anyone in and I wouldn't open up to anyone.
Life was hard.
I was bullied in school because I didn't follow the social requirements. I didn't dress like I was meant to, I didn't listen to the right music, I didn't go to the right places and I hardly had any friends. I move from school to school until I had attended all the ones in my area.
Shortly before my 14th birthday, I was sent off to live with my 22-year-old cousin, Rikku. She was the only one I opened up to then. She helped me crack open my shell slightly, but I never truly came out.
She sent me to the local school, D.H.S, and that's where I met Selphie. We're still friends today. I still didn't 'fit in' but it was so vast and varied that no one noticed. I was able to be myself, but I still couldn't open up. I told Selphie a few things as she was the first true friend I had ever made, but she didn't know the full story for another 6 years, when I met him.
After I left D.H.S at 16, I went to Southern Destiny College along with Selphie. I had the best time and had experiences I will never forget. But I was still closed in, keeping my inner most feelings inside of me. But no one ever noticed. When I was with a group of people, I would put on a face. They remained oblivious to the pain that still went on inside me. But not Selphie. She always knew when I pretended, but I never knew this until I told her everything.
Then, when I turned 18, I got accepted into C.D.U. I had to move away from Rikku and I was heart broken over it. But she told me to go and be free. I never truly understood what she said until the Fresher's week at the university. Selphie was still with me, thank god, and very quickly we learnt about life at C.D.U: booze, sex, wild parties and the occasional bit of studying. If this is what Rikku meant by being free then I wish I could've stayed locked up for the rest of my degree.
But as me and Selphie got welcomed into the social world of C.D.U, I discovered that it wasn't that bad. I went to a few parties, didn't do the whole sex thing though, but studies where always the priority for me. But the drinking…I wish I had never tried it. It's…addictive. I was still closed up, unwilling to let everything I felt go, even if it did kill me on the inside. But alcohol helped me escape that.
It was towards the end of my second year that it started to get really bad. Every night I would be out drinking and not caring about the consequences. My grades and marks plummeted. I was lucky not to have been kicked out. I just passed my second year. But then, during an 'End of Exams' party with Selphie, my drink was spiked.
I was so careless. I used to get so drunk so quick, not really caring. But that night, when it happened…when the worst thing imaginable happened to me, I made a promise to myself, and in the months after, I became the most sober person on Destiny Island.
If it wasn't for Selphie and Rikku, who moved up shortly after to look after me, I probably would have committed suicide. I seeped deeper and deeper into depression. But they helped save me. They told me that I should still live my life. The fact no one was ever found guilty of it because there was too little evidence made it worse for me to move on. But they still helped me. They got me back on my feet. And I haven't touched a drop of alcohol since.
But they couldn't save me from going back into my shell that I still had. I felt it was my fault when my drink got spiked. I was careless and stupid. I thought that night was all my fault. When I went to bed, and went to sleep, there was nothing to stop the images replaying in my mind: waking up alone in that bed and my clothes all over the place. I lost my trust in the opposite sex and I went quiet and withdrawn. Everything that had gone wrong in my life was my fault: my parent's death, being bullied, getting raped, the drinking, and my shell.
But I told Selphie everything then. All my problems, my feelings, my fears, my hopes and it felt so good to let it all out. Like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, but nothing could erase them.
At the start of my second year, after telling everything to Selphie, I opened up slightly. Selphie believed it would be good for me to make new friends. So I did. I met Namine, Yuna, Yuffie and, the one I am most proud of, Sora. Even though I still had a thing against getting close to males, I felt like I could trust him. I did trust him. I didn't open up to them about my past. I preferred to keep that a closed book, all though they knew about what happened that night.
Then, when I was perfectly happy, he came into my life. The guy who transferred to this top university because he was excelling to far ahead in his old one that the teachers couldn't keep up. I always laughed at him for that. And yes, I may sound emo but I did laugh, especially when I was with him.
When I first saw him, I thought he was gay. I mean, even though I had a thing against guys, no one that good looking and well groomed could be all man. I later learnt about my mistake of course, but that was judging on first impressions.
Anyway, he was Sora's cousin, and looked an awfully lot like him. Tall, light brown hair, deep blue eyes, and I'm not talking about Sora. I don't like Sora in that way, I'm just stressing that seeing as I said they looked identical.
He was…I don't know how to describe him. Perfect doesn't seem good enough. Amazing doesn't do him justice. Even amazing, perfect, fabulous and fantastic all rolled into one wont do it. The time I spent with him will always be in my heart and I can never forget. My heart wont let me. Because not only was he the best thing to ever happen to me, I made the biggest mistake whilst with him. I waited until it was too late to tell him I loved him.
There are many things I regret in my life, that being one of them: that I didn't tell him I loved him. But I'll never regret the time I spent with him, regardless of the ups and downs.
The reason I'm telling you my life story is so that you never make the same mistake that I did. If you love some one, tell them, don't wait and keep it inside because the end might come sooner than expected. If someone makes you feel like a somebody, then tell them. If someone makes you feel like you're on top of the world everyday, then tell them. If they complete your life, tell them. Live for day and don't base promises on tomorrow. I promised myself everyday that tomorrow I would tell him. And I never got the chance to.
So let me tell you of the man who brought a tortured soul out of her shell. A man who helped a lost one find love again. A man who always though of others until the end. A man who rescued a trapped girl from drowning. Let me tell you about the man who made the world a brighter place.
Let me tell you about the man that I fell in love with…and he never knew.
XxXxXxXxXxXSo, what did you think? Read and Review lol. Adios x x x
