TITRE: my heart draws a dream
Title from arc en ciel 's song . I love them
Manga :Yami no matsuei ( descendants of dark ) in progress
Summary: It is time for Hisoka to release himself from Muraki and get his revenge.
CATEGORIE: ANGST/ROMANCE/HORROR HUMOUR TOO
COUPLE (s): Hisoka/tsuzuki as main pairing Muraki/hisoka( non romantically ) Tatsumi/tsuzuki Tatsumi/watari Muraki/Oriya
Feedback: please, but if you don't like it, be constructive , I don't want to read sarcasm or snarks.
Archive: if you want I'm ok
Rating:nc 13
Disclaimer: I don't own them. They're characters belonging to matsushita, yoko, This is a work of a fan, done for no remuneration save the satisfaction of the work.
SPOILERS: UP UNTIL MANGA 12 and then imagination will say , it's after the gensokai arc
Warning : violence, torture, mind 's abuse some gruesome murders. : mention of abuse of a child and rape
AUTHOR'S NOTE : I so wanted to write a fic about yami no matsuei, here it is the prologue. It was a try. I'll see if I can keep up a first chapter after this one. I need to write in english more . Sorry for the grammar's mistake, english is not my first language
Prologue
Hisoka's pov
I hate being such a burden to Tsuzuki. I hate being weak. I hate my 16 years old body. I hate the fact I'm dead and I will never grow older. I hate my empathy. I hate Muraki and my family. There are so many things I hate and so few I love . I think I love tsuzuki and the very emotion I feel when I think about that very fact is scaring me. I think I even hate love . Love always had been a weapon that hurts me
I wonder how I can still manage to remain sane? I fear the day I will become like Muraki. He told me I was like him. I don't want to become like him. But somewhere inside me, I can sense it isn't something impossible to reach: to become a new Muraki. I Have to solve that issue. I have to get my revenge and free myself from his power,our connection,his curse, my curse. I want the power to destroy him, I want to be able to find peace.. Will I ever be happy? Will tsuzuki ever forgert the sadness and the guilt that pushed him to attempt to a suicide a second time??
I don't wanna loose Tsuzuki. I want him to be happy. But I can't be happy with just having him by my side. No, it's not enough. I a m seekening revenge. What will happen when I will have it? Will it be enough? I' m afraid it won't . How do I do to keep myself sane?
"Hisoka, wanna eat some apple pie?" Tsuzuki asks me as I'm looking at the horrendous cherry trees.
I'm not answering. Why is he asking? When he knows damn well I hate sweets.
He pouts and look at me with his puppy dog 'eyes. I sighed.
I think Muraki is my worst enemy but somewhere in my heart I' m even more fearing Tsuzuki The only one who has the power to hurt me to insanity. I let myself falling in love. Why ? When I know what love cost me when I was alive?
Tsuzuki won't hurt me. I know this but still I can't help myself and I'm unable to tell him my feelings.The fear of love is taking over me.
I should trainning and focus on what it's easier : hating Muraki, finding Muraki, killing Muraki.
Now I have kurikara Ryuoh shikigami under my orders. I have the power I needed all along.
TBC
