Burning Bridges
Based on a quite happy song by status quo.
I must warn you, not a happy ending. An AU in fact.
I really never thought it would come to this. I'd always wanted Dean to be here, but now…
I've made my decision and stayed at Stanford….
He won't be here now. He doesn't need me now…
The doctor seems to appear from nowhere. "Are you sure there's no one I can call for you?"
I shake my head. But there's a fight going on in the hallway and it's loud. It hurts my head. But I know who it is. He's always had a sixth sense about me.
Dean appears in the doorway and he's the most wonderful sight I've ever seen.
"Dean…" there's so much I want to tell him, but the cancer has taken me too deeply, too far, faster than anyone thought it could. I want to tell him how much I love him…but I have no strength left in me.
Dean seems to sense my weakness and, without a word, he pulls my weak body into his arms, and silently forgives me.
I know he's suffering…but I can't fight this…anymore than he can…I wanna save him from this…but no matter what I try…I'm just burning my own bridges…..as my own tears burn a way down my face.
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I can't believe this is the end. This can't….be….Dean stares down brokenly.
I should have been here hours, months ago. Why didn't he tell me? Why isn't dad here?
I can feel him letting go and there isn't a damn thing I can do about it…
No Sam!
I can hear him…
Take care Dean… love you…
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This is dedicated to too many absent friends.
