I would lie. That is certain. Lie to be free of this feeling of betrayal. Lie to feel free. Of course, this is not possible. They will never allow this to happen. As it must, they
force me to be true to myself, to them. I can curse them. I can scream and shout for them to leave me. Never will this happen, no. Forever I must swim in self-loathing
and the shadows of my past. Is it too much to ask for a reprieve now? Kami must have forsaken me, because I've spent all my time waiting just for a second chance, a
break to make the mistake disappear.
I feel empty, weightless, only with darkness to surround me. Just maybe, they will let me find peace tonight. Maybe someone will come and fly me away to somewhere.
This is a straight line, hat much I know. I cannot lie, because everywhere I turn, someone takes the chance to break me even more than I have already. I need a
distraction, but they won't give it. These memories of a time gone by, how they torment me so.
I may not be held physically, yet it feels like I am trapped in a never ending circle of hate. Familiar faces torment me in worn out places. Would they hate me if I told them
that I dream of dying? That they are the best I've had all day? Sitting in my bed, watching the rain cloud up my window, making it hard to see and so very gray.
OwO Well, this is just something that I've been toying with over the past month or so. This is a preview, a preparer for the whole story. The themes of this story is dark, I will tell you now.
