DISCLAMIMER: I DO NOT OWN THE TWILIGHT SERIES. STEPHINIE MEYERS DOES AND SHE DID ANY AMAZING JOB WITH HER WORLD OF FANASY.

Chapter 1

Oh why did this have to be my life I never liked attention or people wanting me as there girlfriend or as just a friend not since it was under false pretense's. I hated to have to leave my mother but then again she had a new life of her own to start. Renee, my mom and her new husband Phil need to have time alone plus I knew I made Phil uncomfortable.

"Bella hun you don't have to go." my mother I would miss her so much but this was for her I had to do it.

"Its ok mom I love you but I need to do this." Every time she said she wanted me to stay I had to reassure her that this was what I wanted. Right?

It always seemed that she could see right through me and she was always dead on about it too. I would miss her so much but as long as I was around she was unsafe but I didn't want to think about that, I would be leaving soon enough.

"So what would you like to do before you leave tomorrow?"

I had choose to leave at noon time tomorrow for a plain to Seattle where my dad Charlie would be waiting to take me to forks, Washington where he lived. He was the chief of police there and I missed him a lot he was the only one that was ever able to calm me down and I knew this hurt my mom.

"um… I think all I want to do is just hang around here and then get to bed early. Is that ok?"

"What ever you want to do is fine with me sweetheart ." She was always the one person I could count on besides Charlie they knew my secrete and they always tried to help as much as they could. Phil knew to but it just scared him.

"I think I am going to go finish packing I will see you in the morning mom." I was behind on packing and if I wanted to sleep in tomorrow I would have to get it done tonight.

So I went up stairs to my room. I would miss it. Every little thing from the small bathroom that connected to my room and the light purple paint on my walls to the dressers and closet that were nearly empty now. I started to pack the rest of my things and my favorite books and cd's. I really did hate having to leave my mom but things would be better this way and I knew I was safe with Charlie. So I finished packing leaving out a pair of jeans and a white t-shirt for me to change into when I got up in the morning. It was now eleven and I was starting to get tired. So I got into bed and slowly drifted into a deep sleep.

I didn't know why I was having this dream. I knew it was a dream only because I was ten and we were spending are Christmas vacation in a log cabin up in Birchwood,Wisconsin it was so beautiful there I never wanted to leave. It was my mom and Charlie and I. Of course they were already divorced but I wanted Charlie there so he came for me. I was outside with my mom building a snowman while Charlie was inside decorating. It was right then when I saw my ten year old self catch on fire this dream never scared me but always made me sad. I woke up early that day not being able to sleep but at least it was that dream and not a nightmare. I was always scared that the nightmare would come back.

That's why I had to leave I thought to myself, I was to dangerous. I was a fire starter. I had learned a lot from legends about my kind. Besides the fact that I could catch anything I touched on fire there was other things. Like because of the warmth that flowed off of me, people were attracted to me either it was girls that wanted to be my best friend or guy's that wanted to date me. I could never bring myself to be mean to them because I knew it was not there fault it was my power and I hated it with a passion. Then for some odd reason I seemed stronger then a normal person and my eye sight was stronger and my hearing was sharper too I mean it wasn't that strong but strong enough for me to here the whispers around me. Then there was the fact that I had a perfect memory. Not like normal photographic memory but it was more like anything I saw, did, or learned was permanently burned into my brain. This came in handy for school I was top of my class but I really never cared about that I just wanted a normal education. Probably the weirdest defense I had was that my skin was pale in the legends they mentioned this was a way for people like me not to be noticed easily. Then there was also the fact that when I sang it was like anyone that heard me went into a trance and just would be overly happy it was weird but it was something I had to live with. The one legend that seemed to scare my mom and dad was the one about guy's, if I had ever decided to as they say "Turn up the heat" on any guy around they would become aroused. I used this once on a boy to embarrass him because of what he did to his girlfriend. I remembered it all so clearly. Walking in the hall a couple stood next to my locker and when I approached they stopped making out and he turned to me and said the most infuriating thing anyone one has ever said to me. I remember seeing the girl start crying right after he had said that me and him should ditch her and find a place to be comfortable. I snapped so I turned up the heat on him, he became aroused in the middle of the hall way and then pissed his pants, everyone was laughing at him. That's when I made the statement that I would never go out with someone that dated a friend and even though the girl was upset with him she looked like she would do anything for me and when I called her my friend she never left me alone after that it was like my punishment for embarrassing him, was her. So that's when my mom had encouraged me to take karate classes since there was a lot of anger and self control involved. I was clumsy but somehow when ready to fight I was graceful I didn't really understand this one but of course I just went along with it anyway. I had made it to my black belt last summer and was rewarded with the title of top of the class. Just one more thing to bring attention my way. When I finally decided to look at the clock I only had two hours before my plane was going to take off. So I started to get my luggage and carried it down stairs. My mom and Phil were waiting for me in the kitchen and as soon has I seen her I noticed the tears that were streaming down her face. I couldn't let here see me cry if I did she would be all to willing to try and get me to stay.

"Hi mom." I said with a fake smile across my face hoping that my eyes wouldn't betray me.

She composed herself and began to speak " Hi honey are you rea-" She broke off with another sob.

So I walked forward and placed my arms around her and whispered into her ear. " We will talk every day and I will write and send pictures every chance I get."

She just looked at me like she was the happiest person in the world. I always had the ability to make someone feel better with just one touch. Just another one of the abilities that came along with this curse. I hated to do it because I always thought people should have the right to feel what ever they wanted but if she continued to cry like that there would be no way to stop the tears from coming out of my eyes. Then I decided to answer her question.

"Yes mom I am ready we should be going if I want to be on time."

"Honey can I ask why you wanted an afternoon flight?" This one was going to be an easy answer.

"Yeah mom I chose this time because if I picked an earlier flight kids from school would try and see me off and you know how I feel about scenes." I looked at her and I knew she understood, she always did. I was popular and I hated it I never wanted to be but its just one of those things I couldn't avoid.

So we finished breakfast and were in the car and off to the airport in what seemed like minutes. We had made it through security and everything so quickly everyone seemed to want to let me go first usually I would have protested but I was still holding back the tears for the plane. We had about forty five minutes before my plane would take off but it went by so fast before I knew it I was walking to the door that led to the plane while hearing my mom call out " I love you Bella, please call me when you get there and be safe. I miss you already." That was it. The tear were flowing freely down my face I couldn't let my mom see me like this and I knew if she did she would feel even worse so I moved through the doors and on to the plane. I found my seat near the back. I was seated next to an older woman with tan skin almost the color of orange I was going to look very pale next to this lady but I was grateful for this at least I didn't have to set next to any guy but I had a feeling that I was about to be asked a lot of questions so before she even got the chance I place my headphones from my Ipod into ears and started to listen to my music. I was listening to My Chemical Romance (Teenager) it was one of my favorites but before I could fully get into it I was asleep I didn't even notice I was tired but here I was dreaming of seeing my dad again and the smile he would have on his face. Before I knew it I was being shaken awake by the lady I sat next to. So I pulled out my headphones to ask her why she had waken me when she started to speak. " They said we were going to be landing very shortly I am sorry if I startled you."

"No its alright , thank you." I assured her and gave her a smile. She seemed to melt at my smile and in that moment I felt horrible I really did hate making people react that way around me. I knew it was stupid but I always wished that someone would hate me at least once in my life. I probably could have smacked the woman across the face and she would still just smile at me. Why me I thought why did I have to be cursed like this I would trade anything in the world just to be normal. Then I felt the bumps of the plane landing and with in what seemed like second we were at a complete stop. The voice on the intercom come on and the pilot had said " We are now in Seattle and thank you for choosing American Air have a great evening."

When I finally spotted Charlie he had that big smile on his face that I had been waiting for . I ran up to him and gave him a great big hug.

"Bella its so good to see you I have missed you so much." I could truly tell he meant it.

" I missed you too dad." and I gave him a smile.

"Well lets get going kiddo." and with that we were on are way to his police cruiser and then on are way to forks.

The ride to Charlie's house was filled with a comfortable silence Charlie was the only one that seemed not affected by my abilities I didn't know why but that's probably the reason why he was able to calm me so fast because I could always count on him to treat me like any normal girl.

When we reached his house it was a little familiar I hadn't been here since I was twelve but I would get used to it. We walked inside. Charlie had carried my bags for me I didn't want him to but he refused to let me carry them even though he was struggling and I could have probably carried all of them in one hand with out braking a sweat . When you first walk in the living room is off to the left and the dinning room off to the right and the kitchen was just through the other doorway in the dinning room. The stairs were straight ahead.

"Bella I know you are going to need time to get everything organized so instead of starting school tomorrow you will start on Friday. I already got you a map of the school ground I thought this would bring a little less attention to you, but you are still going to have to report to the main office." He gave me a smile

"Thanks dad." I gave him another big hug and then headed up stairs to my new room for the next two years.

It was small with wooden paneling a nice sized twin bed and two dressers it would do I didn't really have much clothes and I only had a few select books and cd's. If it wasn't for the to big suitcases being so heavy by themselves I was sure Charlie would have never had a problem with them. There was a desk off to the right with what looked like a brand new laptop. It was part of the agreement my mom and dad had come up with so I could e-mail Renee at anytime of the day. When I had thought about it for a second I had almost forgot to call Renee she would get worried so I pulled out my phone and entered my contacts and pressed enter when I scrolled to my mom's number.

"Hello Bella!" of course she would pick up on the first ring.

"Yes mom its me. I just got in and I am unpacking now." I was cut off by here sobs

"Bella I miss you already!" Oh man! What could I do I was to far away to make her feel better.

"I miss you to mom but I have to go, I'm sorry but I am tired and I am going to finish unpacking before I fall asleep." I had to get off the phone with her I couldn't show any sign of regret about coming.

"Alright honey call me tomorrow or write if you like Charlie said he was getting you a computer so you could write anytime you want." I could hear all the disappointment of having to get off the phone with me.

"Yeah he got me one its nice to I will write all the time I love you."

"I love you to honey have a goodnight."

"Goodnight mom." and then I flipped my phone shut and finished unpacking.

I went straight to the bathroom and changed into my pajamas and then called down to my dad. " Dad I am tired I am heading to bed I will see you tomorrow goodnight."

" Goodnight Bella I will see you tomorrow."

I went back into my room and climbed into bed not so sure how fast I would be able to fall asleep. So I picked up a copy of Black Beauty. I loved the classics they always seemed to hold the best stories and for the most part they also seemed to calm me. Before I knew it I was asleep.

Beep. Beep. Beep

Great why did I have to set my alarm for seven, but I do have to get a head start on my day and I did know what I wanted to do, but getting around was not going to be that easy. I headed into the bathroom not really fully up yet so I took a shower I could wait to brush my teeth after breakfast. I never really got the point in why people brushed there teeth first it always made anything you eat or drink taste bad and if you did eat after brushing that would defeat the purpose. So I went downstairs I knew Charlie would be down there even though he was usually gone by six. It was a tradition he would always see me in the morning after I arrived.

"Hey dad." I greeted him with a hug.

"Hey honey how was your first night of sleep."

"It was good dad very comfortable." I knew this was true and there would be no hint of a lie on my face. He just gave me that same smile that I saw when I got off the plane.

"Bella I have a surprise for you."

That's when I remembered the laptop up stairs. "Oh yeah, dad thanks for the laptop its very nice but you didn't need to buy one that expensive." I gave him a very unpleased look. He new how I felt about spending money but of course he just let out a snort and grinned at me.

"Well then you are going to hate me forever when you see my surprise."

I let out a sigh " Dad you know I could never hate you. So what's the surprise." I really didn't want to see it but if it made Charlie happy I would get past it.

"Well Bells, I know you are going to be needing a way around so-" he broke off probably seeing my face. If he actually got me a car I would love it that might have been the one thing in the world I would not fight over.

"Dad you got me a car!" I even think the neighbors could hear my excitement

"Yeah its parked out front it's a 55 Chevy its strong, a little old but I know how you like the classics." Before he could even react I had him in a vise grip hug.

"Bella I need air." was all he was able to gasp out.

"I'm sorry dad I forget sometime how strong I am." I sighed

"Can I go see it." still with just as much excitement and he let out a laugh.

"Yeah hun here is the key." he chucked the big sliver key at me and I caught it.

I ran outside to go see my new truck. I couldn't get over those words. "My new truck." I said them over and over while I stood there, it was perfect. Old yes but I loved it all the same. It was red and looked like if I hit anything with this truck, whatever I hit would be destroyed. I felt this truck would suite me just fine and now that I had I ride I could put my plan into action. So I ran back inside back to the dinning room were Charlie was waiting with a big dopy grin on his face.

"I love it dad!" I was shouting again in excitement.

" I'm glad you do honey." He let out a chuckle.

So I went and grabbed some cereal and sat down next to Charlie. We sat there and both finished are breakfast. Not wanting my dad to leave before I had a chance to talk to him about my plans for today I ran back up stairs and quickly brushed my teeth and ran back down stairs.

"Hey dad do you think since I don't start school till tomorrow that it would be alright if I went to go see Billy."

Billy Black was one of my dads best friend he knew about my secret and he was like a second father to me. Whenever I came up in the summer I would go see him, Rachel and Jacob. They were truly good friends.

"I know Rachel is off at college and Jacob is at school but I would really like to see him." Still saying each word with excitement. But something was off, my dad looked a little sad.

"Bella of course you can go but I need to tell you something about Billy." He broke off. I was guessing he was trying to find the words.

"Its alright dad please just tell me." I pleaded I needed to know.

"Well honey Billy has been in an accident and he no longer has use of his legs it happened last year I didn't know how to tell you but since you were coming I knew I would have to tell you soon. That's actually his truck out there since he doesn't need it anymore." I couldn't believe it I could feel the tears starting to come but then again I felt like I had to be strong I was mad that my dad didn't tell me when it happened but I understood why. If at any moments my feeling started to flare I could lose control and that could have hurt a lot of people. So strangely enough I felt like I had to comfort my dad and now I wanted to see Billy even more.

"Dad its alright I understand but I really need to see him, even more now then I did before I will be home before you get here and dinner will be waiting." I had to go I had to see Billy.

"Ok Bella I will see you when I get home." and with that I was out the door and in my truck. I turned the key in the ignition and the truck roared like thunder and I jumped. "Damn it." Great with that sound there was no hope of getting into the school parking lot without anyone noticing but I couldn't worry about that now, I had to see Billy. I pulled out of the parking space and started to head down to la push. I didn't worry about directions I still remembered my way there like I had gone yesterday.

I was driving down the road entering la push. I looked up at out my windshield noticing the clouds above getting darker. I knew it was going to rain but that was fine with me anything cold was good with me even though everything felt warm to me. Finally I had pulled up in front of the house I knew so well. I had a feeling Charlie was going to call Billy and my thoughts were confirmed when I seen Billy sitting in a wheelchair on his front porch. I stopped the truck and got out quickly. I felt the tears streaming down my face as a ran up the porch steps to give Billy a hug.

"Bella its so good to see you." was all I heard before my arms were around him.

"Billy I am so sorry I didn't know please forgive me. I would been here in a heart beat if I knew." I said the words so fast all I could do was hope he understood.

"aww… Belle please don't cry I know you would have and please don't be mad at Charlie it was my idea not to tell you." I was a little shocked at him but I still remembered the reason behind it.

"Bella you have always had the warmest heart of anyone I know."

" Oh Billy that's only because of this stupid curse and now its even worse since this curse is so bad that I couldn't even know that someone I cared for was hurt." The tears coming even faster. He looked shocked at my words but I knew he knew I was right.

" Bella don't you see yourself clearly enough to know how sweet and kind you really are. I don't think this is a curse but a gift and you my dear are the best person to hold this gift. I know you have a hard time with this but don't you see if anyone else in this world had your gift I am sure that they would exploit it but you try so hard to give people there own feelings and you try not to use your abilities against anyone and if you did then I am sure there is justice behind it." Right there in his word I thought back to the boy I hade use my curse on. I didn't want to think of the other memory that still hurt to think about.

"Thank you but Billy no matter how many time you tell me different this is still a curse. Right now can you feel anything else besides happy and I want the truth." I said with a half smile and Billy gave me the same one back.

"Bella is it really so bad that you make people happy I mean it could be worse."

"Billy someone always seems to get hurt around me this power brings a curse with it and I know that it's not there fault but mine."

"But Bella dear you still haven't answered my question."

I knew he had me if I sad yes it would make me seen mean but if I said no I was admitting defeat.

"You know what Billy it's a yes and no answer , yes because I don't feel right being able to do whatever I want and people being happy about it and no because its nice to see people happy." I wanted to change the subject and fast, Billy knew how to twist people into his views and he was good at it I was sure by the end of the conversation he might actually get me to believe the curse really was a gift.

"So how are Rachel and Jacob. I haven't seen them in a long time. Rachel and I would write all the time but then she got into college and got busy with everything."

"Well Jacob is fine he's at school right now he is going to be very excited to know your back. Rachel on the other hand I also don't know that much about not until she visits for the holiday. Which I know she is going to love to see you again." He smiled warmly at me.

So Billy and I got to talking about all the thing that had happened since and how I was going to have to visit as much as possible. I made a promise on that request. Then I happened to notice the time on the clock it was already one thirty and I had to go.

"Billy it was so good to see you again but you have to do me a favor. This Sunday I am going to come back down can you not tell Jacob I want to surprise him."

"Sure Bella that's a great idea." I gave him another hug and headed out to my truck.

"Bye Billy I will see you on Sunday."

"Goodbye Bella." and with that I was on my way back home. It was nice here. I loved it so much.

I had made it home with less time then it took to get there. That always bugged me how things took longer going somewhere then they did coming back.

So I walked through the front door. I still have other things that needed to be done so I grabbed the map of the school and memorized every classroom and pathway. Then my next mission was to write Renee a letter. I know I had said I was going to call but I had a feeling that she wasn't over me leaving yet so I had to play it safe. So I turned on the lap top and began to write.

Dear mom,

I miss you. I hope you and Phil are having a good time and please remember I didn't leave so you could stay at home. Promise me you will go and have some fun. I also want you to wish Phil good luck I remember tomorrow is his big day. I really do hope you are having a good time and I love you.

Love, Bella

I finished my e-mail and hit send. Now it was just around five. Time to get dinner stared. So since its my first real day back it has to be good so I stood in the kitchen trying to decide what to cook.

I finally decided that some fried chicken and rice with brown gravy sounded just fine. So collecting all of the ingredients I would need I hurried to start dinner.

It was quarter after six when I heard Charlie pull up. I had just finished everything five minutes before and I had just sat down when I heard the door open.

"Hey Bella it sure does smell good in here."

"Thanks dad and I wanted to say thanks again for the map of the school that was very thoughtful of you." I smiled my warm smile knowing that Charlie would not melt at it. That's why I loved him so much. I could just be me.

We eat the rest of are food and Charlie cleared the table and started the dishes.

"Hey Bella I can handle the dishes I am an adult." I let out a small chuckle

"So how was your day with Billy." He looked at me with those same sad eye's as he did before I left this morning.

"It was good. We caught up and I am going over there on Sunday to surprise Jacob. Is that ok?"

"Of course honey." He let out a small sigh

"Dad what's wrong?"

"Nothing Bells, I am a little tried after today is all but I think a good relaxing game would help." He sounded happier about the last part.

"Ok dad well I am going to head up stairs and maybe do some reading or something." I didn't what for a response as I was now up stairs and in my room.

Time had gone by so fast it was now nine and I would have to take a shower first. So I grabbed my pajamas and headed into the bathroom. It only took me fifteen minutes to take a shower cause the water was making me sleepy. So instead of finishing reading Black Beauty I decide to go to bed. I walked out of the bathroom and to the top of the steps.

"Hey dad goodnight."

"Goodnight bells, I will see you tomorrow."