I am a big fan of Chair. But last chapter was too much. Broken Bass new chapter coming hopefully this weekend. Work is driving me crazy.


It does not matter how much you try to convince yourself that you did what you need. No matter how you much you try to justify her reaction as a consequence of all the drama your life can be.

You understand better than her what you did. That is why you so desperately try to share the guilt. She was going to sleep with Jack, yes, but she was going to sleep with him, because of YOU. Again.

Not woman should trade favors for sex. Even prostitutes charge for sex.

But she does it blindly for you. Without a tear, dressed perfectly for the occasion, to help you.

And that makes her unhappy. Makes her, hate herself.

Because even in that scotch numb mind of yours, you can remember how easy is for Blair to hate herself, right?

And now you lie with this Russian pretty girl, whose name you forgot, cause it was never important and tomorrow will only be a fuzzy memory. You lie in her arms cause she is pretty, innocent, and thinks you are pretty awesome and admires you. Doesn't look at you with a pair of big brown eyes full of sadness, full of disappointment…and love.

You always thought Nathaniel was an idiot for the way he treat her.

Seems my friend, you are the idiot here. Jack was right after all.