Format goes as follows: Verse, Description, Verse, Description. Harharhar. Written for my, hopefully yours, pure enjoyment. Ciel's sure going to have a hard time in this one. Lyrics come from Because of You by After School

Sebastian: Miss. SereneSky doesn't own Kuroshitsuji…


I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?

Ciel knelt down besides Sebastian's bloody body, uncaring of his scratched knees rubbing against the cruel cement, a lone tear slipping down his cheek. Sebastian was dead, dead because of him. "Win against Angela." He had foolishly ordered. How could a demon fight against an angel? Sure, Angela was gone, destroyed, but Sebastian too…

Now it became the compass

Of broken love

Ciel clasped Sebastian's hand, now cold and still and lifeless as marble. Exquisite and beautiful even in death. Lying there peacefully, free from everything. How Ciel yearned to disrupt that peace. Then at least, at least…he'll get Sebastian back.

Tears are flowing down
And soaks the dry lips

Tears came quicker, flowing down as Ciel mourned his loss. The frantic drumming of his heart washed out the pitter-patter of the rain falling. His lover, his pawn, his everything…gone. Just like that. Ciel gets to live, while Sebastian dies. The contract is void. Ciel gets to keep his soul. But he doesn't want it.

I've lost everything because of you
I'm speechless, suffocating and lonely

"SEBASTIAN! TAKE MY SOUL! TAKE IT!! IT'S AN ORDER!" Ciel screamed hoarsely, angry at Sebastian now, furious at his betrayal. "WHY AREN'T YOU TAKING IT?" Ciel yelled at the lifeless form besides him. "I HAD MY REVENGE! TAKE IT!" Ciel collapsed, unable to contain his sadness and anger: "Why? Why aren't you taking it? Why did you leave me behind? Why…" Ciel clutched his chest, barely standing the pain.

You've stared at me wordlessly
You've stared at nothing else but me

Noticing Sebastian's eyes were still open, Ciel stared at them. Once a lively, bright and crimson red, it's now dull, devoid of everything. Ciel swept a hand over his eyes, closing them forever. Bent over, no longer able to defend himself from the waves of pain that assaulted him over and over, he cried with all his might, poured his feelings out. His tears fell down, mixing with the rainwater, until it's impossible to tell them apart. Once again, the one he loved had been taken away from him. God? What God. If there really was a God, none of this would have happened. Ciel threw his head back, and laughed bitterly at the grey sky. Mixed in his voice was an amount of pain and sadness and hatred that shouldn't be present in a voice of one still so small.

The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

Unable to cry anymore, exhausted, at his limits, Ciel laid down besides Sebastian, the rain slowly soaking through his clothes. Turning to his side like he has done many times before, he stared wordlessly at Sebastian's perfect profile. Surprising that even though Angela marred his body, his face was still unmarked. Ciel lifted a hand to Sebastian's cheek, caressing it, relearning its every feel. Smoothing a stray piece of hair from Sebastian's forehead, he remembered something…

I miss you… I need you…
Rewind back the time
I want to kiss you again my boy…


"As you wish, Ciel. I will most certainly dispose of Angela." Sebastian turned to leave, and then turned back again. "Give me a good bye kiss, Ciel?"

"No."

"But what if I die in the attempt, bocchan? Must I die without ever taking your sweet lips again?"

"Leave, Sebastian. Carry out your orders now." Ciel said, displeased at his pawn slash lover's cheekiness.

"Yes, my lord." Sebastian was gone, leaving Ciel all alone, wondering why he had started using "my lord" again. Ever since they became lovers, Sebastian had never used it…


"Well, Sebastian, here's your kiss." Ciel smiled sadly, knowing he should have kissed Sebastian before he left. He could have had the soft, warm lips of his alive butler, instead of this one's cold, lifeless ones. Straddling Sebastian, Ciel leaned down, and melded his lips with Sebastian's. How cruel the world was. Leaving the one who wished to die to live…

Can't live without you
Please come back to me
And stay with me

Ciel poured his love for Sebastian into the kiss, conveying the feelings he hadn't have a chance to tell Sebastian before he died. He smiled against Sebastian's lips, knowing surely that he will be punished for his brazen behavior if he was still alive…if he was still alive, which he wasn't. Ciel recoiled, the re-realization driving the knife deeper, twisting it, until the pain flared white-hot in his heart. "Please, Sebastian, come back to me? Please…take my soul so I can follow you everywhere?" Ciel murmured again and again, begging for a miracle.

Sebastian's eyes shot open, revealing irises of a deep, dangerous shade of red.


Damn. I made him live again. AHH I'M TOO SOFT. ): ah well. That was a nice writing experience. I almost cried while imagining Ciel crying. Isn't that weird? :3 Hope you liked it! I don't think I'm very good at conveying emotions. D: R&R please!

~SereneSky

(edit: FINE GUYS. I'll continue it. In return, help me think of compromising situations? :3 )