Authors Note : I don't own H&A or the song that I used in this (which is by The Corrs) This is based around the time that Kirsty and Kane first left the bay. The first chapter is in Kirsty's POV but that may change later. Every chapter will start with a song or poem. This one is the introduction. Please RR; I really apreciate it, thanks a lot!
Chapter One
Time Enough For Tears
Let's read the trees and their Autumn leaves,
As they fall like a dress undone
At the end of Summers, love will find lovers
Who need the shadows of a winter sun
Don't tell me you're leaving we can hide in the evening
It's getting darker than it should
If we read the leaves as they blow in the breeze
Would it stop us now, my love?
Time enough for hard questions
Time enough for all our fears
Time is tougher than we both know yet,
Time enough for tears
The moon is milk and the sky where it's split
Is magic, and we all need to believe, that we can
Wake up in the dream, it's not as hard as it seems
You know its harder to leave
Time enough for being braver
Time enough for all the fears
Time is tougher than we both know yet
Time enough for tears
I heard you say underneath your breaths
Some kind of prayer I heard
You say underneath your breath that you never
want, to feel this way about anybody else
Time enough for hard questions
Time enough for all our fears
Time is tougher than we both know yet
Time enough for tears
Time enough for being braver
Time enough I love this time of year,
Time is tough, its running away from us,
Time enough for tears
Time enough for tears
Time enough for tears
I liked to look out of the window and watch the passing cities. The worlds of nameless people flying past us in an instant. And we don't have to look back. Not if we don't want to. Everything we have is here and now. Our future is marked out in the long road in front of us, we don't care to look at all the details. The tiny pebbles and footprints remain distant and untouched. It's not that we're scared to lean forwards and examine them; we're just caught up in this moment, this feeling, this love. Our love. Since we fell in love our relationship has been surrounded in secrecy. I've always wondered what it would be like for us to be free. I wanted people to look at me and him and just see us for who we are. I wondered what it would be like to live without the silenced anger beneath everyone's words. I wondered what it would be like to shake off the labels that my parents and all the people that know have fastened on us. I wondered what it would be like to escape the endless, squeezing guilt. Everytime I see my sister's face. Everytime I lie to her about where I've been and where I'm going. So we did it. We left.
I didn't leave any note or tell anyone what we were about to do. It was another secret but this time it was a delicious secret. One that was wrapped up in excitement and danger. A wild feeling that my body aches for. It was strange, all those years of family life left behind without an explaination or a single goodbye. Right before we left I kept remembering things. Stupid things like how Jade and I used to make up our own words to the Disney songs and sing them during long car journeys to annoy the crap out of our parents. I remembered how Dani once took me to a football match when Dad was too busy. I must have been about eight at the time and it's one of those childhood memories that doesn't have a single flaw. Everything is shining and golden. She bought me coke and crisps on the way and we joined in with all the silly chants and repeated them all the way home. Mum and Dad got a bit narked because some of them were rude but for once Dani seemed to enjoyed doing something a bit rebellious, she sang those songs louder than me. I remembered how every night without fail Mum and Dad used to tuck Jade and I up in our beds and whisper "Sweet dreams, see you tomorrow." I remember breathing in their smells, feeling comfortable and secure. I didn't cry but something inside of me felt broken. I knew I was leaving behind these childish things forever.
Now, in the car with him, I have no regret, no longings for home, nothing but danger and excitement, nothing but an endless love for him. I want to make this moment last forever. A moment when it's just me and him, unflawed and golden like in those memories I had so quickly walked away from. Blue eyes, they look at me and speak so many things, endless road with so many twists and turns, breathing in his breath, sharing in his dreams. Dani, Mum, Dad, Jade... everything can wait. This is what I have been waiting for my whole life. This limitless feeling, this unrestricted thinking, this moment. There'll be time enough for worrying and planning. There'll be time enough for tears.
