Summary: How will a choice, that Lexa takes after Mount Weather, affect her when she sees Clarke again? Takes place after 3x2. I imagine Nina to be Nathalia Ramos.

Disclaimer: I don't own the 100, I just own Nina, Jaidyn, and some other OCs


"I'm sorry it had to be this way," Lexa says as she removes Clarke's gag from her mouth, "I had to ensure Wanheda didn't fall into the hands of the Ice Queen."
"War is brewing Clarke, I need you." The last three words cause Clarke to spit in Lexa's face. Lexa knows she should have expected something like this to occur, but she still had hope that Clarke would understand. She barely even registers what Clarke is yelling at her as she is being dragged away, too focused on keeping herself calm. She can feel her blood start to boil and her eyes starting to change. She's angry but not at Clarke, at herself. She wipes her face and goes to the balcony.

Her anger soon turns to sadness. She stares out to the surrounding woods, trying to reign in her emotions, knowing how easy it would be to snap. She has no one to blame but herself. Clarke has every right to hate her, but she doesn't know the full story. Sadly she'll never know it, it's a secret she'll take to the grave. She's suddenly aware of someone behind her, but she doesn't have to turn around to know it is Nina. "Are you okay?" she asks and Lexa just sighs and shakes her head no. Nina knows how hurt she is if she doesn't even try to hide it, though it might be because it's her who had asked. Lexa had always been open with her, at least up until they both fell in love with Costia, but after her death they had managed to bury their differences and had mended their relationship. A relationship that ran deeper than that of friends but in no way romantic. It was why she had made Lexa the offer, because she knew that, out of all the commanders she had served next to, nobody had shown they could handle the change, none but Lexa. Nina reached into her pocket and pulled out a flask and handed it to Lexa. Lexa silently drinks trying to ignore that she actually likes the metallic taste.

"How much did you hear?" She asks when she finishes the contents of the flask before handing it back to Nina. "Enough to know that you would be trying to resist the urge to bite someone, and also kill Roan." She responds. "He would deserve it." Lexa bites back. Nina nods in agreement but knows not to say anything so that Lexa can get all the anger and sadness out. "He shouldn't have hurt her, that was my only real request! She shouldn't have had to leave her camp at all! If I had just gone through with the plan -" she's cut off by Nina putting a hand on her shoulder. It's that small effort of comfort that makes her finally admit what has been haunting her for the past 3 months. "If I hadn't left her, maybe I wouldn't have lost her." "But you had to, Lexa, you know this. You know what would have happened. I think we both know you would rather her hate you than be dead, even if it's killing you inside." Nina says knowing that even if Lexa know this is true, she still blames herself. Nina turns Lexa to face her and grabs her neck to look into her eyes. "You need more blood. Your emotions are making it harder to control. I'm surprised you didn't at least have your eyes change in front of Clarke." As she finishes saying this, she notices Lexa's eyes on her neck and knows she was right. "I know, but I'm trying not to rely on too much blood. I don't want to become a ripper." Lexa says still staring at Nina's neck. Nina steps closer to her and turns her head to expose more of her neck. "You won't, I'll make sure of it. I would never have turned you if I thought there was even a chance that you would hurt someone. Plus the body needs more blood when it's under a lot of stress. Just drink some of my blood, I know you can control it." Lexa nods and grabs Nina's shoulders and feels her eyes turn a deep red as her fangs come out. Nina turns her head and Lexa bites down causing Nina to groan and grip onto Lexa's hips. They stayed like this for another minute or two, before someone clearing their throat drew their attention.

"Sorry to interrupt, heda, but I need to know what I should do with the skaikru people about azgeda?" Indra ask as they separate. "Tell them to keep an eye out on their borders and to make sure they always have weapons. Sadly they are not yet a part of the coalition, but if I can manage to convince Clarke to become the thirteenth clan to follow me, I will be able to send aid. However, you can imagine it will take awhile." Lexa says after she cleans her mouth of Nina's blood. Indra nods before turning to address Nina. "Praefector, Kol is wondering if he can take Scott with us back to TonDC, to help us prepare the skaikru for winter?" Nina considers this before nodding and saying, "Of course just as long as they take enough blood to last them awhile. I don't want to risk the skaikru finding out about us." "Yes, Praefector. We shall leave within a marks time, I wish to arrive before dark." Indra nods before bowing slightly and leaving. Nina turns and asks Lexa, "Is she the only one who knows that you have turned?" Lexa nods and answers, "Yes. I do not want my people to think I will change around them and stop caring now that I am immortal. Indra was there, she knows why I accepted your offer. She knows I will not fail my people and I do trust my other generals, but none of them will fully understand like her."

"Okay. Now lets get you drunk, you need it." Nina says while leading Lexa out of the throne room. Lexa just shakes her head with a smile tugging the corner of her lips. I don't know what I would do without Nina, especially after Costia, but only I can forgive myself for what I did to Clarke. Lexa sigh at the thought. She can never know why I did it. She truly would never forgive me then. Nina notices Lexa is lost in thought and shakes her head in defeat knowing that she can't do anything to help Lexa out with her demons, only Lexa can do that for herself.


When they get to Nina's floor, she leads Lexa to the bar she has for specifically vampires. She had the bar built so that if they got rowdy they didn't hurt any humans. She is the oldest vampire left since most were killed off a couple of years after the bombs. They were hunted and killed by the surviving human race because so many people were killed and there was an even bigger chance of them being killed for their blood. This caused the vampires to look for other food sources until they had to start drinking other vampire's blood. Once they started they noticed that it gave them a lot more strength and enhanced their abilities more than human blood ever did. Soon they kept a record of how much blood each of them gave and set a schedule so that they wouldn't drain anyone or cause more harm than good. Sadly not everyone followed the schedule and Nina, being the oldest and strongest, had to kill them and ensure none of the remaining vampires didn't go rogue. There are only about 50 of them left, and like the grounders, had elected Nina to lead them and protect them. The 50 of them are spread throughout the clans, except for the ice nation, and all report back to her and Lexa. The reason that there were no vampires within the Ice Nation is because Nina had always stood and led beside the commander and all of the commanders had wanted peace, but the Ice Nation was never reliable. This caused Nina to not allow them into the Ice Nation. Since Nina has stood by and lead next to the very first commander, she is the one who leads the people until the next commander is called. When the next commander is called, she helps them learn what they should do and is known as the Adviser, or Praefector. She has seen the world evolve since the 1920s. She has also been very selective of who should be turned and makes sure that none of the vampires accidentally turn someone. She also makes sure that all of them know Spanish so that if they do need to keep something a secret they can be sure no one will listen in. The only exception to this is that Nina has taught every Commander Spanish incase they suspect someone is eavesdropping.

"Hey, look who joined the party!" Jaidyn says as she brings up two glasses of alcohol. Jaidyn is a close friend of Lexa's because she never really lets her put up her walls completely. They had connected the moment they met, and while they have had sex, it was never more than just sex. Jaidyn is also the one who was assigned to teach Lexa how to control her powers and urges and gave her the tattoo that will protect her from the sun. Because of this she knows that right now Lexa needs to forget whatever is on her mind and what better way to do that than drink and (maybe) have sex.

After finishing their drinks, Nina noticed that Lexa was still stiff. "Relájate. We'll make sure nothing happens to you and that you don't hurt anyone. I know that's your biggest fear of drinking, but you'll be fine." Lexa nods and tries to relax.


When Lexa wakes up, she notices that she is not alone in bed. I'm also naked. Great just Great. She looks over and sees that Jaidyn is the one who she slept with, though she really shouldn't be surprised since it almost always is her that she ends up in bed with. She knows it's because no matter how many times they do end up together there is no chance that feelings other than lust and comfort will ever arise from it.

After she gets dressed again, she tries to quietly get out of the room. Sadly when she opens her door she sees one of her guards walking towards her, so she quickly slams the door close and hopes Jaidyn stays in there until she leaves. She isn't ashamed about sleeping with Jaidyn, but she knows that some of her guards don't trust the vampires and doesn't want to draw any suspicion towards her connection to them. "Heda, one of the generals wants to know what to do with Wanheda. We have her in guarded a tent like you asked, but she isn't being the most cooperative." he says. Lexa thinks this over before replying, "Take her to one of the rooms and tell her that I'll see her when she wants, but make sure nothing happens to her." Hearing the warning in her voice he quickly nods and runs off to do as she say.

"You do know you'll probably be waiting an eternity if you let her decide when you two will speak." Nina says as she walks up next to her. Before Lexa can answer, Jaidyn opens the door and replies for her, "Than it's a good thing she has all the time in the world." Nina smirks at the fact that she slept with Jaidyn again but sobers slightly with Lexa's answer.

"Sadly her people do not."


So this is my first chapter, hope you liked it. I'll probably update after tomorrow's episode. Tell me what you guys think so far.

Translation:
relájate- relax

Praefector- Latin for Commander