He was in the corner of the lobby...

I was coming out of the hospital... It was cold outside. It just recently snowed. I see people skating, the whole parking lot froze over. I was with Hyun Seung and my bestfriend earlier but they had to leave. Now, I'm alone. I got myself ready to venture into the cold.

I put my hood up and pulled the strings so my ears won't get cold. I saw the other members on the corner of my eye and HE was there with them. They all had coat and gloves on. They're worried. HE's worried. No. Snap out of it. You can't let him get to you. I stole a glance. I turned away. I saw the other members push him towards me. He was looking at me. I don't want to talk to him. Not yet. I quickly stepped outside. I felt the cold wind burst onto face. It was below freezing. I felt the ice beneath my tennis shoes crackle. I know I'm going to slip one way or the other, but I just kept going.

I don't want to deal with him just yet. "Hey," I heard him say. I ignored him and kept going. "Hi," he walked beside me. I still didn't acknowledge him. I felt his hand accidentally bump into mine. I quickly put my hands in my hoodie pocket to avoid that happening again.

I started walking faster. It's dangerous, especially in this newly frozen concrete. I slipped. He caught my arm and he placed his other hand on my waist to steady me.

"Whoa, easy there," He said with a smile, "I don't want you back to the hospital right after you got out."

Genuine smile. He looks so good. No! You can't be thinking that! He let go of my arm and waist. I wish he hadn't. I hated myself after that thought.

I continued walking. He still followed me. Why is he doing this? WHY IS HE FOLLOWING ME? Why is he being nice to me? I thought he hated me. I looked up at him. He was staring up at the clouds. He looked deep in thought. I wonder where his mind is wandering off to. He turned his head towards me. I quickly looked away. I felt a sudden burst of warmth on my cheeks. Damn, that felt good. I could feel my cheeks again. I never thought that I'd ever be thankful for blushing. Crap, I turn really read when I blush.He'll notice. My hoodie didn't do a great job of covering my cheeks, he will still see it. I quickly put my hands to my cheeks.

Too late. He already noticed. He took his gloves off, grabbed my hands, put them on mine, and shoved my hands to his oversized pocket. I tried to get my hands out of his grip but he didn't let go of my hand. Ah, so warm. NO! my brain shouted, you can't do this to yourself again. He squeezed my hand and let go. I pulled my hands free and put them back in my pocket.

"What do you think you're do—?" I stopped mid-sentence. He placed both his hands on my cheeks. Man! That feels so good. So warm.

"Hey," his voice sounded sincere. No, don't look at him. Don't look him in the eyes. I looked up. Big mistake. He was so close to me. Our eyes connected immediately. They looked so happy. His eyes we're twinkling. Smiling, like he remembered an old joke we shared a long time ago. Don't get sucked in again. You would hate yourself later on. My brain sounded reasonable.

I took his hands off of my face. Ah! The cold. The warmth is gone again.Don't think about it, you can deal with the cold. I saw his eyes flash with hurt, then sadness. I started to tear up. No, I need to get away from him. I started running. I don't care if I slip. I don't want him to get to me again.

"Hey!" He shouted.

I didn't turn back I just kept running. Tears began to fill my eyes and I can barely see where I'm running to. I tripped. I heard him shout my voice again. And everything went black.

To be continued(?)