She remembered all those moments in her life when he always made her feel important.
Whenever she felt weak, he told her it was alright.
Whenever she felt alone, he was there to let her know he was always there for her.
Whenever she felt she was going to break down, he held her until the moment was over.
But whenever she felt like crying, he told her she was born to be strong. That she was a coward to even to think about crying, that the flames on her arm meant that she was powerful and that she could overcome even the greatest fears of all.
She always listened to him.
When Al decided to finish his life.
When her father was shot.
When her mother took off for the heavens.
When she killed Will to save her own life.
When she saw the life sucked right of the whole Abnegation sector.
When Marlene became a victim of the Erutide's ruthlessness.
When Uriah became nothing but a piece of human flesh.
So much guilt, so much remorse, and so many regrets.
And it always hurt twice as much as the previous ones.
She never cried, always listened to his advice, and kept herself strong.
But now, when her mother was calling her, asking her, to take off with her towards the unknown, she couldn't help it. Couldn't help but sigh in relief when tears that were welling in her eyes for so long, finally pooled out.
She cried. Cried for all her loss, cried on how she couldn't save the ones she loved so much, cried about how she had so much to do but had such little time, cried on how she couldn't even avenge Tobias properly...
Tobias
How could she forget?! She couldn't leave this world yet, how would Tobias live without her. She had promised him, that she wouldn't betray his trust ever again. She couldn't give up on him like that! Finally, when things were somewhat fine between the two of them.
She tried to pull away from her mother's grasp, and realized that it was too late, she was already slipping away. Her battered and bruised hand was no longer in her mother's beautiful long fingers.
She saw her broken and bloodied body under her, as she floated away. Up, into the air, where she could see the whole compound as well as everything inside the fence.
From far away she saw a jeep, only recognizable by the trail of smoke it left behind. Tobias was in there, she could sense it, by quickening in her heart's pace.
Then once more, realization dawned on her, she was moving towards him. Up close, she called out to him, screamed his name, wishing he would look at her, just once.
One last time, she wanted to explain to him, one last time she wanted him to look at her through his dark eyes, one last she wanted him to tell her, he couldn't live without her.
But there was nothing but silence.
She had heard that the last wishes of a dying person are always fulfilled. So last time before she left forever and a warm blanket of light wrapped itself around her, she wished that Caleb kept his promise and told Tobias what she had said before giving herself up.
"Tell him I didn't want to leave him."
