Author's Note: This is where I tell all of you awesome readers what is going to happen :D This first chapter is a song fic about Ruby. The song used is I Am Machine by Three Days Grace. *Warning could be slight triggering*

Ruby was laying in bed, quietly listening to her teammates breathe in their sleep. She sighed, it was the same every night. She would only get a few hours of sleep, always being the first to go to bed but being the last to give in to the darkness she so desperately needed. Its been this way ever since her mother died. She dug her nails into her arm, trying to feel some kind of pain, but her whole body was numb.

Here's to being human

All the pain and suffering

There's beauty in the bleeding

At least you feel something

She drew her hand away, bright red blood underneath her nails. Small red crescent moons lined along her arm that she always hid under her normal uniform. She didn't want the others to see how fragile and messed up she really was.

I wish I knew what it was like

To care enough to carry on

I wish I knew what it was like

To find a place where I belong, but

She clenched her teeth and squeezed her eyes shut, trying to not let her tears fall from her eyes. She opened them after drawing a shuddering breath to calm herself.

I am machine

I never sleep

I keep my eyes wide open

I am machine

A part of me

Wishes I could just feel something

I am machine

I never sleep

Until I fix what's broken

I am machine

A part of me

Wishes I could just feel something

She could never fix what broke her. Her mother leaving her broke her heart in two. It couldn't nor would be fixed. Friends and family fill the hole in her chest, but once she is left alone, the hole comes back.

Here's to being human

Taking it for granted

The highs and lows of living

To getting second chances

Ruby had survived countless Grimm attacks. Perhaps that was good karma for losing one person who was precious to her. But dying would give her a break; a chance to see her mother again. Dying wouldn't hurt her, only the ones who were close to her. Hopefully if she does die, they won't slowly fall apart like she did.

I wish I knew what it was like

To care about what's right or wrong

I wish someone could help me find

Find a place where I belong, but

She followed the rules most of the time, sure, but whenever she did break them, she never cared. Ruby felt nothing anymore. She laughed at things that were funny, but it was always fake. She sighed again, releasing the air in a hiss through her teeth.

I am machine

I never sleep

I keep my eyes wide open

I am machine

A part of me

Wishes I could just feel something

I am machine

I never sleep

Until I fix what's broken

I am machine

A part of me

Wishes I could just feel something

She dug her nails into her arm again, this time in a different spot. She still felt no pain. It bothered her, the way her body felt numb.

It wasn't supposed to be this way

We were meant to feel the pain

I don't like what I am becoming

Wish I could just feel something

Once again, she removed her nails from her arm, blood on her fingers and beading on the crescent scratches. Finally, she let her tears spill over, silently crying as she lay on her bed hanging in the air by ropes.

I am machine

I never sleep

I keep my eyes wide open

I am machine

A part of me

Wishes I could just feel something

I am machine

I never sleep

Until I fix what's broken

I am machine

A part of me

Wishes I could just feel something