It's not that I don't love Harry... I do. He's the love of my life without a doubt. I could never feel the same way about another person... it's just, how can I put this properly? Harry's almost too much of a nice guy.

We've been dating for a year and a half and all we've ever done is kissed, and not even a full on make-out. Just pecks. I need to be taken charge of. I want someone to just take me and fuck me and not give a damn about anything else.

That's what Draco does for me. It's just sex, no strings attached. I don't even like Draco. In fact, I kind of despise him. He's not very nice. He's smug and arrogant and just a pain in the ass... but he knows just what I want. We don't "make love" or even "sleep together." We fuck. It's exciting. He just throws me down, rips off my clothes, and plows into me.

I don't know how it started... the first time it was late at night and I was wandering around the school... frustrated about my relationship. I ran into him and I don't know what came over me... we were just arguing and fighting and screaming and I just grabbed him and kissed him. That's right. I kissed him. It was hot and savage and hungry and satisfying. He just pushed me onto the floor, right there in the middle of the hallway and screwed me. That's how I lost my virginity.

Sure, I know it's wrong. But I have needs and Harry? Well Harry's just a good ol' boy and probably won't do anything more than kiss me until we're married. And we'll make love. But we won't fuck... and that's what I want. I like it rough. I like being ordered around and I like to scream. I'm a big screamer.

We like to do it in different places. My bed, his bed, the library, classrooms, hallways, stairwells, bathrooms, broom closets, the Quidditch pitch, the Great Hall, you name it and we've done it there.

It's a simple arrangement. He satisfies me and I satisfy him. He likes to bite and be bitten. He likes me to tie my hands above my head. I do it for him. It kind of turns me on too. It really excites him if I don't wear any underwear. I also think he likes that he's doing a mudblood...