~I do not own The Outsiders~
"I am a question to the world,
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment that's held in your arms.
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway…
You don't know me,
And I'll never be what you want me to be."
He opens the door, there are small children outside dressed in funny looking costumes. One of them, a boy dressed as a Vampire, looks up at the person who opened the door extending his small arms holding his small bag that already contained sweets inside. A girl that looked about 7 was dressed as a ballerina shyly extended hers as well, "Trick r Treat sir." They said excitedly.
Smiling, the teen grabs some candy from a bowl he already prepared that was right beside him dropping them into the bag of the children who thanked him running to their parents to knock on another door. As he closed the door somebody squeezed his sides making him jump. Laughter filled the house, the teen scowled rubbing his sides saying, "Ha ha ha very funny Twobit."
"Shoulda seen your face Pone!" Twobit laughed nudging Steve who was next to him on the couch cracking up.
"Yeah, sure made my night!"
Sodapop pursed his lips trying to contain in his laughter knowing Ponyboy would get mad, his brother rolled his eyes going into the kitchen for a glass of water. Twobit smirked at Sodapop's face until he broke ou. Pony sighed, I knew he couldn't do it. The radio was turned on with The Rolling Stones as the background music. Darry was working late hours for extra cash. He needed to save up for something very important. College. No not for himself but for his youngest sibling. This was his last year of high school, it was supposed to be a happy thing for Ponyboy until Darry turned into a more stricter person...
"Hey Pone! You coming with us or not?!" Soda asked getting his coat from his room. Since Steve and Soda were named managers at the DX taking charge of the whole business, they didn't really have to show up a lot. Only make sure the employees worked hard and that the money was handled well.
Steve groaned, "We ain't gonna take the kid Trick r Treating are we?"
"Not without costumes we ain't." Soda joked.
Twobit snickered, "Steve already has his mask on. Oh wait, that's your face, sorry."
Pony laughed this time plopping himself on the couch, Steve gave Twobit a dirty look pushing him. Soda chuckled opening the door to leave. Twobit rushed outside with Steve behind his trail wanting to give him a good swing to the face for that awful joke. Soda asked again, "So Pone? Don't ya wanna see the whole Halloween fun outside? Maybe scare the living daylights out of the pipsquicks?"
"Naah, it's allright, I'll stay. You go ahead."
Twobit yelled from outside, "C'mon Pony! With Steve's gorilla face we can scare anyone!"
"Why you son of a-"
Pony shrugged, "It's fine really."
Soda hesitated for some seconds, "Ok then...Tell Darry I'll come home soon." He didn't have a curfew anymore, he is almost nineteen.
The door closed, Ponyboy laid on the couch positioning himself in a comfortable spot with his arms folded behind his head. Staring up the ceiling, he thought of why he didn't accept going with them. This wasn't the first time though that he said no to an invitation. Lots of times his brother of friends from school invited him to parties, hang outs or places like that. It wasn't that he disliked them, it was just that he didn't feel like it. Ever since Johnny and Dally died something changed with him. Hanging out just wasn't the same. He'd rather stay at home to read books, draw many beautiful things that he imagined or simply work on school. The friends that he had weren't a lot. The gang even made fun of him thinking he was some sort of geek.
"Get our more Pone! You don't even got a girlfriend! I myself got laid at the age of-"
"Shut it Twobit." Darry growled.
Steve sorted, "I think he gets more horny by doing homework than looking at girls."
Darry had given him a punch to the arm after that inappropriate comment, Pony felt embarrassed.
Nobody really got his point of view. They always said how Pony was different and acting strange at his age. Get a life kid, you're already 16 and haven't had a girl. What's up with you? Steve had harshly said to Pone one day. The only response he got was a strong punch to the face causing a black bruise. Before it even got into a serious fight, Soda and Twobit separated them. Afterwards, each apologized not because they really meant it but for the sake of Soda. That just made their relationship as friends even worse.
Ponyboy bit the inside of his cheek still deep in thought. College. Going to college was just around the corner. Almost every day since he started his last year of high school Darry would remind him of it. "You have to keep your grades up Pony." "You have to keep your head in the game got it?" "Did you look up any college information yet?" "Pony, homework!" Ponyboy was tired of all that, the pressure was doing nothing positive on him. It only made him want to forget everything about it. Even with good grades Darry expected more out of him. "A 'B' on your pop quiz? Mmm study harder." "Remember, A's are very significant when you get in college." He was beginning to go back to the Darry he used to be when Pony was 14 although both didn't fight as much...yet. Soda made it clear that it wasn't healthy for them to fight like that. In a silent promise, Darry and Pony worked their brotherly relationship to make it better. Although this year seemed that the promise was beginning to break.
The times he did go out Darry would get some what mad complaining, leading into an argument with Ponyboy. "Did you do everything you were told?" "Homework Pone!" "Do you really want to grow up like us? Working like there's no tomorrow" It was obvious that Darry was kind of projecting himself on Pony in a way. Taking custody of his brothers destroyed his chances of going to college so he saw himself in Ponyboy. Soda dropped out of school, so that left the youngest Curtis. Which is why Darry is acting all dictator on me. He can say all he wants but I ain't him.
A knock on the door snapped him out of his mind, more trick r treaters. Pony happily gave them the remaining candy, memories of Pony doing this with his parents popped into his head. Awe Mom...Dad...
Finally, around eleven at night, Pony decided it was time for bed. Darry hadn't showed up yet. He had a lot of work, luckily it wasn't always roofing houses. Now it was paper work. He had been promoted some time ago for his hard labor. That was something excellent for the family.
Inside his room with all lights turned off, Pony sat on the edge staring at the ground. A couple weeks ago he wanted to sleep in his own room. The nightmares had disappeared so he thought sleeping with Soda wasn't necessary anymore. Sodapop took it hard realizing his brother didn't need him. Darry said it was fine. Then and now Pony would sleep next to Soda feeling a bit lonely.
Alone, his eyes gazed out the small window in his room into the stars twinkling. The feelings of stress and anxiousness filled him a lot lately. Something needed change. He felt so out of place with everyone and everything.
The moon shone brightly illuminating everything inside his room, even the copy of Gone with the wind that was laid on his desk untouched.
"If only you were here Johnny...If only..."
(Sorry for any grammar mistakes)
I hope you enjoyed the first chapter. I'm still here is a song by JOHNNY RZEZNIK. This fan fiction will be based on it. Thank you for reading. (:
