Influence
'I killed Abraham and Myers, I killed them. Why can't Thor see that killing me is best ? It's too late, it is far too late. I killed one of my loves and one of our friends, Hellboy will never forgive me. I don't deserve it. Why won't Thor just kill me ? At least, I could apologize to them then.'
Loki was briefly lifted from the grief by disbelief as Hellboy called, "Eh, you, Blondie, move away from Green and nobody gets hurt."
'Is he at least here to give me what I want ? Tell me he is. Whatever consequence he wants I swear I'll do it.'
His eyes moved from Thor to the red-skinned, beige-duster clad demon. Hellboy had the giant Samaritan gun pointed at his brother and jumped down from the platform. He broke into full tears as he saw Abraham stood behind the demon. The blue-skinned, grey-striped fish-man was alive and his thoughts kept repeating it in joy.
Hellboy's tail twitched and the right hand of stone clenched as Thor got up. Thor asked, "Who are you and what do you want with Loki ? Did you help him to plan this ?" The blond gestured around them with Mjolnir to the Chitauri and general destruction.
Abraham worriedly exclaimed, "Loki !" before he rushed past Thor. Below the breathing-apparatus Abraham's neck gills would be rippling as the bald man crouched beside him, a webbed and clawed hand gently brushed away his tears. When his second psychic analysis finished those dark-blue/grey eyes were still filled with horrified understanding as their vertical eyelids blinked.
Loki whispered, "I'm sorry, Abraham, I'm so sorry. If I had control...I-I never would have killed him or tried to do so to you, never."
It elicited a short nod from his first love and the man agreed, "I know, but you did not have a choice in killing Myers. Despite Thanos' influence you still managed to have take a small amount of control and keep yourself from killing me. Even now you are still you, use that will to fight his influence and help us."
Instinctively, he'd flinched at that name, that terrible name which he never wanted to hear again. It brought back far too many horrible memories all that death, all those pleas for mercy that still echoed in his ears. Both the Other and he would know, but how else could he make up for what he had done to Meyers, those people ? There was no other way.
Took a shuddering breath before replying, "I will try, but I can make no promises."
Seconds later, Abraham helped him up and the Other's mocking laughter in his mind. Death would find him. Death would kill Mother, Abraham, Hellboy and Thor for his betrayal and he would be alone. Left to curse himself for it until madness descended fully upon him once again. Not even the madness would let him escape for long.
Hellboy shook his head, "We didn't help him with this...alien invasion stuff, Blondie, but we were in the neighbourhood and decided to help. I'm Hellboy and that's Abe Sapien, we're...uh, Blue, what exactly are we to Loki ?"
"We are Loki's on-again-off-again lovers, Red."
At those words Thor's face went from confusion to disbelief followed by disgust then back to confusion again.
From the building on the other side of the street Barton called, "Thor, what's happening ?"
"We have more allies, Hawkeye."
Spun on his heel and fired an energy bolt at the nearest Chitauri as the Samaritan took out the one on the chariot behind it. Before the first silver and amethyst chariot could fall he leaped on it and Abraham followed.
The fish-man stated, "I will fly it, you can use that...what is that exactly - a spear or something else ?"
"I know not, but it will be quite useful to us."
A sigh of, "If only I had some time to examine it." before Abraham spun the chariot around.
One of the Chitauri slammed into them while he raised the spear and sliced through another chariot which had attempted to go above them. Hellboy leaped from the building almost falling off their chariot as he landed and nearly overbalancing it. The chariot settled before Hellboy punched the Chitauri that had fallen off the one above them that was now trying to stab Abraham. With a shrill screech that Chitauri fell off the back.
The demon quipped, "That was one ugly sonouvabitch, not even a mother could love that."
It made him answer, "I think you are right, Red."
"Well, that explains a lot don't it ? Eh, eh, that's what you take offense to !" Another of the Chitauri had landed on Hellboy's back and was trying to choke him. The stone hand rose, grabbed the Chitauri and pulled it off. As he and Abraham moved to the sides their love started slamming it face-first into the chariot's steering bar. "Go say hello to Mommy for me, Ugly."
Memories of his torture and that agony lashed through his body again, assaulting his mind as a scream ripped its way out of his throat. 'Stop, stop ! He wants me to retreat again, so he can kill them. No, I can't, I can't...but it hurts ! No, no, no, go away, go away.'
His pathetic attempt at resolve failed and it was equal to an unceremonious shoving into a tiny box with a slitted window. The ability to see and, very dimly, think remained, but he was not able to control what happened. Mentally, he cringed away from the memories of everything that had gone wrong since the Bifrost was destroyed, blocking it all away. If he could have he would have closed his eyes or turned away as his body lunged at Abraham with the spear posed to pierce Abraham's side.
Relief filled him when Hellboy's tail wrapped around his arm jerking the spear from his body's grip; the stone handed arm pulled him back against the hard-muscled chest as Hellboy kicked the spear into open air. "Hey, hey, Green, can you hear me ?"
Unbidden struggling and thrashing before furious words left his lips, "Foolish little Anung un Rama. Do you think that this event is without your father's influence ? You cannot escape, no matter how hard you try, eventually, you will fail."
Hellboy's response ? A snarled, "I don't wanna talk to you, Asshole, so shut up." That tail stroked his arm as the demon called him by his first Midgard given nickname. "Boy band, can you hear me ? C'mon say something nice for Abe."
All the while Abraham was switching between flying/maneuvering the chariot, using the energy cannon and glancing worriedly at them. Romanov had also commandeered one. She came up beside them and stared as his body continued to slam his head into Hellboy's nose before she disappeared.
Thanos laughed, "You know he fought so hard to resist me for you two. Especially, he didn't want to disappoint you, Anung un Rama, if only he were not so weak he might have actually succeeded."
Disoriented as Thanos briefly relinquished control he blurted, "Your head isn't hard enough ! Throw me at something, do it. I'll throw all your damned cats in a tub filled with scalding water if you don't !"
'If I get him, someone, mad enough they have to do it.'
Shoved again into the box, "Even if you do manage to free him from my influence until I find him again, he's a pathetic gibbering wreck. You will never have him back whole, he belongs to me now."
"Whoever you are, Mr. you're one sick and twisted freak 'n I'm gonna enjoy this."
A blur of smoke, suddenly falling chariots and the approaching street filled his vision while screams mixed with wind rushed in his ears after his body met open air. Glass cut his cheek just before he slammed into the street. Only this once was the agony lovely as he felt the connection shatter. Laid in the impact crater and half-delirious, surely more so, he broke into a fit of hysterical giggles. Not even that his nose was also broken, meaning breathing was temporarily painful, stopped him.
Rogers whispered, "I don't see a difference, he's still crazy."
Romanov replied, "You didn't see just barely. Now that was crazy, it was like something out of The Exorcist. There really was something controlling him exactly how he did to Clint."
"I don't know what that means."
Thor crouched down as he raised his head everything swayed sickeningly and blackness started creeping into his sight. Thor wondered, "Are you well now, brother ?"
Loki blinked struggling to form a thought longer than 'Free, I am finally free.' Eventually, he managed to say, "I am far better than I was, but that does not say much."
He had started to push himself when Hellboy's arms wrapped around his waist and lifted him to his feet. His nose cracked sharply as Abraham straightened it for him. Emotionally exhausted, he slumped against the fish-man and murmured, "I love you, Abraham. I love you too, Hellboy."
Various responses to his statement - "I love you as well.", "Aw, c'mon, why did you have to go mushy ? Fine, I love you too." and ended with Stark's, "I think I liked him better before, he's scary now."
The time would come and he'd face the consequences like he'd sworn. For now however, he was content to let everything fade away.
