Title: Perfect Happiness

Haru has gone through severe times. But now they're are over and he's in love. Eventually the others find about everything. What will happen when they do? Rated T: M M relationship, and some other things, please read alot better than summary.

Okay, after lots of consideration I decided to add this prologue as a helpful insight into Haru's character now. I hope this clears up any concerns.

Disclaimer: I don't own fruits basket. Closest to owning it I've ever gotten is owning a copy of volume 8. Of course it'd be 8 (Haru's).

Chapter 1- Soulless

God, it was horrible, the complete and utter feeling of total rejection, by all those he loved; all those he cared about. It was the worst feeling in the world.

"I hate you! Don't you understand that! I don't love you! No matter how much you love me, I will always hate you!" she screamed at him.

Confused, irrational feelings, thoughts flitted about in his head. Did he really love her? Was it only just a silly wish- this love? Did he really and truly love another; Yuki? Would anyone really love him? Did it matter?

Yuki had been so mean to him that day.

"But I love you, Yuki," Haru told him crying.

And Yuki had hit him, actually physically hit him hard, and then said such mean brash cruel words.

It had all happened so fast. Yuki had admitted his feelings for Tohru and in a confused rushed manner Haru had confessed his own love. Haru was confused and depressed. He guessed now that he should have never admitted it then; Yuki was in awful mood to begin with. Yuki had just come back from seeing Akito and something had happened there. That was also half the reason why Haru had to do it.

He'd never expected to be hit by Yuki; by Rin yes, by Yuki no.

It tore him up inside that no matter who he seemed to love they would never love him back. That they would go to such lengths as physically hurting him. If they'd go that far he could do it himself. But could he?

Everyday after, he pretended like a good little cow that everything was all right and everything was good. He really didn't want anyone to know how he felt inside. Even though he'd decided that, it still slowly chewed away at him. It chewed just a little each day and got increasingly worse; threatening to eat him alive. Until he finally started to do it; the cutting, the self mutilation, the overdose, all the attempted suicides, and all of it did another thing; it killed Haru's very soul. All of it went down under their noses. If they really cared about him they would have noticed. They were all too wrapped in their own lives to worry about him- to even notice a thing. How could they've said they were his friends? But back then he never thought about that. At the time he convinced himself that he just wasn't good enough; wasn't worthy enough- for any of it.

The depression just became worse. He'd never tell them about it, he was also ashamed in a way. He'd always been the gentle and stoic one; even with Black Haru around. Besides, it's not like they cared.

It was a miracle when Knox had found him. He'd been so depressed for so long that he didn't know how to deal with anything else. Knox had been so in love with him that it didn't matter. It was truly love at first sight.

It was weird when Haru first found out. He had run away frightened. For several days he didn't know if he'd ever see Knox again. He was afraid to face him. But then a simple undeniable truth hit him; he loved Knox no matter what he did. After Haru came back Knox promised him that if Haru didn't like what he did then he would stop because he loved him too much to lose him. Haru had told him not to worry, he didn't mind what he did.

End of Chapter 1

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