Rachel POV

No.

This can't be happening.

We used protection, right?

But this is the thirteenth test I have taken and the thirteen test that has come out positive.

They can't all come out as a false positive can they?

What am I going to do? What about Finn? What if he doesn't want the baby? What if he wants nothing to do with me anymore.

I don't want to tell him.

Abortion is definitely not an option.

And I don't want to give my baby up for apportion either. I don't want him or her to go through what I did.

But I'm scared that Finn won't want anything to do with me or the baby and then the baby would have only one parent.

And I'd really prefer that it would have two.

But are we even ready?

I mean, we're only eighteen.

I think we could do it. I don't know though. Even though Finn grew up without a dad, I know he'd be an amazing father. The way he is such a leader with everyone in Glee, I just know he would.

But what about me? I grew up without a mom. Don't get me wrong, my dads are amazing, but they aren't a mom.

What else can I do?

'You can tell Finn!' I hear the little voice inside my head say.

I'm scared to though.

I look over at the clock.

11:35.

I need to get to bed. Tomorrow's Monday which means it's the longest day of the week.

Finn will pick me up at 6:45 and then I will do whatever while he has football practice and then school will start at 7:45. Then Glee will be over by 4:45 and I can go home.

Everything will be like it always is.

Everything will be good.

I'll be okay. I just need to be careful to not let on that something's up until I decide what to do about the baby.

I need to tell Finn.

I decide to drop the subject for the moment and go finish getting ready for bed.

I brush my teeth and slip on a tank top and a pair of comfy shorts, opting out of doing my facial routine, too tired to really even care that I'm skipping it.

Just as I climb into bed, my phone buzzes on my nightstand.

I pick it up and see it is from Finn. I smile to myself.

I unlock my phone.

'Night baby. See you bright and early tomorrow :) Love you, Finn'

My smile gets bigger. He's so cute.

'Love you too. Night. Xoxo Rach'

I hit send.

I set my phone back down and turn off the light.

I lay on my back so I am facing the now pitch black nothingness.

I can't fall asleep. All I can think about is the baby.

Am I ruining Finn's life? It sure feels like it. I feel as though the moment that I tell him, it will all be over. Everything. Everything we've fought so hard for.

Our love.

That's what I'm afraid of loosing most.

The last thought before I have before falling asleep is 'How in the world am I going to tell Finn?'

But that ever scary thought i replaced by countless dreams that night of Finn, me, and a beautiful baby girl in our arms.