EDITED!
A/N: First Derek/Spencer fic... Not sure I want it as a one-shot or not yet... we'll see how it goes...
NOTE: ooooo time pass
Warning: Don't know where I'm going with this... Might have OOC characters (so what, is it OOCC now, don't answer that), I don't know... hints of rape and abuse... also working on my angst thing... again...
Disclaimer: Nope
Love Me Tender
"When someone is crying, of course, the noble thing to do is to comfort them. But if someone is trying to hide their tears, it may also be noble to pretend you do not notice them."
― Lemony Snicket
The first time it happened, Derek hadn't said anything about – not really surprised considering the gruesome case they'd just been through. Derek just held Spencer close, no questions asked. He'd just allowed Spencer to 'break into' his apartment and walk straight into the older agent's bed, get in and go straight sleep, making sure Derek was holding him as he slept.
The next day wasn't much of a surprise either, the day had been hard for all of them with finishing up case files and a lot of other case work. They all felt like they needed some kind of comfort after all they saw, to know that not everyone in the world would treat people the way the UnSubs did. Everyone wanted a safe haven, and Derek didn't mind being Spencer's safe haven.
But then, Spencer kept coming back. At exactly twelve-oh-one each day for the next three weeks Spencer would do the same thing. He'd 'break into' Derek's apartment, pull his shoes and socks of as per usual and place them neately by the bed then quietly slide into bed with Derek, make sure the older agent had his arms arounf him securly then fall asleep. Derek wanted to know why, because he couldn't understand what was going on with his pretty boy, why the sudden need to come over every single day to sleep, but he didn't want to scare the kid with the questions, so he never asked.
It was common knowledge in the office that Spencer was seeing someone, that the someone was a male someone, and that Spencer and this someone (still faceless and nameless) were in a 'serious and committed relationship'. Derek didn't understand why the genius would come to him and not go to the someone instead. Why seek comfort in the arms of another man when he had someone who he seemed to love so much?
Derek got his answer on the first day of the next month. He was in bed as usual, when he heard the tell-tale signs of Spencer 'breaking in' – Derek had tried giving Spencer a key, but the kid had completely ignored it choosing to come in his usual way by picking the lock. 11:34 the digital clock on his nightstand blinked. Derek frowned in confusion; Spencer was early, way early. Most of the timeen he was early it was usually five minutes or less, never almost half an hour. Derek waited for the genius to make his way to the room, but Spencer didn't come in.
Derek's frown only seemed to grow. The older agent waited a few more minutes before he shook his head seeing Spencer wasn't going to come in. Derek got out of bed and slowly made his way to the living room where he found Spencer sitting on the floor just to the side of the door, long legs pulled close to his slim body, arms wrapped around legs and face hidden between knees. Derek looked at Spencer for a while then realised that the kid was shaking. At first Derek just stood there, waiting for Spencer to say or do something, to acknowledge Derek's presence, but when he saw that the kid wasn't moving he started to move closer.
"Reid," he called gently when he was a few feet away from the kid. "Hey, kid. Are you okay?" Spencer didn't move from his position on the ground, instead, a small, almost pained whimper escaped his lips. "Reid?" Derek stepped closer to the younger man till he was standing right in front of him. "Spence?" Derek knelt in front of the genius and touched the younger man's shoulder gently, noting how Spencer flinched slightly before relaxing just a teancy bit.
Spencer drew in a shakey breath then slowly looked up. Derek suppressed a gasped. Spencer... his face... his beautiful, innocent face... It was...
"Who did this to you?" Derek asked, inding it hard to control his temper, but had to or else he'd scare the kid. "Re... Spencer, tell me." This time the words were said in almost a whisper, Derek was trying to keep his voice from rising. "Who did this?" Tears fell from Spencer's big, scared-looking, hazel orbs.
"I'm so-sorry Mor-Morgan," Spencer stuttered in a small voice, turning away from Derek slightly, curling even more into himself, trying to make himself physically small. "I-I had nowhere else to g-go." Derek nodded noting just how frightened the younger agent was.
"Its okay kid, it's alright." Derek helped Spencer up gently. This time he couldn't suppress the gasp that escaped his lips. Where Spencer had been sitting was a pool of blood... he was... "Who did this to you kid, was it...?" He didn't know the guys name, didn't even know what he looked like.
"I-I'm so-sorry." Sobs escaped the hurt kids lips as he tried to pull away from Derek, but the older agent wouldn't allow it and he held Spencer close.
"Its okay kid, I'm right here..."
"Please... please..." Spencer choked out through sobs that seemed to rake from deep within his small frame.
"Shhh... I've got you."
"D-don't... j-just... please..."
"Shhh... its okay kid, I'm right here." Derek led Spencer to his room. He pulled the covers off and got Spencer inside. Derek knew he was supposed to take Spencer to the hospital, that he was supposed to call the police, but the kid looked so scared, so vulnerable, the hospital would scared him even more.
"Don't... don't go Derek... please..." Derek nodded, getting into the bed with Spencer. He wrapped his arms around the smaller man and shushed the still weeping genius till Spencer fell asleep. Derek ran a hand through the brown locks but froze when he felt something in the back. Derek sat up slightly and pushed away the locks to find a cake of blood. Derek felt he was going to be sick, he felt physically ill. How could someone hurt someone as innocent and kind hearted as Spencer, how could they do this to the kid?
"Its okay kid, I've got you," Derek whispered, pulling Spencer closer, feeling so much more protective over the kid.
While Spencer slept on Derek lay with the boy, trying to figure out what to do next. He knew he'd need to get to Spencer to hospital, especially since the kid had a wound on his head that was still slightly bleeding. After a while Derek came to a desicion. His phone was on the nightstand behind him. Derek grabbed it and dialled Penelope Garcia's number with a shakey hand. It rang three times before the bubbly woman picked up.
"A-good night my chocolate god, my sweet sexy-."
"Can you come over?" Derek interrupted in quiet and very tired voice.
"What's wrong Derek?" Penelope's tone changed from playful to serious in seconds.
"I can't tell you over the phone, please come over."
"I'll be right over honey."
"Thanks Penelope." Derek hung up and dropped his phone behind him on the bed.
Thirty minutes later Derek heared Penelope walk into the house. He heared more than just one gasp coming from the living room and he was sure it was because they'd seen the blood on the floor. Penelope probably brought Prentiss and JJ along. Derek wasn't sure if that was a good or bad thing yet, but it couldn't think about that now, he had bigger problems.
"Derek?" Prentiss called as the three women made their way to Derek's room. Penelope was the first to arrive, followed close by the other two women. They all gasped when they caught a glimpse of Spencer's face.
"Who... what... oh my gosh..." Penelope said, rushing to the bed. "What happened to him?"
"I don't know, he's been coming over here for the past month and today..." Derek took a shruddery breath, "well tonight he came like this."
"Do you think it was...?" Even she didn't know Spencer's boyfriend's name, she'd promise her junior G-man that she wouldn't dig.
"I don't know. He wouldn't tell me."
"I'll call Rossi and Hotch," JJ said. Derek nodded. JJ walked out the room already on the phone with Hotch.
Spencer stirred a little in his sleep, and let out a small, "Derek" and moving closer to the older agent. Derek's arms automatically tightened around the slim body.
"I'm right here Spencer," Derek whispered against Spencer's hair, holding the genius closer.
"Why would he do this?" Prentiss asked herself.
"I don't know," Derek said honestly, looking at the young agent, asleep in his arms.
"I think I do," Penelope said. Both agents looked at her, waiting for her to explain, but she just shook her head. JJ walked back into the room.
"I spoke to Hotch and Rossi," she said. "They're going to meet us at the hospital." Derek nodded, understanding. He had to take Spencer to the hospital whether the kid wanted to go or not.
"We'll be in the living room if you need us." Derek nodded and the three women walked out.
"Spence," Derek whispered, gently shaking Spencer awake.
"Mm..." Spencer replied, moving even closer to Derek's warmth.
"Come on kid, I gotta get you to the hospital."
"N-no... Please."
"Come on kid, I have to."
"N-n-no Derek. Please don't... Please." Spencer was crying again, he was frightened.
"Shhh... it's okay. They'll help you."
"I-I... please."
"It's okay Spencer. They'll help you. It'll be okay, I promise." Spencer nodded slowly though he didn't stop crying. "Okay?" Spencer nodded again, a shakey hand moving to his face to wipe the tears.
"You'll... you'll stay with me Derek won't you?"
"I will if you want me to kid."
"Please..."
"Okay." Derek got out of bed and pulled a pair of jeans, a shirt, shoes and a jacket on; then he helped Spencer out of bed too, wrapping a blanket around the genius. They walked out the room, slowly for Spencer's sake since the younger male seemed to flinch every step he took.
"We'll meet you at the hospital," JJ said. Derek nodded and he and Spencer walked out the apartment and down to the parking bay were Derek's car was. He helped Spencer into the back then got in himself and drove Spencer to the hospital.
ooooo
An hour later the whole BAU team was at the hospital. Derek was still in one of the rooms with Spencer. The whole team was glum, they couldn't believe that someone would do this to the kid, he didn't deserve it, no one deserved to be abused and raped, it just wasn't right. They were all restless. They wanted to know what had happened to Spence, if the young genius was going to be fine, and why this had been done to him.
"Garcia," Prentiss said, looking at her co-worker.
"Mmhmm?" Penelope replied, looking up from her cup of coffee that she'd gotten but had yet to drink, to lost in her own mind.
"What did you mean back at Morgan's place when you said you think you knew why he did this to Spencer?" They all looked at Garcia expectantly. She shrugged and shook her head.
"I don't want to jump into conclusions."
"It might give us an answer Garcia," Hotch said slowly.
"Well... I mean... I don't know. It's just... maybe this guy's seen Derek and Spencer together."
"Oh..." JJ and Prentiss said at the same time, understanding instantly.
"What do you mean?" Rossi asked.
"I don't get it," Hotch said. Penelope sighed.
"Well..." Penelope said. "They... To unknowing people, they look like they are... dating."
"What?"
"I think that maybe this guy saw Derek and Spencer together and thought that Spencer was cheating on him with Derek."
"So you think he did this to Spencer out of jealous rage?" Rossi asked. Penelope nodded.
"It could be... I mean... its possible right?"
"It is," JJ and Prentiss both agreed. They all sighed and sat in silence once again. Then the hospital doors burst open and a man, around the same age and build as Morgan burst into the hospital and rushed to the reception desk demanding to be told where Spencer Reid was. Penelope got up and walked over to him.
"Excuse me," she said. The man turned and glared at her with crystal blue eyes.
"What?" he said in a not so nice tone.
"My name is Penelope Garcia-."
"So?"
"I work with Spencer Reid."
"Where is he?"
"He's with a doctor right now, we're all waiting for news." The man looked at the rest of the BAU teammates. The man huffed but sat down, but he sat as far away from the BAU team as possible. The door that led to the room Spencer and Derek were in opened and Derek walked out looking glum. "What happened?" Derek looked up and saw the man that had been looking for Spencer. Derek marched right up to the guy and punched him right on the nose.
"You asshole," Derek hissed. He grabbed the guy by the shoulders and was about to punch him again but was stopped by Hotch and Rossi. "Get him out of here before I do something I'll regret." Morgan pulled away from his co-workers and walked back to the room where Spencer was. Garcia recovered quickly and followed Derek to the room. She came out thirty minutes later, eyes rimmed red from crying.
"What happened?" JJ asked.
"You... you're sick!" Penelope shouted at the man. "You sick bastard! I hope you go to hell for what you did!" JJ and Prentiss held Penelope back as she tried to go for him. "You will rot in prison for what you did you asshole and I will make sure of it!"
"Penelope calm down," Hotch said. "Calm down." Derek came out the room again. He walked right past everyone, even 'the asshole that would rot in prison' and went outside. Ten minutes later he walked in followed by two police men. They walked up to 'the asshole'.
"Gordon Michaels you are under arrest for the rape...(1)" Everyone sort of phased out after that. Sure they knew that Spencer had been raped, and beaten up pretty badly, but for it be confirmed was. Suddenly too real and it was most certainly something they'd hoped wouldn't happen.
"No matter," Gordon Michaels said, looking straight at Derek with a sick, satisfactory smile on his face. "I've already had myself that ass, you can have him now." Derek went for Gordon but was stopped by Rossi and Hotch.
"Don't do it Morgan," Rossi said. "He's not worth you getting suspended or worse(2)." Derek huffed then walked back to Spencer's room while Gordon Michaels was led out the hospital. Penelope sat down with a sigh.
"What happened?" Prentiss asked Penelope.
"I was right. This Gordon guy saw Derek and Spencer and got jealous. He started by hitting Spencer, that's when Spencer started going to Derek's during the night while that guy worked night shift at some place. He found out where Spencer was disappearing to every night and got angry, raped him and attacked his face with a knife to 'make him ugly'."
"That son of a bitch," JJ hissed. They were all quiet for a while, shocked.
"How is Reid?" Prentiss asked finally.
"He's... he's fragile," Penelope answered. "But he seems better whenever Derek's around."
"Do you think... do you think he's in love with Derek?" Penelope smiled, it both sad and happy.
"They love each other, it's pretty obvious. He saw this and got jealous, he knew he was going to lose Spencer to Derek, he knew why Spencer picked him in the first place. We all saw the resemblance, to Spencer it might've been a subconscious decision on Spencer's part, but I guess he felt attracted to him because he looked a little like Derek, if you don't count the race." The others nodded.
"We should all get home," Hotch said. "It's been a long night, and we have work." The sun was already coming up.
"Yeah... We should go say bye to Spencer then head home."
They all made their way to the room and Penelope opened the door quietly to find the bed empty. She walked in and on the couch in the room were Derek and Spencer. Derek was sitting on the couch, arms wrapped tightly around Spencer who was sitting on Derek's lap fast asleep.
"Hey," Garcia whispered to Derek.
"Hey," he said, smiling slightly at the team.
"How is he?" Hotch asked.
"He'll be alright."
"That's good... You don't have to come in today, I'll understand." Derek nodded.
"Thanks Hotch."
"Good night," Penelope said kissing both Spencer and Derek's foreheads.
"Night baby girl." The rest of the team walked out quietly, shutting the door behind them. Spencer stirred a little. "Hey kid, you okay?"
"Derek?" Spencer said in a small voice.
"Yeah kid?"
"I love you." Derek smiled, pulling Reid closer.
"I love you too pretty boy." Derek got up and carried Spencer to the bed.
"Stay with me."
"Okay." Derek got into the small hospital bed too and held his genius close. "No one's ever going to hurt you again pretty boy, I promise." Derek kissed the younger man's head then he too fell asleep...
"Find a place inside where there's joy, and the joy will burn out the pain."
- Joseph Campbell
-FIN-
So yeah... that's it... The quotes are dodgy I suppose, but I don't know, they sorta work I guess. If you know better quotes I can use, please do share!
(1) I'm not really sure what they say when they are arresting someone for abuse.
(2) Another cricket moment. I'm not sure if he'd get suspended or lose his job... but yeah, pretend that I'm right... LOL
(",) MwahzZ
