Song: There are Worse things I could Do.
Album: Grease Soundtrack
Title: There are Worse things I Could Do
Tanya's POV
I sat there out under the stars. He found someone, he was happy, I tried so hard to get his attention and I failed. I was beautiful, I was gorgeous. She was a human and yet, he still picked her. He had told me that I was a horrible vampire a long time ago, he took it back later when he realized how much it hurt me.
He didn't like my thoughts of being with people; I figured that until you find your mate, you can go with anyone you wanted. Sex was just for fun but to him, it meant so much more.
There are worse things I could do,
Than go with a boy or two.
I sat on the hill over looking my house. I was staring at the invitation sent to me. I was cordially invited to see the 'blessed sanction between Edward Anthony Cullen and Isabella Marie Swan.' I could tell more than anything else that Alice had made this card.
Even though the neighborhood thinks I'm trashy,
And no good,
I suppose it could be true
Don't get me wrong, I was happy for them but at the same time, I couldn't help but think that she was living the life I wanted all along.
But there are worse things I could do.
I watched one of my sisters, Irina, walk through the house. They were so excited for the last of the Cullen coven. I got up and walked into the woods. I had to accept that I would never find someone for me.
I could flirt with all the guys,
Smile at them and bat my eyes.
Press against them when we dance,
Make them think they stand a chance,
Then refuse to see it through.
That's a thing I'd never do.
Yes, Edward had told me that I was a whore. He said that I shouldn't go with all the guys like I did. I got a night of pleasure but in the long run, I would watch the man leave. That was it.
Edward never did that. He had waited it out. I know it was hard for him, especially when I would continuously make a move on him. He was after all, the last of the Cullen coven to not have a mate.
He was beautiful, he was everything I wanted. I would have stopped going from man to man just for him.
I could stay home every night,
Wait around for Mr. Right.
Take cold showers every day,
And throw my life away,
On a dream that won't come true.
I would never find someone to love me. I would never find my mate. This card meant that I would forever be lonely, doomed to go from one guy to the next.
If I really wanted to, I could become one of those straightened up girls. I could try to look for the right guy. But then it would only end with me hating someone who acted like me and I would just get bored.
I could hurt someone like me,
Out of spite or jealousy.
I don't steal and I don't lie,
But I can feel and I can cry.
I couldn't technically cry but I could dry cry, it was pretty close. Then the rain started to pour as if it knew what I wanted. I welcomed it; at least I could feel like I was crying.
A fact I'll bet you never knew.
I looked down at the invitation. I made up my mind, I would go to this wedding and I would give him my blessing. I know it would mean a lot to him. I won't get mad at this Bella girl and I will wish her well. I won't let him know that it hurt me deep within to see him taken.
I stayed out all night in the rain. Irina probably figured I went off to go find a guy for the night. Little did she know, I didn't want to do that anymore. I wanted to find my man; my guy that I can say is mine. Maybe one day I could do it.
I got a text just then, it was from Edward.
"Alice just told me that you decided to come. I can't wait to see you and the family again."
I smiled, his sister was so obnoxious when it came to future plans.
I won't cry, I won't yell, I won't show anything off. I will wish him well.
I text back a simple thing and I knew it meant a lot to him.
"I wouldn't miss it for the world! 3"
But to cry in front of you.
That's the worse thing I could do.
All I got back was a smiley face. That was it, my last chance at happiness was gone. I would never find another guy like Edward. I just hoped that Isabella Marie Swan realized just how lucky she really was to have such an amazing guy to herself.
Very short because I'm busy but it's been playing at the back of my mind for a while. What do you think?
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