A/N: MUST… GET… RID… OF… SETO AND JOU FLUFF!

Warning: YAOI EQUALS BOYS LOVING OTHER BOYS! Got a problem with that?

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Summary: Meaningful drabble about something that has been bugging me…

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"I want to go for a walk…" the blond had mumbled. I smirked as his thin arms wrapped around my shoulders. My fingers kept typing away though.

"Mutt, it's raining," I pointed out, eyes never leaving the gleaming white screen. Said mutt sighed against my neck, his breath warming my flesh.

"So?" I rolled my eyes and finally turned away from the lap top.

"If you walk out you'll get sick," I warned. Amber eyes flared into their hopeful shining.

"I promise to bring an umbrella and a sweater!" He was begging as his tan hands clasped over my paler ones. Just the simple gesture sent my skin flaming to life.

"Fine," I gave in like always…

No matter how many ways I looked at it, it never made sense, Katsuya and I. I am not really sure how it began either. Maybe it was just there. Perhaps it is only our hormones getting the better of us. Any way I look at it though, it just is.

These days I can not wake up to an empty bed. I try to imagine my life before my pup came along, and it seems so… gray and dead. There truly is no other way to explain it. Believe me, I have tried again and again, but I can not understand it.

If I am such a genius, why can I not figure out this equation?

How can I love him?

Really, I can not find the answer. I have looked long and hard at the puppy. He's adorable, but he's such a menace… and a klutz, not to mention he practically eats me out of house and home. He is sweet with kids… but he does have very fowl language. That and he's not too smart.

He's not a very good catch. Not by a long shot.

I use to think that maybe that was why I was so attracted to Jou. The fact that he would make my step father turn in his grave. Alas, some times I want to be in a grave when faced with a grouchy dog.

Then I thought, perhaps I am just gay. But when I looked at the rest of the male population, I decided that might not be the correct answer either. So my mind came up with the forbidden fruit complex; I probably only want the blond because he was so unreachable, but obviously that wasn't the answer as I have him now.

Well, could it just be that we are so opposite that we just have a natural attraction? When I think about, our oppositions are sometimes why it is so difficult to even stay together. Which lead me to believe that perhaps I might be an emotional sadomasochist? But when I think back to all the times I've made my puppy dog cry, it makes me cringe.

So that one is also out the window… I had to approach this dilemma from a new prospective. Maybe why I should valuate why Katsuya says he loves me.

Well let me think… I am rich and good looking.

But so is Otogi (here is where I growl in my thought process) and my puppy has never expressed anything other than friendship for the oh-so obviously smitten dice moron (and here is where I smirk like crazy).

Maybe he is gay (more growling causing my mutt to throw a confused glance at me from under our umbrella). Then again, I have never seen him throw any one else that slow, edible looking smile that he freely gives to me…

Laughter floated over me in the dark, gray rain. For some reason, it brightens the surroundings despite the pounding down pour. It was so childish, the way he would run and jump in the puddles. A big, happy grin plaster on his features…

Not for the first time, I am amazed at how he lights up the world around me.

Is that why I love him? Am I so lonely and cold that I need his smile to live? I don't like that answer. I could feel a scowl settle on my face. Luckily the dog doesn't notice as he kicks at the dirty water helpless lying on the cement in the middle of the park.

I am not, and was not, lonely before Jou. I had and still have my younger brother. Not only that but there's my company. The blond had his geeky friends for him as well. We certainly weren't lonely before our relationship came into being.

So why am I so in love with the idiot?!

A soft touch brings me out of my reparative. I take a step back in surprise. I was so lost I hadn't noticed my puppy had walked in front of me to cup my cheek. His amber orbs hold that smoldering look of concern, that look I have only seen directed at me with so much intensity it makes my shriveled heart bleed all over again.

Kami, when did he turn me into such a sap?

"What's wrong?" His normally loud voice was hard to hear against the water splashing off the plastic umbrella he abandoned by his feet. I knew his quiet meant he didn't want to upset me further.

"Nothing…" I murmured over his hand, letting my lips linger on his palm.

"You're lying," he said, tone a little louder in confidence. A grin tugged at the corners of my mouth. I merely nodded as I let his hand fall to the side. I bent and picked up the umbrella, shielding him from the cold water spiraling around us.

"You are going to get sick pup," I warned again. I wondered if he knew my troubles, my worrying over him got worse with everyday he smiled at me like he was now.

"I don't think I'll ever figure it out Seto!" Jou had blurted out as he seized my hand, pulling me farther down the path back to our home. I stumbled behind him, my feet sprinkling water across the dampened grounded.

"Figure what out?" I inquired. The blond had paused, swiveling to me with a confused look on his pretty golden face.

"I guess why I love you so much," was his answer. My mouth opened for a retort, but I saw the serious gaze his orbs held up to my ice like ones, and it closed gently. A chuckle escaped me as my digits swiped a tendril of his now bronze colored hair behind his ear.

"I believe I finally managed to find an answer," I whispered. Katsuya glanced up with hopeful and frightened eyes. I leaned down, mere centimeters from his silky cherry lips. Our breathes mingled together, hot and misty creating puffs of white in the chilly air.

I was so close to tasting him when a yell interrupted us. A flushed puppy had pulled away from my embrace and I stood back up annoyed at whoever had called out. Some how or another we had gotten home, and it was Mokuba who was waving frantically at us from the door way of our mansion.

"What are you two doing?! It's pouring! Get inside!" he hollered. I sighed as I waved him back inside. With a nod he turned back, black hair floating behind him as he sprinted in the house. Jou gave a small giggle of embarrassment. The moment was ruined, but he still reached up on his tiptoes and pecked my cheek.

Warmth flooded my body as he flounced inside the huge home of ours. My fingers idly traced the feeling of his lips on my damp flesh. Resigned, my footsteps followed the puppy's tracks into the mansion. I shook out the umbrella.

"Mokie!" the mutt had squealed. A thud filled the adjoining room. "Oops, sorry…" I shook my head of dark mahogany hair, water dripped down my white coat as I did so.

"Eww, you're all wet Jou," my ears picked up Mokie's complaining.

"Eww, you're dry!" I could just imagine the dog sticking out his tongue and my younger brother rolling his eyes. Carefully my damp shoes were pulled off and left to dry by the door. I stalked to the next room to see Katsuya cuddling up to Mokuba, who was currently whining about being wet now too.

I crossed my arms as I took in the scene. The blond had turned to me and blinked. With a sheepish grin he climbed off my black haired brother. He then snapped his fingers in remembrance. "What was it you were going to say earlier?" Jou asked.

"Nothing," I said with a slight twitch on my lips. A mock glare from amber eyes fell on me as I turned.

"You're lying again!" the blond accused more than likely pointing a finger at me. My head had spun back to see he was pointing at me. I shrugged at him thinking about all my questionings toward our relationship.

"It just doesn't make sense," I reply.

"Huh?" I had to smile as my pup sat confused and drenched to the bone on the floor. I didn't respond and began to walk away. He shot up and sprinted after to me. "Hey, wait! Explain! Argh! Seto!"

Mokuba had also carefully got to his feet following us, "Be careful Jou you'll-"

CRASH!

"Fall…"

"Owe…"

"Don't worry; it was only a 17th century vase from China."

Oh yes, love definitely doesn't make any sense…

OWARI