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**Set after the motorcycle crash in New Moon.
Kaleidoscope
Every color hides a rainbow. Like Edward's eyes — black and blood red, so clear in their violent, triumphant rage. She wonders when she has ever seen him like this — awake and screaming. Of course, crippling pain and Vicodin tend to dampen edges, even the ones she longs for. New Moon AU.
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The sound that leaves her mouth isn't quite a scream, it's too quiet for that, but it's filled with so much pain and hatred.
"I wish I were dead," she whispers. "Death must be so much easier."
She sits in the car for five minutes, staring at the slowly lightening sky. Her father must be worried about her. She should get back, reassure him.
Her father still loves her.
She's putting the keys in the ignition when she sees the inconspicuous orange prescription bottle. She looks at it, and wonders if she should go back. She isn't sure she has the strength. She looks at the bottle again.
How many would it take? She's small...there's at least twenty left. Six would probably do it, and eight to be safe. She isn't sure if she's actually considering it. She feels so distanced from her emotions it's more like an intellectual puzzle than a plan. Besides, her dad is expecting her and she doesn't want him to worry.
The keys stay in the ignition, unturned.
The bottle rests curiously in her hand.
Her cell phone starts to ring, and she doesn't need to look at the caller ID to know who it is, or rather who it isn't.
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A/N: Thanks for reading!
