"Lexa?" Raven questions, looking at the younger woman.

Lexa does her best to avoid her eyes, focusing on the floor.

"Raven, just… Please," she begs, tears in her eyes.

"Lexa, what are you doing?" Raven questions, following the brunette out of the room, mindful of the child on her hip.

"Lexa? Lexa!" she continues, following her into the living room.

"Lexa! Stop!" she orders, grabbing her arm and spinning her around.

"I can't do it!" Lexa yells, causing the blonde on Raven's hip to cry. Raven quickly hushes the baby before looking at the women again. Tears stream down Lexa's face as she shakes her head.

"I can't do it without her Raven. I can't even look at my children. I just… I can't. I'm sorry," she says, turning on her heel and running out of the room.

"Lexa! LEXA !" she yells, running to the door before crying interrupts her thoughts.

"Shh," she mumbles to the baby in her arms, hugging her closer as she takes out her phone.

"O?" she questions, trying and failing to keep the panic out of her voice.

"Lexa just dropped the twins off at my house. I think, I think she's going to kill herself."

"I can't follow her, I'm with the kids. Please O. I… I'm scared," she confesses, trying to keep her tears from falling.

"I've got it," Octavia nods, hanging up the phone and grabbing her keys.

She doesn't bother to clean up the ice cream or change from the sweats or try to deal with her greasy hair. She forgets to close the door, remembering halfway down the stairs but not caring enough to go back as she rushes to where she hopes Lexa is.

Lexa takes a deep breath, looking down at the sapphire ring in her hand. Her legs dangle from the bridge. Their first kiss was here. Lexa brought Clarke here because it was the best place to see the stars in the city. She had done her homework and after rambling about Persephone and Hades, Clarke had kissed her.

"Lexa?" Octavia calls out, startling the seated brunette.

"Don't come any closer," Lexa says, green eyes burning into the older girl.

"Okay," she nods, walking to the edge herself and sitting.

"What are you doing here?" Lexa questions, studying the brunette.

"You know why I'm here Lex," she sighs, "can I move closer?"

Lexa bites the inside of her cheek, but nods, allowing one of Clarke's best friends closer to her.

"You know, you're not alone, right?" she questions, her voice cracking.

"I can't do it without her," she answers, looking down at the ring.

"I loved him."

"Lincoln?" Lexa questions, he was in the car too.

"You know, I never said it out loud but… I have always looked up to you and Clarke. You're soulmates and everybody knows that. I would never try to say we had anything close to what you guys did but… I thought he was my Clarke," she confesses, ignoring the tears running down her face.

Lexa lets out a shaky breath, tears dripping onto her hands.

"I can't even look at my daughter's O. They look just like her. What kind of a childhood would that be? One mother dead, the other can't stand to look at you. I can't do that to my children. To Clarke's children. I can't," she chokes on her words, letting out a sob.

"So you're just going to leave them with no parents?"

"They have Abby," Lexa nods, trying to hard to convince herself.

"They need a mom Lexa. Please," she begs.

Lexa shakes her head, closing her eyes and making a fist around the ring.

"I can't do it without her."

Octavia sits there for hours crying. Bellamy finds her there and takes her back to Raven's. He deals with the police, then calls Abby and tells her so the girls won't have to.

"How are you so strong? Why didn't you just… Jump in after her?" Raven whispers that night.

"I'm going to raise my kid. They deserve a chance to find their Clarke," Octavia whispers, curling into Raven.

Raven nods, wrapping her arms around the broken woman. She presses a kiss to her forehead.

"I don't know if there's ever going to be a love like theirs," she mumbles.

"You can't leave me Raven. I won't be able to take it," she confesses, tears falling again.

"I'm not going anywhere O. I promise, alright? I'll be here every step of the way for you, for their kids, for your kid. I'm not going anywhere. As long as you don't."

"I promise."

"Our promise has to be as strong as their love."

"It is."

*Eight years later*

"Grandma!"

Abby smiles at her granddaughter, "yes sweetheart?"

"Can we go see aunt Raven and aunt O?" she questions.

"And Lex?" her sister adds.

"Sure girls," she laughs at their over-eagerness.

"We're going to see our moms!"

"Oh that sounds so nice sweetie," Abby smiles, though it doesn't quite reach her eyes.

"Yeah, we get ice cream too!"

*Eight years later*

"Aunt Raven," the sixteen-year-old mumbles.

Raven sighs, sitting next to the girls, "I guess you're old enough for the truth."

"I think you are," Octavia agrees, sitting down next to her wife.

"Finally!"

"It's not a happy story kiddo's, you get that right?"

"Yeah…"

"Your parents… God they were the best. We knew Clarke first, which you already know. We were childhood friends and she was such a good person."

"We meet your other mother years later. Your mom picked her up at a bar. Lexa had just lost her girlfriend and Clarke had a thing for fixing people."

"We kinda adopted Lexa into the group. She was just a kid, she wasn't even old enough to be in that bar, but she was a smart little thing. She just fit."

"It took a few years before they realized they were deeply in love, but it was clear as day to anybody else."

"Like you two?"

Raven blushes, hiding her face by kissing Octavia's hand.

"I mean, kinda," Octavia mumbles.

"We love each other a lot, but I would never say we are on the same level as your parents," Raven confesses.

"Yeah, basically," she agrees.

"But, off topic. They kinda had a one night stand, and that's what made them realize they were in love."

"Classy," one teen laughs.

"We were in our twenties, shut it!" Raven defends with a playful push.

"So what next?"

"So then they found out that you existed. It was a miracle. I remember Lexa asked if you were even hers because of how unlikely it would happen."

"But they were over the moon. Lexa was a bit overwhelmed, she was only twenty two, but she was happy. She asked Clarke to marry her when they found out that there were two of you."

"But, our parents weren't married?"

"No, they weren't. Lexa convinced Clarke to wait until you guys were old enough to be in it. They hadn't decided an exact day, Clarke was pushing for when you were five, but Lexa wanted eight."

"Lexa would've won, but that's besides the point. They were happy. So in love and they had you. They just took care of you two like they did each other, perfectly."

"Ten months of motherhood under their belts, they were ready for a night out. We arranged for them to have a night out."

"I picked up Lexa, and Lincoln, my boyfriend at the time, picked up Clarke."

"I watched you guys, and Abby supervised."

"Clarke and Lincoln got hit by a semi. They didn't suffer. We did."

Raven grabs her hand and rubs her back, understanding.

"Lexa tried. She really did, but she just…"

"Lexa couldn't do it without Clarke. She couldn't look at you two, because you looked so much like your mother. She knew she couldn't raise you like that. She knew you'd be safe with your grandmother. That you'd be loved. But…"

"But Lexa knew where she should be. With her soulmate."

"Soulmate?"

"If you saw them, you'd believe. Your parents were meant to be."

"Like the sky and the ground."

"Meant to be."

"Like us?"

Octavia smiles, pulling her girls into a hug, "like us."

"Woah, what'd I just walk in on?" Lex questions, raising his eyebrow at his mother's and cousins in a group hug.

"On a hug, now get your ass over here," Octavia orders, pulling her son into the hug.


"Do you believe them?" she questions her sister.

"Is it crazy if I do?"

"No. I believe them."

"Our moms were soulmates."

"Yeah, they were," she agrees.

The cloud that had been covering the moon for the last four hours suddenly moves, casting a bluish glow into the room, but neither of the girls think twice about it.