A/N – (I don't own twilight or Jesus Christ Superstar in any way.All credit goes toStephanie Meyers, Andrew Lloyd Webber and Tim Rice).
Lyrics = Italics.
Could We Start Again?
Esme's P.O.V.
I've been living to see you.
Dying to see you, but it shouldn't be like this.
This was unexpected,
What do I do now?
Could we start again please?
Carlisle's face came into mind as another fist came flying down into my side. I don't know why I pictured him now. After all, I hadn't seen him for eight long years. Still, every day I lived for him, lived in the hope I'd see him again, but I knew I was lying to myself. He was gone.
I've been very hopeful, so far.
Now for the first time, I think we're going wrong.
Hurry up and tell me,
This is just a dream.
Oh could we start again please?
A year, a year we had been married and already I was destroyed by the man I was tied to. No-one knew, no-one could've warned me in advance except my husband himself. If I could go back to the wedding day and change my mistake I would, but I can't. I'm living my worst nightmare and there's nobody to wake me up.
I think you've made your point now.
You've even gone a bit too far to get the message home.
Before it gets too frightening,
We ought to call a vote,
So could we start again please?
I could hear him screaming above me, his face red as his anger took control. He didn't care if he beat me unconscious; I had to learn, so this was another lesson for me. But for once, as my vision tainted red, I knew I had gone too far this time. I tried to run from him, escape his hands, but I failed, and he caught me...again. My life was in his hands; my life was hanging in the balance. For once, I didn't know if I'd make it through tonight, for I was sure, tonight was the night I would die. Was he the only who got that choice, why couldn't God vote as well?
I've been living to see you.
Dying to see you, but it shouldn't be like this.
This was unexpected,
What do I do now?
Could we start again please?
The first few early days of this marriage had been bliss. I though he loved me. I thought he actually cared for my livelihood, my happiness, but then again, I was unaware of the truth. I wanted to go back to those early days, the days when he held me, kissed me, and loved me. I would give anything to start again, to stop the pain, the fear, but I'll never be able to. In the public eye he was a man every girl dreamed of marrying, but the unexpected works in mysterious ways.
I felt his boot crack my ribs as he unleashed his anger on his lawfully wedded wife. He was spitting in my face, telling me like usual, what a bad person I was, and I didn't mean it. I didn't meant to be a bad person, but I'd given up trying, so in Carlisle's eyes, was that a bad thing?
I think you've made your point now.
You've even gone a bit too far to get the message home.
Before it gets too frightening,
We ought to call a vote,
So could we start again please?
Could we start again please?
Blackness started to invade my sight, but I was determined to keep my eyes open. The darkness scared me, for I never knew if I was to come out of it or not. What awaited me on the other side? Nights like these created more questions than answers, and I knew, I would never find the answers I so rightly deserved.
"You will learn..." He muttered above me as the rain storm of fists continued pouring down on me.
And maybe I would. Maybe I would learn, in time, how to be a good person, but for now, I had to understand him first. I had to understand his motive and then maybe, maybe, we could start again, for I have learnt something tonight, and surely that counts.
He continued his onslaught of attacks as my eyelids finally gave up on me. I couldn't be strong anymore, I couldn't be strong for me or for Carlisle and that hurt more than the abuse did.
I could see his face now as if he were actually watching. It held a look of disgust and astonishment at the woman who lay on the floor, huddled and crying. I reached at to him, my voice pleading as he looked away.
Could we start again please?
A/N – I just watched a production of Jesus Christ Superstar yesterday, and while this was being sung, this story came into mind.
I hope you enjoyed it, and I portrayed the character(s) well. If you did enjoy it, PLEASE review!
-Thanks, Katie1995.
