Disclaimer: The characters are not mine, I'm just playing around with them for a bit.
Note: Each chapter is a Blair POV for a different episode, begining with 'Switchman' in chapter 1. For an added bonus, read the chapter then watch the corresponding episode--it gives it a whole new dimension.
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Who Am I Now?
Who am I now? Blair Sandburg. Bouncy and awkward. Who I really am I don't know. I don't think I'll ever know. How do they see me? Or rather, how do they see 'Blair Sandburg'? I haven't really given them much to go on, and what I have...well, B.S. seems to fit it perfectly.I told them that I traveled a lot during my childhood. What a joke. The closest I'd ever gotten to travel as a child was watching images of faraway places flash on a view screen. Though, I have traveled more in the last few years then most people do in a lifetime. But, not for enjoyment, but out of necessity. Having to keep on the move to keep from being caught. Survival is everything. But, will I do whatever it takes for survival now? Now that I have something to lose...
I should never have gotten so close. I should know better than that. To keep my distance. But, I hate being alone. When you're alone everything that you've hidden from everyone else comes rushing in. When someone else is there I can still pretend...because I have to. I shouldn't have gotten this close...
Would they still be my friends if they knew the truth? Probably not. Sometimes I think they can tell that I'm different. Not the good kind of different, but the kind that people are afraid of. The kind that makes people look at you differently and with distaste. It's ironic how I can be anyone that I want to be except for the one thing that I want to be more than anything else--normal. I'll never be normal. One doesn't see the things that I see and be normal. But, still I pretend that I am...
"Who am I now?" --that's what David strived to find out. He was empty--a person without a self. Is that what I'm like? If I'm suddenly no longer 'Blair Sandburg', will I be like him? Pleading with someone to understand...to answer the question, "who am I now...?"
