Remus' P.O.V

I sit in the common room my quill scratching across the parchment as I write my potions essay, I look up and see Sirius sat across from me smirking, his grey eyes emitting a mischievous glint that makes it impossible for me to focus on anything else.

"What do you want Padfoot?" I ask as I neatly finish the final word on my essay, happy that it's all neat and void of ink blotches and that I was able to focus enough to keep my work neat.

"Why do I have to want anything?" Sirius asks faking annoyance and I roll my eyes at him before reading over my work and realising that it had gone quiet...too quiet. I look up again to see he had changed into his Animagus form and I can't help but laugh at him.

I put my essay and everything down on the desk and walk over to the large black dog and kneel down in front of him as his canine eyes keep the mischievous glint he usually has in his human form, even in the worst of times.

"You always know how to get my attention Padfoot." I mumble as I scratch him behind his right ear which is his favourite place to be scratched in his dog form, in response Sirius jumps up and licks my face happily and I find myself laughing again.

"Fine! I'll do your potions essay." I say through my laughs and as soon as I have Sirius has turned back into himself and I find myself face to face with him, a lot closer than I would be comfortable with if it were anyone but Sirius.

"Thanks Moony." He grins cheekily and to stop myself doing anything I'll regret I push him over but he grabs my arm as he falls and he ends up pulling me on top of him. I quickly scramble off of him and sit back down and pick up some spare parchment. I begin writing Sirius' essay mimicking his perfect swirly writing perfectly, years of forging notes and as much as I would hate to admit it, homework, coming in handy. Within five minutes I had already written half a scroll in Sirius' perfect hand, I guess homework is my greatest distraction.

"Moony...You didn't have to do it now." Sirius says as he stands in front of me and I look up at him and shrug my shoulders, dipping the quill into the ink and acting as nonchalant as possible.

"No big deal." I mutter before turning back to the work and scribbling down more words. As I go for more ink Sirius takes all of the work from me, making me drip ink across the wooden floor of the Gryffindor common room, narrowly missing the red and gold rug.

"I thought you wanted me to do your homework Padfoot." I say as I look up at him, an annoyed expression etched onto my face to ensure I don't seem as unbothered by Sirius' actions as I actually am...and by that I mean I'm not annoyed, I'm just happy to have him near me.

"Moony I'll do it myself. Especially if you're going to be weird with me." Sirius tells me and I roll my eyes and stand up, now kinda feeling annoyed with him, the constant touching and sweet moments we share getting mixed with all the moments he has let me down or done something he knew I would disapprove of. I grab my cloak and scarf and head out of the common room and down to the black lake with Sirius following me, which I should have predicted with it being Sirius and all but I honestly didn't even register that he may follow me, I just wanted somewhere quiet to think.

"Remus! Talk to me! Why are you being so weird?!" He snaps and I turn around, trying to figure out which of my emotions will win out in this argument, the side that would do anything for Sirius or the side that was so pissed off I could kill him.

"Sirius I could have killed Snape and you act like it's not a big deal! We're just lucky James was there." I yell back, luckily no one was around to hear. I guess the I want to kill Sirius side won...not what I was planning on but hey I'm a werewolf, I'm unpredictable as fuck.

"Remus...I apologised and you said you forgave me." Sirius replied, his voice dropping and showing confusion, hurt and guilt, clearly the memory still as painful for him as it was two years ago when the incident happened.

"Sirius...I know...and I do but I just. You never explained why you did it." I say softly, my I'd do anything for Sirius side beginning to take over as the look on his face hits me in the heart, and really all I want to know is why he tried to use me as a tool for murder.

"He kept talking shit about you Rem and I just snapped." He admitted, refusing to look at me by this point, I knew he felt bad about what happened but I didn't realise he felt this bad.

"Padfoot he talks shit about all of us, especially you and James it's really not a big deal." I reply, taking a step towards him but he shakes his head at me, acting as though I don't know what I'm talking about so I slowly lower the arm I had extended to lay a tentative hand on his shoulder.

"No Moony you don't get it, he was saying all of these awful things about you and you didn't deserve it. He was so infuriating, asking where we kept disappearing to and then when I wouldn't tell him he did the one thing he knew would get a reaction from. Saying shit about you, it's my biggest trigger and he knew that." Sirius confesses to me and I stand there completely shocked. I'm the one thing that causes Sirius to snap...since when? Why would I cause him to snap, James is basically his brother, as is Pete, and what about Regulus, his actual brother?

"Sirius. You can't let Snape get to you." I say trying not to think about or dwell on what he just told me, if I do that then I'll start thinking about just one of the other things to add to the list of things that make me a freak...it's a long list.

"Easier said than done Remus." He mumbled and I step forward, towering over the 5'9" man in front of me, the both of us standing so close to one another that we're almost touching but not quite, I take a quiet but deep breath, trying to calm down my rapidly beating heart.

"I know Padfoot. But James has started to do it." I tell him and he scoffs, the severity of our discussion starting to dissipate as I mention our unofficial leader.

"Yeah. For Lily." He replies and I laugh quietly, it's true, James would do anything to get Lily to go out with him, he gave up smoking, he became somewhat more mature...I'm surprised he didn't jump off the astrometry tower trying to prove his love for her.

"Then do it for me." I say and he finally looks up at me and nods, his long black hair falling in front of his face slightly making a small smile appear on my face.

"I'll try...for you." He says before turning away from me and heading back up to the castle. I let out a breath I didn't realise I was holding and sit down. It took all my willpower today to not make a move on Sirius or admit my true feelings...it's gonna be a lot harder next week when my body is preparing for the full moon and even a few days after when I'm recovering from the injuries I caused myself and the toll the full moon always takes on me. I'm always scared that during the time around the full moon I will say or do something revealing my true feelings that will unfortunately ruin the friendship I have with Sirius, let alone the other marauders.