Hm. For the past week or so, I've found myself completely obsessed with Riku and Sora, in that order. Surprisingly enough, this wasn't intended to be related to Kingdom Hearts at all. It started out with that first section, and lo and behold, turned into an angsty, Sora-centric oneshot. Go me.
They don't belong to me, so stuff your lawsuits down your throat. (Wow, I'm not violent tonight, not at all.)
The italicized lyrics at the very end are from RJA's "Damn Regret." I listen to them entirely too much. And apparently, I can't write anything without including some sort of lyric. Mah. Music is expression, goddammit!
Onward.
Breathe.
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We each carry within our being the ability to be strong. The will to overcome the call of darkness that lurks just beneath the surface.
Our hearts are the cornerstone of that strength.
The heart is a strikingly powerful mass of untamed, reckless energy, capable of the fiercest love, the most devastating sadness.
Utterly debilitating rage.
Anger. Jealousy. Fear. The darkness covets them because they are the most potent emotions that drive a heart, with the grand exception of love.
Love.
The kind of warmth that envelops your soul in a safe, impenetrable cocoon. It's what makes life worth living.
It's the sole reason I drive myself to find him.
Through endless worlds, unfamiliar and far less than friendly; the waves of Heartless that stand in my path, dare to keep me from him, fall swiftly beneath the unyielding power of the keyblade.
Riku.
Can you feel me?
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Rage. Fear. Uncertainty.
Hopelessness.
They pull at me from all directions, clawing a ragged path to my heart. And sometimes, I feel like giving in. Succumbing to the seductive call of lasting darkness. Maybe then I could find peace.
But the only peace I have ever known rests with him. In his arms.
His eyes.
His kiss.
My chest aches dully as I dig up the memories of late afternoons spent staring at the sun setting over the water. I can almost feel the sand between my toes, taste the salt in the air.
His soft laughter fills my ears as I squeeze my eyes shut tight against familiar tears. It all seems so long ago.
Riku.
It's my fault you disappeared.
My fault the shadows swallowed you whole.
If only I'd tried harder to reach you ...
Oh, God, I want to go home.
Riku, where are you?
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Oblivion trembles in my hand, humming softly with dormant power as I take in the sight before me. Heartless. Everywhere I turn, threatening my very sanity.
And all because of him.
Xemnas.
My grip tightens around the keyblade. To think he was to blame for all of this destruction. Pain. Loss.
Heartache.
He's keeping me from you. Keeping me from finding you.
A Shadow hisses as I lunge forward, swinging Oblivion like a scythe. It dissipates into nothing as the heart it held captive floats upward and becomes part of the whole.
Kingdom Hearts.
A snarl escapes my lips. Oblivion seems to act of its own accord, seeking out each Heartless and slicing through the inky blackness with the ease of a hot knife passing through butter.
I will make him pay for the sorrow brought on by his greed. I will dismantle his creation piece by piece.
I will destroy him.
Riku.
I will find you.
And we can finally go home.
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I'm wishing you were
here
My weakness is my fear
Alone, I am myself
No reason
left for me to care
