Always
"Don't be so blind, Max. Where do you think he goes after dark? It's a simple question, along with a simple answer. Connect the pieces. Solve the puzzle."
I couldn't think straight. The Voice was right, of course. Fang didn't know that I knew he leaves at midnight. He thinks I'm asleep, but I really listen to his footsteps walking out the door, not returning until four AM. I knew something was up, but I didn't want to lose Fang again. He left me twice, and promised he wouldn't leave me again. But if cheating is what it boils down to, then I wish he'd just go.
I hear,
A voice say "Don't be so blind."
It's telling me all these things,
That you would probably hide.
Am I,
Your one and only desire?
Am I the reason you breathe,
Or am I the reason you cry?
It's been going on for too long now. I hated him so much, but I couldn't bring myself to believe that I hated him. I groaned and rolled over in the cold bed, looking out the window. Reconstruction had finished a few years back, which led to population growth, which led to overpopulation. The flock was happy about this, of course. But I was downright pissed, because we had found so many people that survived, that I particularly hated. I'm stubborn, as Nudge says. But I really didn't feel like having a sip of tea with Brigid and her lovely gang that took us to Antarctica.
I heard the front door of the house open and close. I closed my eyes and started to lightly snore. I heard his light footsteps enter the room, then I felt his arm around me, pulling me to his chest.
I made up my mind. I'm not going to waste any more time. I will take action.
Tomorrow.
Last Kiss Goodbye
It's tomorrow night. And Fang and I are watching a movie.
That's when I heard his cell phone go off.
Five times.
He finally answered the text message.
He turned to me.
"Iggy wants me to go out to a bar with him."
I fake-smiled. "Okay."
He kissed me on the lips softly before pulling back and grabbing his car keys. "Bye, love."
When I heard his car speed away, I sprang into action. I quickly jumped off the couch and grabbed the phone, speed-dialing Ella's number.
She answered on the second ring.
"Max? What's wrong? Are you okay? Are you hurt?"
I took a deep breath. "Is Iggy there?"
"Yeah, he's right here. Iggy!" She screamed the last part. Well, at least I know Iggy isn't at a bar. Unless there's a bar at their house...
"I got to go Ella." I hit end call on the phone.
It's calming down outside,
Another lonely night.
You said you were just going out with your friends.
I'm waiting up this time.
I hope you didn't lie.
It never used to be like this way back when...
I never know where your at.
Another train off the tracks.
I don't wanna live like that,
No.
I waited for five hours. That's when he finally came home, hair messed up, stumbling across the room. That's when he saw me. I saw guilt flash in his eyes before turning away, seeming suddenly interested in a picture that hung on the wall.
When you walked in so damn late.
What the hell was I supposed to think?
When you've had too much to drink.
And your really looking guilty.
Oh.
When you wouldn't even look at me.
There's only one thing it could be.
You were with her all this time.
I silently got up and made my way over to where he stood. He looked at me, a sad, guilty look on his face. I reached on my toes to give him a kiss on the cheek.
Here's one last kiss goodbye.
Three month later, I was living with Iggy and Ella, who kindly took me in after they heard about the incident. I sat on their couch, watching the news channel, not really paying attention to it. I felt my pone vibrate in my pocket. Without looking at the called ID, I answered.
"Hello?"
"Max, please. I miss you so much. I can't live without you. Please," he begged. I cursed under my breath.
"Fang, you've broken my trust. You know, I should have seen this coming. I'm such an idiot."
"Max, plea-"
I hung up.
No more alibies.
No more little lies.
You've broken my trust and it can't be fixed.
I should have seen the signs.
Should have recognized.
They way your lips look like they'd been kissed.
How'd we end up like that?
Another train off the tracks.
It always hurts looking back now.
When you walked in so damn late.
What the hell was I supposed to think.
When you've had too much to drink.
And your really looking guilty.
Oh.
When you wouldn't even look at me.
There's only one thing it could be.
You were with him all this time.
Here's one last kiss goodbye.
Another lesson learned in life.
And I keep asking myself,
Why?
I took a deep, shaky breath. And for once in a really long time-
I cried.
