AN: IMPORTANT! Hayley will be in this story BUT only in FIRST chapters. Do not worry I am not gonna endure you to this torture any longer. A warning she may be a real bitch in the story more than usual since I don't like her very much (well not at all).
Also I do not own TVD or its characters. Everything belongs to Julie Plec except for the plot of this story.
"He's your first love, I intend to be your last however long it takes."
Those words keep repeating themselves in my head. No matter what I can't get them out of my head. It's been three months since I last saw him and yet it feels like a lifetime. The summer went by and as soon as the fall came I was sitting in my dorm talking to Elena about every day drama all the while thinking about the last time I saw him.
To make things worse Tyler practically broke up with me over a freaking voicemail. I know he needs to help the pack but still it wouldn't hurt to come see me and spent some time with me before he runs off to god knows where. Not to mention Bonnie is still A wall. She still didn't come to college. All we get from her are emails and postcards. It's starting to worry me. This is not like her to just go on a round the world trip without saying goodbye or a phone call at least.
"Caroline... Caroline... CAROLINE!"
I looked up only to meet with a worried Elena.
"Sorry. What did you say?"
Elena looked at me with another worried look before continuing.
"I said if you heard anything from Stefan."
That was another problem I was facing. My best friend went A wall as Bonnie after graduation. Only that he didn't contact anyone. He just left. Who could blame him. His brother stole the love of his life. It was bound to happen.
"Elena." I sighed trying to think of the best way to tell her this.
"Stefan needs his space. What did you expect to happen? That he will just continue living under the same roof while you play in the shack with his brother? He needs to come to terms with it. And YOU, being all happy with Damon won't help his mind or his heart. He might be happy for you both but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt him to see you with Damon."
She threw me a frustrated look.
"I know it's hard for him but still he could call someone. At least inform them of his whereabouts or wellbeing. He just vanished. I can't help but feel like something bad is going to happen."
I failed to see how to make Elena understand that Stefan needs alone time. Every time the topic comes up she gets into a fit and starts mumbling about all sorts of things. Sometimes it makes me wonder if she made the right choice, if she still deeply loves Stefan and the only thing preventing her from seeing that is the sire bond. Yes, she did break it but could there still be a tiny bit of it left.
After all every witch said it's impossible to truly break a sire bond. Maybe it's still there but not as strong as before.
"Elena, he needs space from every one. Stefan needs alone time so he can truly come to terms with it. I still say he is your epic love but I'm supporting you in your decision. If Damon is what you truly want then please let Stefan go. You don't need to send him mix signals, it will only be worse for him. The best you can do is to wait for him to show up. At some point he will come back and then you can get all your answers that you need."
Elena just nodded and went to sleep after that.
With her asleep and nobody or nothing else to keep me distracted my thoughts went back to him. To Klaus. That night keeps playing in my mind. Would it be any different if he wasn't the big bad original that everybody is scared of. Would I give him a chance then and accept his offer of showing me the world. I knew it was crazy even to think about it but ever since he swore to be my last love and leaving Mystic Falls for good after that, I can't stop feeling like something is missing. Like there is a big hole in my heart that can't be fixed if I stay here. It's crazy. Beyond crazy. It's madness that needs to stop. I can't keep thinking about him, his charming smile and those blue eyes.
NO, stop it Caroline. You can't keep thinking about him. He is an evil hybrid that caused so much grief to your friends. Not only that he tried to kill them on various occasions. Then again we did try to kill him on more than one occasion. What makes us any better than him? We killed in our past. Some of us still do. What makes us so much better than him? I couldn't come up with anything. No matter how hard I tried. Yes, Klaus killed a lot of people who we loved but then again we also killed people that were loved by someone. Nothing made us better. The only thing that separates us from him are our friends and family that we can trust. Klaus doesn't trust anyone not even his family. Everyone has betrayed him at one point that is why he closes up to people and uses intimidation and torture to get what he wants.
"Ahh... I can't do this anymore."
I got up from my bed, went to my closet where my suitcase lay and put it on my bed. My mind was made up. I'm going to New Orleans to find the original pain in the ass and finally make up my mind about him. This constant wondering needed to stop. My fear of him, of what could it mean to my relationship with my friends needed to stop.
With the suitcase fully packed, I went to a sleeping Elena and whispered as quietly as possible:
"Sorry Lena, but I need to go through with this. I hope you will understand it one day." And then I embarked on my journey to see if I can truly conquer my fears that revolve around a thousand years old hybrid.
AN: I hope you liked it. It's my first Klaroline story. I would appreciate a few reviews so I can make this story better. ;)
P.S.: I still don't know how this story is going to be played out. I mean what the main plot will be. So you may be surprised at some point or not. :)
