Story playlist ; you don't care about us by placebo , special needs by placebo and protege mio by placebo

Just some songs i think fit this chapter not sure if i'll do it next time

Remus had enough reasons his friends should not stand him. He's a danger, a werewolf, what if he bit or worse yet killed someone. Bad enough he was in love with Sirius Black, his best friend. What would his friends think, surely they'd abandon him, he was lucky they even put up with him. It wasn't fair to do this to them, he was too much work for what little he was worth.

He decided in that moment that he would no longer burden those around, what that meant he didn't know. Running away, dying. He would do it by next week, he'd have to start packing now before his roommates came back. No, he couldn't hold his friends back like this for another day, he'd run away today.

After dinner the Marauders (James, Remus, Sirius and Peter) all made it back to their rooms. His roommates talked avidly of James's plan to woo Lily.

The young werewolf wrote his goodbye letter to Sirius he couldn't bring himself to leave anything for his other friends. 'You're so selfish, can't even thank them for what they've done for you.' he thought to himself. He could feel tears fall down his face.

"Moony are you alright?" Sirius tenderly touched Remus's knee.

"Yeah I'm fine." before they could ask any other questions the honey haired boy ran to the boys bathroom.

'Way to go to make a scene now there'll never let you out of there sight.' he harshly criticized himself. He heard a knock on his stall "Moony are you alright? Please let me in." It was Sirius, he was such a good friend much better than Remus deserved.

"I'm fine, is it just you?"

"Yes of course, now please tell me what's wrong?"

"I just can't. Please leave."

"I'm tired of losing people, let me help you." Remus could feel a flood of tears run down his face.

"I'm so sorry I can't do this, you don't understand."

"Then explain to me." Sirius was now crying as well,

"I can't lose you too Moony. I can't."

"I'm sorry Sirius I really am."

"Don't do this Moony."

"I'll be back in a minute once I get myself collected."

"Moony…"

"Go I'll be right behind you I promise I just need a minute." he could hear Sirius leave, he continued writing.

Dear Sirius

This isn't your fault your great friend to good I don't deserve you, or any of the marauders. You're a better friend than I deserve. There's a secret i've hidden for too long. I love you, I know you couldn't possibly feel the same. By the time you read this I will be gone, maybe not dead but gone, for sure.

Goodbye, yours truly

Remus Lupin

Remus whipped his face and went back to his dorm, everyone was asleep.