The Tale of a Rat

By Angel Of Noctem

(Peter Pettigrew's POV)

Someone is leaking information to the Dark Lord.

That someone is me.

All the members of The Order of the Phoenix are being suspicious all the time. I can see how this is tearing the group apart. Alice and Frank are giving each other quick glances from the corner of the eyes. Remus and Sirius are giving each other suspicious glares most of the time. Not that they think the other one would do such a thing, but they can't be sure either.

James and Lily are being very worried; they are after all the ones that need the protection. At least they can trust each other.

But no one suspects me. Not my friends, not Dumbledore. Not a single soul! The first month I was relieved by this, it felt so good that they wouldn't know about the betrayal. I was ashamed, I really was. But still I couldn't quit. I couldn't find my Gryffindor courage.

The time went by and I had betrayed them for over three month. I felt so bad that I almost hoped they would find out so I could stop this betrayal and stop tearing the group apart. But I didn't want to die, so stayed silent.

Now six months have passed and this morning I had been watching a photograph portraying us, The Marauders, by the lake a sunny day. When I saw that happy picture I realized that I loved my friends, especially James. So why would I betray him? So this morning I decided to actually do something about this situation, I was going to tell Dumbledore what I've done.

But then something happened; earlier this evening, about an hour ago, just before I was going to tell Dumbledore I noticed something. No one thought it was me who had done it. No one. No one believed in me, no one thought I was good enough to do it. And when I thought of it I realized that none of my friends ever really had believed in me. They'd always been insulting or making fun of my lack of brightness that the rest of The Marauders possessed. And now when we were adults they still didn't think I was capable of this. Not because they think I'm so kind and so loyal, no because they think I'm too dumb to do it. This realization hurt. A lot.

Therefore I decided I was not going to quit. I was determinded to continue actually. This was their own fault. I betrayed them because I wanted to. Because they didn't think I was clever enough to do it.

Someone will keep leaking information to the Dark Lord.

That someone is me.