A poem: Loves me, loves me not
Loves me… loves me not… loves me
I see the way you look at her wishing, hoping
That someday she'll love you back.
You were so busy trying to get her to love you
You didn't notice the one who already did…
Your love is unrequited
But I don't want to tell you that
I don't like destroying hope
for it's the one thing keeping me up
Keeping me alive
Loves me…loves me not…
Curse the flowers
They never tell the truth
One time its yes another its no
Loves me…loves me not…
So why am I still relying on them?
Loves me…loves me not…
I'm 98% sure you don't love me back
I still have faith on that 2%
Because I don't usually let myself fall for others
But with you I never saw it coming
Next thing I know I was falling
Hoping something would catch me and help me to my feet
In other words something to help me get over you
You look at me
You see her
You smile at me
You grin at her
You hear me
You listen to her
You like me
You love her
You probably only see me as your best friend
And you see her as you future wife
Your soul mate
I was told that opposites attract
So maybe that's why I was falling for you
And even though we are opposites
You don't feel different at all.
Loves me…
You come to me for advice
Should I ask her out?
Which one will she like better?
Do you think she'll like my hair?
I smile and answer every single one of them
No matter how much it hurt
And watched you get together with her
When I kept seeing myself in her place
I was 98% sure you didn't love me back
I kept faith on that 2%
Loves me… loves me not…
Cursed flowers
Here I am now
Thinking
Visualizing
What could have been our future
I am enveloped in darkness
The tears fall freely down my cheeks
Ruining the mascara
We were supposed to go to that dance that you forced me to come to
Remember?
I bet not
I have lipstick on, eye shadow, and I'm even wearing a dress
All for you
And I get nothing in return
More tears fall, landing on my gloved hands
I shake my hair out of my messy bun
Prepared to walk home in my high heels
But I'm paralyzed
I keep seeing you with her
More tears
Now, I don't care
I finally have enough strength to walk home
I glance back at the building where the dance was taking place
It doesn't matter anymore
Morning arrives
I get up early like I always do
I walk to our tree
Remember?
We used to swing together when we were little
Not minding how close our bodies were
I sit on the wooden board
We hadn't been here since you got with her
I silently rock back and forth
Again tears come to my eyes
I can't stop them
Because I didn't want to
Because no one was there
To tell me that everything was alright
That it was okay
At that moment I felt so alone
I hear someone approaching
I do not look up
I do not care anymore
And then you speak my name
I slowly look up
Hating myself for being so weak
Your face is also tear streaked
I knew that look
She had broken up with you
You expect me to run over to you
To hug you
To tell you that it's ok
But I will never do that
Especially now
I look down at my hands
Pushing down any desire to rush to your side
There is silence
Then I hear you walk over
And your hands push my back gently
Making the swing croak and move
My hair gets in my face
I make no move to push it back
It stays like that for a few minuets
Again, silence
I stand up getting off the swing
I hear you walk towards me
And I'm ready to counter anything you say
I'm ready to hurt you
Because you hurt me
You wrap your arms around my waist
Your face nuzzled into my neck
"I'm sorry"
And I know that you've realized
That you've finally noticed me
I was 98% sure you didn't love me back
Thank god I kept faith on that 2%
Loves me…loves me not…Loves me
